[Darien’s Noose]
The noose has gotten tight.
Around this barren scarred neck.
Rubbing against bleeding skin.
Against my god forsaken sin.
I walk along the line, noose dragging behind.
It's getting tangled and tied around everything.
Choking, oh so fast.
I can't breath.
Will anyone untie me?
Crawling, sprawled out on the ground.
I think I might be dying.
Dying here in front of everyone.
Will anyone stop and pay me any consent?
Save me?
Please?
I can feel it digging deeper inward.
Screaming louder, so inward.
Can anyone hear me?
This noose is killing me.
Slowly choking away the life.
Lifting my sleeve I stare.
Upon the arm.
Holding the pairs of stitched threads.
Wrapping up my arm.
Up my body.
Could anyone love me?
I'm just a tossed rag doll.
Named Darien.
Lost in all gray.
Within a world of color.
Look in the mirror.
Upon cryptic scars.
Touch them over my eyes.
Cover them up leave them be.
Leave them, so no one can see.
Look upon the eyes of the dark.
Eyes of the demon.
Oh so red of blood.
Bleeding tears of sin.
Pour down these cheeks.
Down my pale cheeks.
Staining like a white rose.
No more Darien.
Darien the dark's gone and lost.
Within his own world of gray.
[Look who I’ve found]
Oh Darien, Dear Darien.
I’ll save you.
I’ll untie your scarred neck.
Here let me help you up.
Up into my arms,
Come on, love.
There’s no harm to be done.
Just give me your arms,
To pull you into me.
My arms are mortifying,
They are scarred and cut to the bone.
Don’t be frightened.
Oh Darien, Darien I’ll never leave
You alone.
Do not be frightened,
Just come right here.
With me you’re safe,
You’ve nothing to fear.
They’ve tied you to your wrongs,
I see you tied to your sins,
A broken, letdown dismay you’ve portrayed.
But I’m here to save you, Darien.
I’m here to take you away.
Let yourself loose and follow my lead.
Come on, Darien. Get yourself up.
Pull your gored body up
From whence you came.
I can feel your heart,
You’re so close to safety.
I won’t let you die in front of me,
I won’t let you give up.
Never take your eyes off of me.
People can laugh and cast you away,
But I’ll be put away with you.
Climb out of that hole.
But I know…..
I know when you walk down there,
It cuts you up.
I know when you fall down there,
You cannot get up.
There are creatures down there,
They toss you around like a rag doll.
They beat you so hard that you
Get beaten into the earth.
They toss you about like a paper airplane,
And a paper airplane always gets crumbled and thrown
Away.
You are worth so much more.
You’re beautiful.
And here I walk along the sidewalk,
On a dark and cloudy day,
My tutu even looks so sad,
My Pointe shoes are frayed.
I find my Darien, all tossed away.
Lifeless, he’s cold.
I’ll take him home.
I’ll fix him well.
He will be as good as new.
No one will be able to tell,
That my Darien has been so hurt.
I beret’ my way home,
My dear Darien safe in my arms.
I’ll keep him safe.
Darien, You’re safe from all harm.
[She Came Along]
I lay in her arms as I'm carried away.
Away, away from harm.
She speaks to me so softly.
Calls me her dear Darien.
I smile, for once in awhile.
Lost beyond it all.
I can hear her voice speaking out to me.
Mending my wounds.
Cleaning these scars.
The crosses carved in my arm.
The threads in the other.
She's a wondrous joy.
In her tutu and Pointe shoes.
She looks so beautiful.
I'm glad to have her here.
To be in these arms.
I stand up, stumbling, she holds me.
I stare into those eyes.
She smiles.
Oh my sweet, I thank thee.
For saving me.
For not finding me worthless.
For taking off this noose and these threads.
I can't remember the last time I smiled.
I can't remember the last time my heart skipped a beat.
Place my hand on her cheek.
Rub my thumb under her lips.
I sing to you.
With my muddled voice.
Hoping for you to love my song.
As I sing it to only you no one else.
[Cleaning Him Up]
Oh, my dear.
Please stop screaming, I know
The wounds are deep.
Just a few more seconds now
And my fixing will be complete.
I’ll fix you.
I’ll fix you, my dear.
Please, stop your crying, love.
I know you’ve been badly hurt.
But lookie here, love.
You’re safe with me.
“My name is Rina.”
Shhh. Hush, Love, Hush.
Its okay now, see?
Look you’re all cleaned.
Physically you’re okay.
But what do I do about your poor little heart?
I’ve never fixed one before.
Oh dearie me, your poor little heart.
Your cut and tattered little heart.
Oh, what to do?
No need to thank me,
I was drawn to you.
Taken aback by you.
It’s my fate to save you,
To sew you back together.
To cauterize the wounds,
Inflicted by the ones who deceive.
You’re safe in my arms.
“Tell me your story, love.”
You can stand, you can stand.
Never take your eyes off of me.
You can make it.
Just crawl to me,
If you have to.
You, dear Darien have spread
A smile across my face,
With just your presence.
Now come to me, my dear.
Dance with me.
Sing to me.
Oh, you’re voice is so beautiful.
I dance to your song,
My heart moves in waves, not beats.
I dance for you,
Dance with me?
[Hello, Dear Rina]
Oh, dear Rina.
I shall tell you my story.
The story of this destroyed heart.
The heart you've mended.
I was once someone of a smile, all the while.
But that soon changed on a faithful day.
One selfish person took me away.
Tortured me, till I nearly died.
Then she brought me back to life.
And killed me again.
It was on a repeated thing.
Some days I thought it'd be different but no.
It never was, always the same.
Always me, to be thrown to the ground.
To rot and unfound.
Till this faithful day when you found me.
I remembered I could be happy.
I could smile.
All because of you my dear, who was drawn to me.
As I am drawn to you.
I stare into those eyes.
So full of beauty.
Looking into that gaze, I take haste.
And give you this kiss.
So full of love.
I want it to fill your heart.
Pull back.
My dear Rina, tell me of your story.
Please?
[Rina's Story]
Ha ha!
I will make that naïve being regret,
The day she ever set her cries into this world.
Oh yes, blood will be drawn.
Oh yes, needles will be broken
Off in her pretty little skin.
My own little triumph over evil.
It will be great.
No one hurts, my dear Darien…
At least…they don’t get away with it that is.
No one gets away with murder.
The story of who broke me,
Still sends its venom throughout
My tangible heart.
He held me.
He told me he cared and
Oh how I fell for him,
He was so thoughtful and perfect to me.
Until, I had gone too far to even turn back.
He grabbed me,
Threw me to the ground,
Beat me ‘til I was blue, he did.
Then is the spur of the horrid moment,
He ripped my heart clean out of me.
Then he left…..
He left me broken,
Blue and
Bleeding on the floor.
He didn’t even look back at me,
Just left.
Then came back and I welcomed him
Back with open arms.
Naïve of me.
How stupid could I be?
I let him back in
Just to be broken again.
Beat me ‘til I was blue,
Literally.
Left me crying in the coldness
Of midnight,
Alone.
Oh Darien, he hurt me so bad.
He has created this monster in me.
It still hurts.
I hate him.
He is the only person that I
Truly hate in this world.
Darien…..
I am a monster like him.
Even ballerinas can be doomed.
[Reaction]
Eyes flare, full of rage.
He will pay, I say.
No one harms you my dear Rina.
I hold you tight, kiss your cheek.
Whisper in your ear.
You're no monster.
Even if you are, I still love you.
We are both hurt beings, with cryptic hearts.
But now we have each other.
We have ourselves.
We will never be alone.
Never again.
We will never be hurt.
Not ever.
Cause if anyone was to try and hurt you again.
I would pin them upon a tall post.
Nails and all, wrapped in barbed wire.
I would show him, that he's made a grave mistake.
Oh a grave one, that'll send him to hell.
I rock you softly in these arms.
Sing to you brightly.
My words full of love.
I send you to sleep my dear.
To wake you soon my love.
I won't let you stay there.
To rot.
Every morning I'll be here.
In your heart and at your side.
No matter what.
I'm here for you my dear.
Rina.
[Are you real?]
So what you’re telling me
Is that you are going to save me?
Oh love, that’s simply impossible.
The gods of all the earth could not save this
Poor being, that I call me.
Not the god of love,
Not the god of all the planets,
Not even the god of good things.
Nothing can save me.
So how can you,
A small being like yourself
Have so much power
To do so?
How can you save me
When I cannot even save myself?
How can I save you when you cannot save you?
How can this be so?
Please, love tell me so that I know.
Your soft arms hold me,
Could I be happy?
Really happy?
Is it a miracle?
Has the world come to an end?
The song that seeps from your lips
Is like honey to my ears.
Its like hallelujah to my life.
Being held before the sun sets,
Before the night has a chance to end.
Safe?
What’s safe?
[Darien's Song]
Can you see these.
Carved in my arm.
A sign of my hasty pain.
The pain caused by you.
Now count to three.
And tell me how many you see.
Crosses carved up my arm.
A noose around my neck.
Let it drag, hopefully someday.
It'll snag, and I'll be gone.
But, I don't want to leave.
I want to breath.
I want to be seen, seen by someone.
But nobody sees me.
Never.
No one sees dear Darien.
He's so repulsive and scarred.
They avoid him.
They leave him to choke till his last breath.
[Rina's Song]
It runs its core across my skin so smoothly,
Oh this incompetent joy!
It breaths its relief into my lungs and
I can breathe once more.
It’s the knowledge of knowing you, dear blade.
Oh how I come to you in need.
What kind of monster am I?
What have you done to me?
I lack the emotion of a real
Human being.
Oh how I long to be seen!
Someone notice me,
Love me.
Breathe into me.
Someone, anyone pour your need into me.
The blade…..
It kisses my skin.
Caressing my deepest pains.
Turning them into pretty little
Lines up and down my body.
Look how pretty I am.
Look darling, I can bleed too.
And Oh! How I can bleed.
Want to watch me?
You’ve hurt me.
Murdered me.
So easily you did.
So easily I surrendered to your
Deceit.
I can’t stay here,
But I’ve no way to leave.
I’m stuck here.
Oh blade…
You’ll save me, won’t you?
“Oh dear Rina, What have you done!”
[His Happiness]
Gods mean nothing to me.
Not ever, not today.
I've been so forsaken, too long has it been.
But indeed I will save you, show you the sky and all it's stars.
Within my chest beats the strongest power of all, my love.
The power of my heart.
As it beats for you.
And only you.
You can save yourself and so can I.
We just need each other's help to do so.
We can rise with each other in our eyes.
Only us
I feel your heart beat against my own as I held you.
Will this world end?
If poor Darien becomes happy?
If he finds someone who loves his voice and heart?
Even if this world ends for this, I will hold you till the fires burn.
And never let them singe your beautiful skin.
Never let it harm you at all.
That is safe my dear.
[Her Sorrow]
Is there no hope for happiness
In this sad girl’s world of dark?
Is there no hope for a better day?
I’ve been keeping my heart
In a little box because it’s all cracked
And torn.
No one will have it!
No, no one will see it.
That ugly thing that I call a heart
Must forever be kept away.
It’s far to broken to belong.
There it no hope of better days.
Not in my world of gray.
You can save me, love.
Oh yes, by god you can try.
And I may arise!
But I will fall…
Again.
You know I will.
I know you will.
Happiness is a joke.
Oh yes, darling it’s a hoax.
A fairy tale, love.
Yes, Happiness is just a lie in
My world of gray.
My world it’s so dark that even shadows
Cannot find their way.
Even the darkest of creatures
Never come out to play.
In my world of gray.
My sorrow, oh the aching of my
Half beating heart!
Will this pain ever succumb?
[Wings]
We both live in this world of gray.
Surrounded by nothing but dark.
But now we have each other.
And my heart houses so many scars.
Scars of my own accord, scars of her accord.
But nothing of your own.
It only beats for you as I've said.
And your heart is as beautiful as I imagined.
Don't keep it in that box.
Show it off.
Show them your beautiful heart.
Make them envious you have found someone.
Don't fear my dear, I'll keep it safe as well.
And even if you fall again, I will be there.
Be there to help you up and take you back to the top.
Time after time, I will even if I die.
And if I fall, will you there to take me back?
Will you raise me back to the top?
Upon this back, black wings are held.
They've long since become useless for they are broken.
But I can feel them mending, since you've came along.
I've felt them fixing.
And in our world of grey, I will show you light.
The light of you and me.
[Reach]
Oh, love don’t you know?
I’ve lived in darkness far too long,
The light will burn my pallid skin.
The light will shove me to my knees.
Oh please, let me stay down here
In this hole.
It’s my comfort zone.
The light will rip right through us,
Don’t you know, love?
Don’t you know?
We won’t live one day into the light.
Is there no hope for us?
I crumble to my knees,
My body is broken.
By heart is broken.
But in this brokenness I will lift
You up to the light.
I will give you the last of
My strength,
My very last breath.
Just reach, love.
Reach for the sky and don’t let up.
I’ll come join you someday,
But for now just reach.
Don’t worry about me.
They will be blinded by your light,
They will run for their skins.
I will keep your light,
I will keep it safe.
But don’t you know, dear.
I am so broken.
I cannot move,
I cannot fly.
Darling, Darling I’m paralyzed!
Just reach…
Reach, love, reach!
[Only To You]
No matter my love, I will not leave you.
Not ever, will I leave you in this hole alone.
Maybe you're right the light will burn me too.
Burn straight through.
I myself have found the dark very nice.
Especially with you here.
It feels so much better.
And we have hope for each other.
And when you crumble I'm there.
Picking you up, holding you tight.
Kissing you, letting you know that I'm here.
And don't worry about me, I'm not leaving you here.
Alone.
I'm staying, don't worry, I'm still here and always will be.
No need for light as long as you're here.
I will fix you.
Sew you up, bandage you.
And reaching does no good without you in my arms.
Cause I'm not leaving you here.
I'm staying my dear.
Staying with you.
Staying for you.
Cause this heart within my scarred chest.
Will never stop beating your name.
Dear Rina.
[What's to Do]
How could someone have tossed you
Out into the cold?
How could they just leave you there?
They are coldhearted.
I will hunt them like an animal
And take them to their knees,
Make them say goodbye,
Turn them into debris!
Its man hunt now and fancy me mad if you will.
But I found an urge in my blood to
Kill,
Kill,
Kill.
But for now…..
Dear Darien, what’s to do?
Journey across the world,
Just me and you?
Journey across our dark little world,
To search for something new?
Oh Darien, what’s to do?
I’ll walk a thousand miles on
My toes for you.
I’ll inhale toxins for you,
Anything for you.
Dear Darien, I love you.
Tell me what you need.
[Show you the stars]
I've no idea my dear who would do such a thing.
But they are nothing now, even if she comes back.
I will show her my scars, show her my knife that will meet her chest.
But my dear for now.
I wish to walk with you.
Along the shore.
As we watch the ocean slowly come our way.
As it lays under this moon's light.
With these stars I will wish upon them.
For this to never end.
Never ever.
I will stay by your side forever.
Hopefully you will feel the same.
As I hear your voice speak my name.
My heart just skips a beat and I smile.
Something I haven't done in awhile.
So let's just stay here for awhile.
Let the stars swallow us into the ocean.
Where the cold waves hold us.
And where I hold you, in the cold winds.
Keeping you safe from everything.
[The Next World]
Her.
I don’t want to see what she
Has done to you.
But it’s clearly visible
I’m here to heal you, Darien.
What’s love if there is no faith?
What’s the moon without the stars,
My love?
I’m not me without you.
Not me at all.
Just twisted and broken…
The night sky holds so much
Potential for a love like ourselves.
Stars shine above us and
The wind whips around our face.
This is the perfect place, Darien!
To stop time and break into the next world.
To stop time and live in this moment forever.
The ocean waters hold a place for us.
We could disappear into the night,
Encase ourselves in waves.
Live among the darkness down there,
Live among the sea creatures.
We could leave.
And no one would find us.
We’d be lost forever,
Together.
Love, we’d be lost.
I always said that you weren’t
Aloud to get lost without me,
But now I am willing.
Let’s go.
I’ll take you there.
Just take my hand and we will bust
Into the next world.
Out of our gray world and into
Someplace more suitable…
Besides darkness.
Come on, run.
Let’s leave.
[To Wonderland]
To be lost with you would be a glorious thing.
The best I could ever imagine.
Just you and I.
A new world for us to see, some thing oh so extraordinary.
As long as I'm lost with you it's worth it.
Take me far away from here, show me something new my dear.
Show this poetic tragedy, something anew.
We're gone, so far off the map, no one will find us.
No one will.
It'll just be you and I.
Searching out for a new world, just us under the moon.
Under these clouds.
In which the rain will fall and wash away our pain.
Away with it all.
.
We're running so far now.
Oh out of sight.
But to us this is our adventure from reality.
To our fantasy, maybe one day we'll fall down the rabbit hole.
Down to Wonder Land, where we'd be safe.
Safe in a world for us.
Where you'd be my Alice and I'd be your Hatter.
[Off We go]
Here we go, love.
Through the thousand trees of Oregon,
Through the oceans where many pirates
Have sailed.
Passed the vicious mermaids, and the many
Battles with undead warriors.
We are off to Wonderland.
Down the throat of us, into the mind of
One another.
Here we go, darling.
Down the rabbit hole,
And into our world.
Where we escape from the real world.
We go into our wonderland.
To forever love in peace.
Just you and me Darien.
Darien and Rina.
Falling down,
Down,
Down into our Wonderland
Where I will be your Alice.
Where you will be my Hatter.
And we will drink away our sizes and
Make fortresses with our tears.
Walk through many doors,
And send sharp arrows through our cards.
Come on, love.
Let’s go.
Let’s begin, Hatter.
Off to wonderland……
Come on, Darien.
Show me what you’ve got.
[Tea Party]
I grab your hand, pull you close.
Kiss your lips, oh my dear Alice.
Let's just get lost here.
Here in our Wonder Land.
Where no one will ever find us.
It'll just be us.
We find ourselves at the table.
Sitting, voices surrounding.
I'm here pouring your tea.
Oh this is our mad party.
Let's take time to enjoy the sight of the moon.
Which engulfs us as we dance and sing.
Such a wonderful thing this has become.
It's become our love.
Our Wonder Land in which we've come to be lost in.
DARIEN AND RINA PART 2
[Under The Moonlight
Under all the moon light.
I danced away on the graves.
While you hung so tightly to him.
I just wanted to run off into, all the dark.
As the ghosts whispered in my ears.
I had no fears of any.
But I could feel them inching closer.
I just wanted to go farther.
Deeper in this cold.
But to all dismay of these outer grays.
Poor Darien, won't ever leave his Rina.
Not even if she's so far from him.
I'll be here waiting.
Waiting till the day you need me.
Darien waits oh so silently.
Hurts so secretly.
Fades oh so quickly.
[Vanishing to Moonlit Skies]
The graves held a familiar sense
Of deadness.
Just like the heart of me.
I sat, head in my hands.
Tears in my eyes.
It was oh so dark,
No one even heard me, saw me cry.
I sat on a soul and waited
For the gruesome hands to reach up from
The dirt and pull me under.
Would you even wonder?
Wonder where
Your dear Rina went?
Would they cry for my name?
To the gray clouded skies,
I begged God to smite me where
I stood.
Whispers to things that aren't there.
Or were there?
I watched my Darien wisp
And run.
Waiting to perish into the
Pendulum abyss…..
Rina decays so quickly.
Hurts so silently.
Rina is breaking down…
No one knows.
Not one soul.
[Take Me To the Burning Skies]
I looked upon the moon.
It's rays seemed to burn through me.
Straight through my skin.
Tearing away what was within.
Watching her up and run, I wonder.
Wonder where?
I follow, but is warded off by the familiar spirit.
I assure myself away, in all pain.
Wanting just to hold dear Rina.
I see her pain, wanting just to soothe her aches.
But to some I'm unwanted even near her.
Who am I to care what they think.
All I want to be is near her.
Wind catches my skin and we're all off.
Watching moving lights from the back seats.
Looking in the rear view, our eyes met.
For such a second.
I could feel her heart in mine.
[Epiphany]
Which way do I go?
Heaven or Hell.
I belong in neither.
Too filthy for Heaven.
Too demented for Hell.
So where does Rina belong?
Ah yes. In the ground,
Purgatory I say.
I should be torn apart by the
Decay there.
The arms plunge right through me
To rip out my internal organs.
To clean me out…
Empty me.
There’s nothing left in Rina.
“Rina, dwell down here. We’ll rip
You apart so easily.”
The ghosts of my past call to me,
They beckon me to cry.
Beckon me to tear at my skin.
Rina can burst to flames.
Peel away her skin,
Throw away the exoskeleton and
Stab at the disgusting molt of
Human waste.
Laugh at Rina.
The ghosts steal her away.
No one even noticed that darling Rina
Was wisped away by tyrant ghosts.
[Down The Rabbit Hole]
I turn, to see her being pulled away.
Far away from me.
Taking haste, I run, faster then ever.
Grasping her hands, I pull her towards me.
Hold her tightly.
I'm never letting you go.
"I'll take you to Wonderland. Where no one
Can harm you." I whisper.
Carrying her off into the deepness of the trees.
I'm rushing down the rabbit hole.
To a place where no pain can reach us.
Standing you up I look into your eyes.
So full of sadness.
All I can do is embrace you.
Hold you tight and assure you.
Everything is going to be alright.
For I am always here and will never leave.
[Falling Away From All]
My eyes are clouded by the sadness
That has engulfed my vision…
Everything is so blurry.
I can barely feel…
But I feel your arms…
Wrapped so tightly around my
Minimal being.
The soil beneath me is soft.
If you let go I would probably sink
To the ground zero of Hell.
I know not what you’re speaking of…
“Alright.” “Never leave you.”
Those words I’ve never heard.
My breathing is so thin,
My lungs are about to give….
I wish you would just let go.
Let dear Rina go and search for
Someone worth it.
Darien, you don’t need a girl who’s
Soul is chained to demons,
And words like riddles.
You don’t need that.
With that I take a final glance
Into your eyes and
I fade into my blurry vision.
I fade into my bottomless soul.
They will tear me…
They will scrape me…
They will be the death of me.
But I fall into the depths of Rina,
Of myself.
I’m sorry that I couldn’t have lived
To make dear Darien crack a real smile.
[Just Can't]
Falling limp in my arms, I hold tighter.
Dear Rina, you just don't understand.
The only one I want is you.
In all truths I know, no one wants me.
No one needs me.
Little Darien the Dark, pitiful and weak.
I look into your eyes, begin to breathe life.
Straight into your lungs.
I can't let you go.
Because you have brought a real smile.
You have made me happy.
I look to my dear.
Holding her, I pulled her in close.
For I love you Rina, more so then anyone
[The UN-SAVED]
An unsavior for an unsaved soul.
Nothing can save me now.
Not much can upside my frown.
I fall.
Fall into the puddle of my broken heart.
The shards so heavily sharpened.
They will slice me up into
Tiny pieces…
No one will be able to put me back together.
An unfixable soul to the one that’s swift
At hand.
An unfixable ballerina toy….
Will sit on a dusty shelf.
Choking on elderly debris,
Drinking self-genocide.
Even Rinas tutu looks so sad,
So sad waving in the wind,
As dear Rina spirals.
They will get me,
Don’t you see?
Listen to me.
They will get me.
No helping Rina now.
She was born unto the generation
Of the unsaved.
So many souls to steal,
Yet they target Rina.
Meet me at ground zero.
[Hang Me High, High Above The Tallest Branch]
My dear I can save you.
Only if you let me.
But in all truths, aren't we all but unsaved.
I hung upon my tree, noose in all.
Swaying left to right.
And in all fright, I couldn't feel the light around me.
All I could see was black, nothing else.
Lips sewn shut, lost in a world of shadows.
But even now, I wish to fix you, ignoring my own injuries.
Just to mend you.
For you are my everything dear Rina.
I wish to save you, to save someone so unsaved.
Now watch me as I swing back and forth.
Noose to the tree.
Blood sliding down my knees.
Will you but save me too?
[Nowhere to go but down]
The strings sewn into my skin.
The blood dripping,
Drip.
I dance for the audience.
The audience of creatures,
And monsters of the dark.
The strings are yanked harder
And Dear Rina falls…..
Falls before the audience of
The lookers who do not see.
To them, she fails…
Couldn’t keep up,
Couldn’t hold that pose,
Couldn’t hold that smile,
Rina fails,
Rina falls.
She bleeds as she’s yanked away from
All she has ever known,
The wounds clearly visible.
But not to the naked eye.
Do you see?
Do you see her pain?
Can you hear her screams?
Even the loudest whispers in the
Dark could not hold a place for their
Ears interest.
Now here this….
A simple kiss upon
Thy wrist…
And Rina will be no more.
[Hide Away From Monsters. Living Dead Boy]
Here we are, under darker skies.
I'm here to stay, no matter.
Dear Rina, I'm not letting you fall.
Not at all.
So don't forget I am here, next to you.
Watching over.
All this torment, I shield your eyes.
From the demons.
They will never get you.
To sacrifice heart and soul.
All for you.
I'm listening as you're screaming.
Reaching as if i was all but dreaming.
Just to caress that cheek.
To wipe away those tears.
I'm losing grip.
I'm getting sick.
Listen while I scream.
Scream away all these damn monsters.
As they crawl from my head.
Into clearer days.
Without consent I burned away.
Under all this pain.
Away from all of your eyes.
And As I cry, no one hears.
As I wail in darkness.
Away from all the feeling.
Even with one touch you'd freeze.
I'm but dead, inside the living.
Hiding away from you.
Could you find me?
If I was lost?
I don't think you'd try.
Or you'd try with all your heart.
But that all depends.
Depends if I want to be found.
Darien the dark, lost with all pain.
Crosses carved in.
Scars held upon gentle skin.
[What Rina Is Made Of]
The days couldn’t be darker,
My heart could not be more thin,
With all these beasts scurrying
Beneath my skin.
Tell me that I am waste.
I am a ruptured planet,
The grit of an ancient shooting star,
Crumbled but,
Still shimmering…
Barely.
Swipe me off the earth and
Scatter me again.
The pieces have been shot far beyond
The sinking sun.
Where will Rina go?
I reach for the smirking stars,
Waiting for your arms…
Oh no…
The Glass, the darkness surrounds me and I
Sink the bottom of the dark ocean.
The waves toss me, beat me,
Rape me.
Your screaming hurts my ears,
How can I quiet such pain?
Please stop, Darien…
Please stop the screams,
You or them?
Let me back in.
She reaches for me,
Yanks me under.
Pulls my hair,
Rips nails across my face.
Steel.
She crawls back under my skin and
Scrapes, and scrapes,
And scrapes…..
Her filth injected into me.
It’s not me.
Don’t listen.
The screams.
Do you hear me?
Darien hear your Rina…
Help me,
Where must I find you?
Where must I journey,
My heart is not strong……
Keep screaming love..
I’ll follow those screams,
To the pit of darkness…
I’ll follow them into the dark.
[Through Perils Of The Dead. Across Worlds To You]
I look to the stars.
As I find you're worlds away.
But I still crawl your way.
Across these worlds to you.
Across hell for you.
Your the love I always wanted.
Dear Rina.
I'm coming back to you.
Please meet me in the center.
The wind's so strong, shattering all my bones.
But I'm still walking on.
I'll never give up on you.
Here I'm walking, through fields of glass and rivers of blood.
Nothing holding me back, nothing can.
Not even the tallest waves, as I cross this ocean towards you.
I'm not giving up till I'm with you again.
I'm there, in the center, bloody and bruised.
Laying under stars waiting for you to come back to my side.
Singing with my dreadful voice, I call out to you.
Under stars so bright.
I was lost in all that was night.
To only be found by beauty.
Her name as wondrous as the sky.
Dear Rina, the day I found you.
Was the day my heart began beating.
[Hung Upon A Star. I’ll Reach You Someway]
You are from your world,
And I am from mine.
Two different worlds.
But two of the same.
I hesitate in my steps to you,
And I walk when you bid me run.
I run when you bid me crawl.
Rina can’t bear the disappointment
Of another,
Especially you, Dear Darien.
I’ve stumbled before.
In all Hell you bid me to come to you,
Still I hesitate,
Please understand
I’ve been……
Please, just understand.
I’m looking down on you,
Watching you.
I am hung upon a star,
My neck is starting to bleed.
I am hung upon a star,
So wish upon a star and
Maybe they’ll cut me and I’ll drop down
To you.
I can’t reach you,
You’re all the way down there,
And I’m hung upon a star,
Strung up in my heart…
I struggle to be free,
I grab at the bind,
Hoping to get loose from
This fetter.
Although, I know that If I fall,
It’s a long way down.
I could splat and die,
Or my wings will rebirth
And I’ll fly….
I’ll meet you halfway,
But what’s my limit.
Will I splat darling,
Or will I fly?
[Catching A Shooting Star. Wonder, Wonder]
Watching up high.
I pray for you to fall my way.
Fly my way...
But what if you soar towards other directions?
Leaving me here alone.
Would you ever?
Listening in on whispering words.
She's speaks.
What must I understand?
Just tell me, Dear Rina.
I reach up to you.
A shining star hung up on a noose.
I'm climbing, climbing to set you loose.
Climbing the tallest mountains.
The tallest trees.
Reaching out to you, arms open.
Will you fly my way?
Or soar off in other directions?
But don't worry, I won't let you splat and die.
I'll be here to catch you.
Dear Rina, remember what you said.
We'd be together someday.
When will that day come?
I wonder.
Will it ever be here?
I wonder this as I reach up to you, upon the tallest tree.
Reaching to the farthest star.
I'll catch you.
[Ripping Through Earth. A Fallen Angel]
I reach back to you.
While falling,
I reach back with such an embrace.
My body breaking more
With each crack through the hemispheres.
My wings spread.
I soar.
I fly to you,
Reach for your hand,
To pull you up from that terrible
Place.
I touch your fingertips,
A soft shock.
I’m about to save you,
So close to saving you, love.
Just one grasp and we can be free.
I’m shot out of the sky.
Raging arrows rip
Right through me,
Souls passing through me,
Tearing me apart.
They’ve come for me…
They’ve come to hurt me again.
To retrieve the demon that I am.
I’ve broken their chains,
Tried to break free.
But oh no.
They have come back for me.
My wings give and
Dear Rina spirals to earth.
Landing crushed,
Cracked in an imprint
Of earth.
Surrounded by darkness,
Rina is sucked under again.
They are pulling me down.
To chain me back up.
Such a brutal role,
For a treacherous soul.
I can’t breathe,
My lungs can’t take all the
Filth….
The ground is choking me,
Taking my life.
Darien fly,
Fly away.
Get out alive.
[Our Lost Heaven]
With all my strength I grab your hand.
Pulling you from the earth that swallows us whole when we die.
And with all my breath, I breathe my life into you.
With the last slivers of this waste of a soul, I carry you to the safety under the moon.
Setting you upon the grass we once laid under.
And as the last of me dwindles I stand to the edge.
Watched the last quarter fade.
The ocean below so sweet.
But I lay next to you, holding your hand.
Awaiting you to wake from the deep sleep.
My breath thins.
I reminisce on the past days.
The days when I'd hold you in my arms.
Tell you I love you.
I meant it every time.
All of this heart is yours.
And will always be.
No one will take your place.
Now I hear the creatures crawl, hear them sprawl.
I stand, holding you in my arms.
And from my back, my once broken, shattered wings, sprout.
Black feathers, as black as the ravens.
Raising high above the moon.
I fly off, holding you.
Off to our Lost Heaven.
The place we always wanted.
Wonderland.
As we fly I hold you tight.
Against my heart.
[It doesn’t have to end today. But Rina does]
I feel the wind beneath your beautiful shape.
Me embraced.
The chemicals. The lifting air.
The lifting your strength gives.
Coasting us along.
Your strength keeping us
High,
So very high above the world.
If you let go,
I could explode into poisonous gas
In the sky.
I can feel your arms around me,
So tight.
But I feel you slipping away,
Ever-so-slowly.
Am I letting go?
Or are the creatures yanking you
So far away?
Are they yanking me?
Who knows?
You’re here now, aren’t you?
My eyes flutter open,
Emotion leaks from soggy lips,
Twisted notes fill the black sky.
Frigid words freeze,
I try to speak.
I cry out to you,
But through all the thunder and rain,
Can you hear my cries?
You are as close as beats of your heart
Are to my ears,
And you have yet to hear me.
Rinas heart is leaking,
Breaking,
It’s about to stop beating.
Rina could freeze in her Dariens arms.
Could this be the breakdown of Rina?
This could be our story.
You can take this cold, insidious heart
And chuck it across the Universe
And be okay with it.
Your black wings are so beautiful
To my shaking eyes.
I melt through your arms,
And leak to the core of a worm hole.
No one can save me.
I love you, Darien.
Your Rina loves you.
But she is just broken.
Crackling screams,
And ripped wings.
[No Matter What, I’m Not Leaving You]
No matter what you think.
You're beautiful Dear Rina.
To me, you are the most beautiful thing to wake on this earth.
Nothing could ever compare, nothing ever will.
When I see, hear, even think of you, my heart's in pure nirvana.
I hear your screams, I kiss you gently, hush away the pain.
For they won't get you, not while I'm around.
Deep ghosts of white, hide from sight, for I am here.
I will never let them take you.
As I fly upon darker skies, these monsters tear at my wings.
Still I fly on, to safer places, despite all the blood and pain.
I'm not giving up, not ever.
Crash landings to the far sides of reality's based islands.
I found you still here, gently held in my arms.
Standing, pain surges, bleeds from my wings.
From my soul, soul torn at the seams, fall apart.
Darien the Dark's failing, dying, screaming.
Or is it all but my mind, tearing away at me again.
These voices of the dead, whispering in my ears.
Shattering my soul, bringing me down to that hole.
I'm not listening, not hearing them, they aren't here.
Love, I'm going to protect you from this dreaded world.
That tries to keep you down, I won't let it get you.
I'm here standing tall, even if my body was to die, I'd still be there in your heart and mind.
Nothing's going to get you, tear you from me, not while I'm around.
Welcome to the world of wonders.
Our little Wonderland of Nightshade.
[Stuck In her Head. My Angel]
I’m trapped in my head.
Falling faster with every
Crippling thought.
I’ve seen you fly, Darien.
I’ve also seen you fall,
One too many times.
What can I do?
What can this girl do to help
You stand up straight?
You lay so limp in my arms.
Your body is so cold.
Because of me.
I know it is, they’ve told me.
Heavy weights drag behind me,
Analog memories weigh my
Tears down.
Make them hurt more.
Your beauty is bleeding,
What you had to fly is now
Tattered in my hands.
My hands have your blood on them.
Because of me.
I’ll fix them don’t worry.
This will all get better someday.
My tears wet your velvet cheeks.
Goodbye on my lips.
Unknown whispers seek my ears,
They think Rina is a shadow.
But Rina is a robot.
You love a girl who is completely reliant
On metal, love.
The soul in me screams out to you,
My eyes could tell you everything.
They’ve taken me over,
But my soul is still crying to you.
You’re holding my hand,
Walking along the road to our new world.
You tell me of a love that’s pure,
And that you’ll never leave.
Rina Robot is processing it,
But my soul can’t reach it.
There is a sea of love held
Within your hand,
You could be oceans away from your Rina,
But I know there’s love with every wave.
I’m trapped inside my head,
Screaming to shatter inner demons.
Upon your rope I will succumb,
The robot will do as it’s told:
Destroy.
Destroy me.
I hold you in my arms,
Your breathing so still.
Your broken wings,
Broken heart.
I’ll fix you, I promise.
I set you upon the floor gently,
My hands shaking.
I will succumb to your rope.
Rina takes the rope,
A steel scarf.
Winter falls,
The trees look so welcome.
I think they would like to have tea with me and
My steel scarf.
I walk on….
Staggering.
I look behind me,
Look at your fragile body.
My angel.
[My Eyes Are Bright]
To here I lay limp.
But I'm crawling, in all actuality.
Sprawling on the ground to you.
Your walking far.
Farther and faster.
But still I try, try and try.
This world is nothing without you.
You haven't made me cold, I've always been this way.
I'm bleeding because of demons, writhing in my skull.
They want to rule it all, rule this body and soul.
But I won't let them, their havoc cannot be unleashed.
I stand, limp, faster towards you.
Now I'm running.
Reaching for your hand.
Grasping it tight I pull you in.
What they say is pure sin.
What they say is all lies.
I'm here, so near.
Never letting go.
That scarf isn't going to take you.
I'm not letting them hang you.
I hold tighter.
Stare into your emerald eyes.
Darien's deep hazel faded to dark.
But they've always been this way.
Till that day.
The day Rina.
Danced into my life.
My eyes turned bright.
[Goodbye on my lips. You know I don’t belong]
Heavy tears hit the ground.
I feel your weak body
Arise from the earth.
You need to rest,
Just lay there.
I’ll send out a signal when I’m
Atop the tree.
Before I jump.
Help will come,
They will save you and
Take you away,
Far away from here.
I feel you running.
Taking my hand.
You need to let go.
You know Rina must do this,
You know I must leave.
Please don’t do this,
You’re making it harder on me.
Rina is sin,
My oxygen of choice is lies.
My scarf beckons me to
Use it,
It beckons to warm my neck,
Such fresh blood.
Something called you from your corner,
And fell so softly against your chest.
A spark of life glows in your
Eyes.
Then fades to black.
I need to do this.
Let go.
I tear my hand out of your grasp and
Break for the trees.
I’m getting lost without you.
I hope you don’t mind, Darien.
I claw up the tree,
Hidden.
Satisfied.
Wrap my steel scarf around my neck,
And make a break for it.
[Chasing Beauty. Deep Forest Fallings]
I cry, reachout to you.
I'm not losing you.
Dear Rina, please stay, stay here with me.
Chasing after you I run through trees.
Plastered with red and leaves.
Falls catching up fast.
I have to take haste.
Find you standing, high above branches.
I look upon you, beauty.
Climbing to you, I stand, taking balance.
Looking into your eyes.
Why? I ask, words deeply laced with sadness.
I love you, words deeply laced with heartships.
Turn my head to the ground.
Look back, smile.
Dear Rina, there's no need for this, no need for it at all.
And thus I began to fall, slipped on my own blood.
Stray branches breaking my bones.
The ground resting far below.
Coming up fast, graveyards cheering, all but sneering.
Snickering of dead bodies echoes.
I grab hold of a branch, stopping this aweful fall.
Reaching, I begin to climb once more, faster.
No matter how much pain.
I'll always endure it.
As long as I see you.
Everything seems better.
Reaching the top, I'm fine now.
Grasping your hand again, I whisper in your ear.
Dear Rina, please come down from here.
There's no need for you to hang.
You've done nothing wrong.
So please come down, with me.
[You always come back. I’ll hold you ‘til I die]
I stare at you, Darien.
You’re crazy.
The scarf is tighter.
Maybe if I jump a little faster,
Ball up a little harder.
I won’t have to see the pain on your face.
I stand above all.
Rocking back and forth for balance.
The lace on my dress dancing with the wind.
My cuts screaming into hollow air.
I feel vibrations in the tree.
I feel nature lace through the leaves,
Almost tipping me.
The ground beckons to hold my grave.
I’m always running away.
Always making trouble.
You come to me,
Bleeding….pain in your heart,
Pain in your eyes.
Because of Rina.
You take a steady step towards me,
And slip.
I watch you slip,
I watch you fall.
I can save you,
Why won’t my feet move?
I look down,
Chained to another one of my demons.
Chained to another pretty suicide.
My heart is racing,
I need to save you,
Oh god I need to jump.
I’m ripping my Pointe shoes off,
When I notice silence.
I heard no thud. I heard nothing.
The scarf grows tighter,
So tight I cannot scream.
I see you,
Come back to me.
Ache on your mind.
But love in your heart.
You grab my hand once more,
Sing beautifully to me,
Words packed with love.
I tilt my head and smile.
I wrap my arms around you.
“I Love You, Darien.”
Then with my arms even tighter
Around my love.
I rock backwards,
Holding you tighter this time.
[ Love You. Always Will. Rainy Days]
I remove the dreaded scarf.
Look into you're eyes, giving a kiss to your lips.
I smile, Dear Rina, I'll hold you till the day I die.
Helping you down from the tree.
I stare into the moon, smile held on my face.
The full moon gracing us with its presence.
A wonderous thing, for this wonderous scene.
Holding you dearly, my eyes on yours.
Smiling, I kiss your forehead.
"I love you Dear Rina."
The moon fades to black, giving us darkness.
All for but a second.
Now the sun rises, before our eyes.
So bright and spectacular.
But it's nothing compared to you.
I rest my head on your shoulder.
My body so tired.
But I still stand, Dear Rina.
For you are my everything.
And always will be.
Clouds encircle our sky, shrouding the sun.
A deep grey, looks like a rainy day.
Thus the sky's tears begin to fall.
Sweetly onto our skin, cooling and soothing.
I lay in the grass smiling.
My eyes so bright.
I look at you, you're beauty like no other
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.Alyss. Faust.
3.14.08-8.13.08
3.14.08-8.13.08
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