[You Win]

The blows come back to haunt me,
Throw me against the walls.
Arms grab me, pull me in.
Whisper to me, the darkest sins.
They surround me,
I’m trapped in the dark.
Hear me?
The screams that wake you in the night,
Maybe you sit straight up from
Your nightmares.
Is it real?
Because you win.
You win.
Grab my losing arms,
Throw me off the cliff,
And I plunge, willingly to
The bottom.
Maybe I will find safety,
Maybe I will find nothing at all.
I may find myself surrounded in sin.
Whatever I find,
I’ll always know that you win.
Watch me up go up in smoke,
You can find me in the mirror.
Inhale me like cancer.
(I’m just as bad.)
And exhale me into the wind.
(Discard the waste.)
And I’m just as bad.
You win.

.Alyss.
9.6.08