My words are my life, they are pieces of my heart. If ever they were to get destroyed, my spirit would break. I love each and every one of my poems or stories. They are memories of times, places and feelings I once had. Therefore, they are intangible and beautiful to me. Pieces of me that i gave away to reach out. Use your imagination. I'm in the world where anything is possible, that's where my mind lies, encased in the purest human magic possible: Imagination.
I am strong supporter of Imagination.
I will be posting a lot of my work on here. I have been writing for seven years so I have many differents kind of writing with all kinds of dates. I can see how much my writing has grown since I first started writing.
I am what I am.
.Alyss.
12.31.11
Saturday, December 31, 2011
[Haunted, I still wonder]
The memories can so easily
Be painted out in my head.
You are written all over the walls of my mind.
It’s haunting.
They haunt me in my sleep,
They haunt me in my wake.
I am haunted by you and
By the questions that I cannot
Have answers to.
So lost, I stand…
Swaying from right to left.
Bobbing up and down.
The questions, oh the questions.
Haunted by a question mark heart.
I wonder if your bullet
Still has my name on it.
I wonder if I’m still the prettiest
Gem in the bunch.
I wonder if the walls of your mind
Are stained with my name.
I draw the stories,
I write the pictures.
I scream for silence,
Plagued by the memories.
I am haunted.
Haunted.
Haunted.
Haunted, but I still wonder.
Be painted out in my head.
You are written all over the walls of my mind.
It’s haunting.
They haunt me in my sleep,
They haunt me in my wake.
I am haunted by you and
By the questions that I cannot
Have answers to.
So lost, I stand…
Swaying from right to left.
Bobbing up and down.
The questions, oh the questions.
Haunted by a question mark heart.
I wonder if your bullet
Still has my name on it.
I wonder if I’m still the prettiest
Gem in the bunch.
I wonder if the walls of your mind
Are stained with my name.
I draw the stories,
I write the pictures.
I scream for silence,
Plagued by the memories.
I am haunted.
Haunted.
Haunted.
Haunted, but I still wonder.
.Alyss.
3.30.08
3.30.08
[It's up in the air. Creator in a Blue dress.]
She is coming for me.
Closer.
Breath as clear as day.
Her heart stopping,
Bone grinding,
Lung groping laughter.
I choke on her, struggling.
Through struggle my fate
Becomes clear.
Rina has submitted to the knife,
She swallowed the knife,
Made way for the noose.
Rina has lost this race.
But what is the point when
You have nothing to lose?
And Darien, take a guess on who’s
Pulling the noose tighter.
Crawling.
I follow my rope to the end.
It ends at a cliff overlooking a
Hellish battle field.
Bleeding angels.
Faceless figures.
Bleeding stars.
My rope is in the hands of my creator,
The grasp of my maker.
Blue cotton dress and bleeding mascara,
She smiles a fiendly grin and yanks the rope.
I am ripped into the air.
My feet dangling over the sea of fire.
She laughs.
Chills form in my veins,
Leaving them icy with dismay.
My eyes fade in and out,
I’m not so sure if I’m ready to die.
She pulls harder and I am face to
Face with the guillotine.
My fingers are tightly around the rope
Between my neck and the beast.
My breath is nil my tears are scolding hot,
Like acid.
They leak to my lips,
Ripping the skin,
Chapping and curling the skin,
I cry harder.
I cry blue with sorrow and I
Cry green with envy.
The guillotine speaks to me of worldy blood
And happiness beyond purgatory.
Screaming cold sheets of metal,
Spitting needle stings into my face.
My tears ducts bleed.
My creator in blue cotton takes a curtsy.
And lets go of the rope,
Watching me fall into my endless doom.
I am but a rag doll tossed amongst the vultures.
I am a toy to the demons.
I am but a lost cause.
Rina.
Gritting my teeth to the pain,
I let the creatures tear me to bits.
I let them shatter me as If I am porcelain.
I am She.
I stand on the edge.
Teeter.
Teeter…
Teetering..
Closer.
Breath as clear as day.
Her heart stopping,
Bone grinding,
Lung groping laughter.
I choke on her, struggling.
Through struggle my fate
Becomes clear.
Rina has submitted to the knife,
She swallowed the knife,
Made way for the noose.
Rina has lost this race.
But what is the point when
You have nothing to lose?
And Darien, take a guess on who’s
Pulling the noose tighter.
Crawling.
I follow my rope to the end.
It ends at a cliff overlooking a
Hellish battle field.
Bleeding angels.
Faceless figures.
Bleeding stars.
My rope is in the hands of my creator,
The grasp of my maker.
Blue cotton dress and bleeding mascara,
She smiles a fiendly grin and yanks the rope.
I am ripped into the air.
My feet dangling over the sea of fire.
She laughs.
Chills form in my veins,
Leaving them icy with dismay.
My eyes fade in and out,
I’m not so sure if I’m ready to die.
She pulls harder and I am face to
Face with the guillotine.
My fingers are tightly around the rope
Between my neck and the beast.
My breath is nil my tears are scolding hot,
Like acid.
They leak to my lips,
Ripping the skin,
Chapping and curling the skin,
I cry harder.
I cry blue with sorrow and I
Cry green with envy.
The guillotine speaks to me of worldy blood
And happiness beyond purgatory.
Screaming cold sheets of metal,
Spitting needle stings into my face.
My tears ducts bleed.
My creator in blue cotton takes a curtsy.
And lets go of the rope,
Watching me fall into my endless doom.
I am but a rag doll tossed amongst the vultures.
I am a toy to the demons.
I am but a lost cause.
Rina.
Gritting my teeth to the pain,
I let the creatures tear me to bits.
I let them shatter me as If I am porcelain.
I am She.
I stand on the edge.
Teeter.
Teeter…
Teetering..
.Alyss.
10.8.08
10.8.08
[Second Best]
The storm howling beneath me,
In a twisting, turning doom.
I get closer to the edge,
I tell you when I’m one step closer
To the ledge.
You turn away.
I swore to you, that you laughed
Under your breath.
You deny me truth,
For I am but second best.
Where could this path take me?
This path of being unwanted,
Odd ball out,
Third wheel.
Where shall it take me?
Where will I take myself,
But one more step closer to the edge.
But I’ve got no where to go,
So I’ll wait for you to push me all the way.
I stare at your face,
You glut for something else.
My hair whips around my face,
Blinding me.
I’m second best, aren’t I?
Of course, That’s why my soul hangs over needles.
And your eyes light up with interest,
With pleasure.
You take the steps need be to reach me.
You wrap your arms around my waist.
So gently kiss me, so gently soothe this
Aching soul.
Then in one quick movement,
You place your palms upon my shoulders,
And shove me as hard as you can.
Off the edge.
Off the edge.
My body jolting backward and
Spiraling downward.
My pretty dress whipping around me.
Off the edge.
In a twisting, turning doom.
I get closer to the edge,
I tell you when I’m one step closer
To the ledge.
You turn away.
I swore to you, that you laughed
Under your breath.
You deny me truth,
For I am but second best.
Where could this path take me?
This path of being unwanted,
Odd ball out,
Third wheel.
Where shall it take me?
Where will I take myself,
But one more step closer to the edge.
But I’ve got no where to go,
So I’ll wait for you to push me all the way.
I stare at your face,
You glut for something else.
My hair whips around my face,
Blinding me.
I’m second best, aren’t I?
Of course, That’s why my soul hangs over needles.
And your eyes light up with interest,
With pleasure.
You take the steps need be to reach me.
You wrap your arms around my waist.
So gently kiss me, so gently soothe this
Aching soul.
Then in one quick movement,
You place your palms upon my shoulders,
And shove me as hard as you can.
Off the edge.
Off the edge.
My body jolting backward and
Spiraling downward.
My pretty dress whipping around me.
Off the edge.
.Alyss.
6.21.08
6.21.08
[Such Grace]
She walked through the Victorian door.
An intricate smile upon her velvet face.
A smile held as she opened the door.
Her fingers cold to the touch
With love.
She sends chills through your atria.
Have you taken away the only trust?
You’re the spirit within the glass.
You intrude her past,
Her present and
Her future.
You remind her
(It’s in her head)
Of the wrongs
(The easy mistakes)
Of the wrongfully rights
(Make up your mind)
Her fingers word "cold" across
Everything she touches.
She’s so cold.
Frozen.
She walked through the Victorian door,
Her face braced with a smile.
Braced by a lie.
Such grace she holds.
An intricate smile upon her velvet face.
A smile held as she opened the door.
Her fingers cold to the touch
With love.
She sends chills through your atria.
Have you taken away the only trust?
You’re the spirit within the glass.
You intrude her past,
Her present and
Her future.
You remind her
(It’s in her head)
Of the wrongs
(The easy mistakes)
Of the wrongfully rights
(Make up your mind)
Her fingers word "cold" across
Everything she touches.
She’s so cold.
Frozen.
She walked through the Victorian door,
Her face braced with a smile.
Braced by a lie.
Such grace she holds.
.Alyss.
5.17.08
5.17.08
[Sweet Misery]
Come here.
You have to keep it a secret.
If I tell you
Will you listen?
Will you act?
Will you hear me out?
Please stay.
Hold me and tell me that you
Won’t ever have to leave again.
Don’t say it…
A trigger thought and
I had it all in bunches.
Then I dropped it off a cliff
To hold your silence.
I just let it off a cliff,
To its death.
In the air adrift.
The rocks are violent,
Without you here.
They shift and turn me
Towards the edge.
The same place that I lost my
Sanity.
Let my being be with you forever.
In your heart,
Or in your mind.
Think of me from time to time.
I’ll be at the bottom of this cliff,
When you come back.
Then we will be together.
I’ll be in pieces,
Waiting for you at the bottom.
But would you have listened,
If I had told you?
Would you have acted?
Would you have listened to me instead of
heard me?
It might have been a chance.
But it would have been in vain.
So here I lie in pieces,
Waiting for your return.
I’ll let the thought of you
Keep me warm down here.
All my love is with you,
Until we are together.
I’ll be waiting here…
In pieces.
You have to keep it a secret.
If I tell you
Will you listen?
Will you act?
Will you hear me out?
Please stay.
Hold me and tell me that you
Won’t ever have to leave again.
Don’t say it…
A trigger thought and
I had it all in bunches.
Then I dropped it off a cliff
To hold your silence.
I just let it off a cliff,
To its death.
In the air adrift.
The rocks are violent,
Without you here.
They shift and turn me
Towards the edge.
The same place that I lost my
Sanity.
Let my being be with you forever.
In your heart,
Or in your mind.
Think of me from time to time.
I’ll be at the bottom of this cliff,
When you come back.
Then we will be together.
I’ll be in pieces,
Waiting for you at the bottom.
But would you have listened,
If I had told you?
Would you have acted?
Would you have listened to me instead of
heard me?
It might have been a chance.
But it would have been in vain.
So here I lie in pieces,
Waiting for your return.
I’ll let the thought of you
Keep me warm down here.
All my love is with you,
Until we are together.
I’ll be waiting here…
In pieces.
.Alyss.
4.3.08
4.3.08
[That Place]
There is a place,
I built within.
A place to hide my darkest
Sins.
It’s a peculiar kind of place,
Full of longing and
Ambiance,
It surrounds me.
My dark place.
My sanctuary.
The light fades,
As you walk out
Of the room.
Leaving me doomed in my
Eternal gloom.
Leaving me to this place,
The creatures,
The society.
Is there a place inside of you
Where your secrets hide for cover,
Where your tears come to a screeching stop.
And that plaster smile comes out
To greet your guests?
Ah! They hide in that place.
You know what I’m talking about!
Indeed, I cannot be completely mad
If I know the ways of people.
Or can I?
Of course I can!
You know that place, dear people!
That place that you think know
Ones knows about.
But indeed, I know.
I know that place.
It’s built within my mind.
Fancy me crazy if you must,
But you’re all just blind…
Oh that place of mine.
I built within.
A place to hide my darkest
Sins.
It’s a peculiar kind of place,
Full of longing and
Ambiance,
It surrounds me.
My dark place.
My sanctuary.
The light fades,
As you walk out
Of the room.
Leaving me doomed in my
Eternal gloom.
Leaving me to this place,
The creatures,
The society.
Is there a place inside of you
Where your secrets hide for cover,
Where your tears come to a screeching stop.
And that plaster smile comes out
To greet your guests?
Ah! They hide in that place.
You know what I’m talking about!
Indeed, I cannot be completely mad
If I know the ways of people.
Or can I?
Of course I can!
You know that place, dear people!
That place that you think know
Ones knows about.
But indeed, I know.
I know that place.
It’s built within my mind.
Fancy me crazy if you must,
But you’re all just blind…
Oh that place of mine.
.Alyss.
4.4.08
4.4.08
[The Empty Heart]
What’s the point in
Loving a heart that is empty?
In loving a heart that has
Nothing to give?
And no forgiveness to behind.
Rina has ripped out the
Heart of Wonderland,
And consumed it,
Searching for love.
(In all the wrong places.)
Boils have bubbled to
The surface and
Exploded acid onto that
Pretty skin.
Leaving Rina but a puddle of
Dirt,
Mucky, disgusting dirt.
No one will love you,
You lost your chance at love.
There’s no point in loving Rina,
Her blood is cold and
Her heart is
Annoyingly empty.
Loving a heart that is empty?
In loving a heart that has
Nothing to give?
And no forgiveness to behind.
Rina has ripped out the
Heart of Wonderland,
And consumed it,
Searching for love.
(In all the wrong places.)
Boils have bubbled to
The surface and
Exploded acid onto that
Pretty skin.
Leaving Rina but a puddle of
Dirt,
Mucky, disgusting dirt.
No one will love you,
You lost your chance at love.
There’s no point in loving Rina,
Her blood is cold and
Her heart is
Annoyingly empty.
.Alyss.
6.16.08
6.16.08
[You Win]
The blows come back to haunt me,
Throw me against the walls.
Arms grab me, pull me in.
Whisper to me, the darkest sins.
They surround me,
I’m trapped in the dark.
Hear me?
The screams that wake you in the night,
Maybe you sit straight up from
Your nightmares.
Is it real?
Because you win.
You win.
Grab my losing arms,
Throw me off the cliff,
And I plunge, willingly to
The bottom.
Maybe I will find safety,
Maybe I will find nothing at all.
I may find myself surrounded in sin.
Whatever I find,
I’ll always know that you win.
Watch me up go up in smoke,
You can find me in the mirror.
Inhale me like cancer.
(I’m just as bad.)
And exhale me into the wind.
(Discard the waste.)
And I’m just as bad.
You win.
Throw me against the walls.
Arms grab me, pull me in.
Whisper to me, the darkest sins.
They surround me,
I’m trapped in the dark.
Hear me?
The screams that wake you in the night,
Maybe you sit straight up from
Your nightmares.
Is it real?
Because you win.
You win.
Grab my losing arms,
Throw me off the cliff,
And I plunge, willingly to
The bottom.
Maybe I will find safety,
Maybe I will find nothing at all.
I may find myself surrounded in sin.
Whatever I find,
I’ll always know that you win.
Watch me up go up in smoke,
You can find me in the mirror.
Inhale me like cancer.
(I’m just as bad.)
And exhale me into the wind.
(Discard the waste.)
And I’m just as bad.
You win.
.Alyss.
9.6.08
9.6.08
[They Know]
We’ve got this down,
Down in a hole.
We no longer see the light,
Our legs are tied our eyes are blind.
I’ve lost this feeling in my arms tonight,
And I can’t hold you.
I can’t.
Because when I hold you,
I melt into you,
I become vulnerable.
And I become weak,
That how I got here…
We’re down in this hole.
But at least we’ve got this pain down.
It’s down in our bones and I can
Feel movement,
A hand touching my skin.
My hands clench and my muscles
Grow tense.
I’m being reached for.
Someone is reaching for me!
They know that I am down here,
In this hole, stuck!
They know! They know!
The warmth of someone’s arms reaching to me,
Gives me life.
I reach back and faster than it happened,
The hand disappears and I’m still stuck
Down here, in this hole.
Rotting away,
My heart turning to dust,
My tears turning to thirst.
And once again….
I am forgotten.
Down here.
In this hole,
Where everyone,
Especially you have
Forgotten me.
Down in a hole.
We no longer see the light,
Our legs are tied our eyes are blind.
I’ve lost this feeling in my arms tonight,
And I can’t hold you.
I can’t.
Because when I hold you,
I melt into you,
I become vulnerable.
And I become weak,
That how I got here…
We’re down in this hole.
But at least we’ve got this pain down.
It’s down in our bones and I can
Feel movement,
A hand touching my skin.
My hands clench and my muscles
Grow tense.
I’m being reached for.
Someone is reaching for me!
They know that I am down here,
In this hole, stuck!
They know! They know!
The warmth of someone’s arms reaching to me,
Gives me life.
I reach back and faster than it happened,
The hand disappears and I’m still stuck
Down here, in this hole.
Rotting away,
My heart turning to dust,
My tears turning to thirst.
And once again….
I am forgotten.
Down here.
In this hole,
Where everyone,
Especially you have
Forgotten me.
.Alyss.
1.4.08
1.4.08
[You Said]
Darien, oh my love,
Oh my life.
You’re so gone,
Please send me a sign to
Where you are.
Please, my darling let me be with you,
Next to you,
Walking in our own world.
We are worlds apart and I
Am so lost here.
You said, even in death
You would not go.
You said you would find me
And love me somehow.
But I am still waiting.
I am still wandering.
I know not where to search
For you.
I’ve search my heartstrings and the
Emerald skies.
Nothing.
Just piercing wind that
Stabs at my hollow being,
It rips through me.
Not a word,
Not a sound or
Even a weep.
My heart is crackling,
It’s blistering against the
Heated blows.
Not a cold front can save
My fever now.
I’m sick.
Oh my life.
You’re so gone,
Please send me a sign to
Where you are.
Please, my darling let me be with you,
Next to you,
Walking in our own world.
We are worlds apart and I
Am so lost here.
You said, even in death
You would not go.
You said you would find me
And love me somehow.
But I am still waiting.
I am still wandering.
I know not where to search
For you.
I’ve search my heartstrings and the
Emerald skies.
Nothing.
Just piercing wind that
Stabs at my hollow being,
It rips through me.
Not a word,
Not a sound or
Even a weep.
My heart is crackling,
It’s blistering against the
Heated blows.
Not a cold front can save
My fever now.
I’m sick.
.Alyss.
6.16.08
6.16.08
[You kill me, Dear]
You hold a knife.
It’s wavering right above my chest.
Swaying in beat with your waves of rage,
They are pulsing off your skin,
Like a rave.
You inch the knife into me,
Ignoring my pleading.
You always said that you loved the bleeding.
And you don’t even know.
[You kill me, dear and
You do not even see.]
Your fist hits me right upside the head,
I don’t think as I fall,
Just that I love the feeling.
And you always said that you loved the bleeding.
[You kill me so, my sweetheart.
You don’t even know.]
Ordinary day, I’d say.
Full of this dispatch of reasoning.
One kiss to the lips,
Not me,
And I fall deeper into the sand.
Underground where no one will find me.
Hell, who’d come looking for me?
[You did kill me,
But no one can know.]
Murderous love, I’d say!
Or should I say a jealous fit of rage?
Though you plunged your knife,
Into the heart of me,
And though you knocked
Me to the ground,
I cannot say I didn’t warn you.
My dear, who lies underground.
It’s wavering right above my chest.
Swaying in beat with your waves of rage,
They are pulsing off your skin,
Like a rave.
You inch the knife into me,
Ignoring my pleading.
You always said that you loved the bleeding.
And you don’t even know.
[You kill me, dear and
You do not even see.]
Your fist hits me right upside the head,
I don’t think as I fall,
Just that I love the feeling.
And you always said that you loved the bleeding.
[You kill me so, my sweetheart.
You don’t even know.]
Ordinary day, I’d say.
Full of this dispatch of reasoning.
One kiss to the lips,
Not me,
And I fall deeper into the sand.
Underground where no one will find me.
Hell, who’d come looking for me?
[You did kill me,
But no one can know.]
Murderous love, I’d say!
Or should I say a jealous fit of rage?
Though you plunged your knife,
Into the heart of me,
And though you knocked
Me to the ground,
I cannot say I didn’t warn you.
My dear, who lies underground.
.Alyss.
6.8.08
6.8.08
[Adjustments] An Unjust Story
“Adjustments.”
A sting of jealousy pulses its way,
To the tips of my spine,
Sending shivers in waves
Throughout my tangible body.
Her.
And all the glory her outside appearance
Holds.
Though inside I know she is
In pain,
Starving,
And twisted like the rest of us.
DOWNSIDE: She’s beautiful unlike us,
Way unlike me.
Another dose of jealousy,
And the blood in my veins
Is flowing with
Wrath,
Sending explosions through my brain.
She looks up at me,
Her make up always colorful,
And warm,
Smiles
And once more that hurt seethes
Atop my skin.
In the form of spiders,
I scratch and slap.
The don’t go away.
Nothing ever goes away.
I tap my pen on my desk,
Attempting to be too distracted
To think about
How she is better than me.
Tapping.
To shut her out.
Tapping to distract.
ME tapping irritably to
See her react.
Imagining I’m doing a skull splattering drum solo on her head.
And with every tip, tap, tap
And every shick, shack, shack,
She grows weaker.
Weaker and more vulnerable.
Her beauty falls away,
Revealing a horribly ugly creature.
The monster that lurks beneath that perfect skin or hers.
Tear it apart, Monster.
Tear that pretty skin to shreds.
Rip that pretty face to bits.
In my self pity, I wallow.
The creature inside her,
That’s supposed to be ugly.
Is still
Better looking than I.
Desperate for a mouthful of
Security,
I think about her home life,
I ponder.
Vicious parents,
With too much pride.
I laugh as I ponder.
My pondering makes
Me laugh.
Pondering is laughing.
I’m crazy.
But I’m still jealous
Of her.
Even of her pitiful flaws.
My envy to demise.
I go forward,
She leaps back.
I go to him,
He leaps to her.
Kisses to demise.
Her medium, golden hair whipping
Around her face,
As he leans in for a kiss.
A kiss he’s not supposed
To give her,
Or ponder about.
A kiss to her from lips that
Should only kiss me.
He kisses her.
I feel a jolt of pain
Send electric waves
Throughout my body.
Another sting of jealousy
I’m brought to my knees,
At fault for the world.
What have you done?
In destructive pain, I stare.
Those words.
The image.
The lies.
Why?
The hurt burns into my skin,
It stings its way through
Layer
After
Layer of
Skin.
Burning me.
Leaving its mark on me,
It’s etching itself into me.
So I will never forget.
And I won’t.
Her arms around his waist,
His arms holding her close.
She lets her hands wander
Up his body to lock her hands
On his face.
Like I lock my hands
On his face.
And he falls for her,
She’s been falling for him.
I am forgotten in the situation.
There’s no such thing as me.
I am nothing.
Not even loved.
Not by him,
Not anyone.
I was never loved by him.
He was pretending,
And I was believing.
I take a double take and
Hold my breathe.
This isn’t real.
You’re in love with me,
Not her.
I’m the one you want.
“No.”
This isn’t real, I don’t believe it.
My tears pour,
They are all the tears in the world.
I’m crying all of the
Tears in the world
My heart hurts.
It aches with every beat.
My heart thrives…
To be complete.
You hurt my heart
And sometimes I don’t think
That you are very sorry.
You’ll never be sorry.
Not as sorry as I want to make you.
It was all just pretend.
Another teen chapter,
Another dramatic soap opera.
Again my heart is broke.
It’s as cold as death.
I love you,
But not even I
Am so sure.
Jealousy……….
Lust………….
The emotions are frozen beneath
My alabaster skin.
They are sleeting over,
Untouchable,
Undecipherable.
I thrive and reach up to capture,
To decode.
But my mind draws a blank page,
It draws my life.
I don’t love you but
I find myself needing you
And wanting to see your
Face.
My heart is yearning to hold you
Close.
And kiss your smooth, pink lips.
But no, love.
You don’t belong to me.
You belong to someone else.
Who am I to steal you away?
Exactly, no one, my love.
I am no one to.
This can be a secret kept between
Me
And
You.
If that.
I am jealous of her,
You know that.
Ah! Yes! Love, you do not know.
You don’t know.
You couldn’t.
So wrap yourself up in her
And sing her to sleep.
Sleep.
Take her away from her fragile.
Existence.
It still hurts.
Everything hurts.
Everything.
Crying, I’m crying.
Crying because I am
So lost and
No one will ever know.
Crying to let go,
When really I’m just drowning
In my head.
Living under grey skies.
I don’t want to talk right now,
To you.
To anyone because all that will
Be said is sadness.
All that is being said is sadness.
Everywhere I walk I leave
A trail of my gloom behind.
Love me soon!
I’m trapped in sadness.
Today I hate you.
You hate me too or….
At least you don’t love me.
I’m not very stable right now.
And I don’t think that I can talk right now.
You turn to me before you get
Into your car…
And embrace me,
Popping every bone in my spinal column.
I linger there,
In your arms,
Where I feel so safe.
Absorbing you:
The feel of you,
The way you smell,
And they way my arms clasp
So perfectly around your neck.
Don’t go again.
I know you must go, but please
Don’t leave.
These feelings come back to haunt me,
Every time you are around.
They crawl back
To me. Then they feel every stronger
That when they were
First conceived.
But there is no longer
A reassurance,
There is only a burning
Inside of me.
You would have been
So safe here,
Locked on my heart.
I would have loved you
With all of the love in me.
(But now it seems like I do that
Unrequitedly.)
With nothing in return,
You will always be my very best friend,
But it seems that
I must let other feelings go….
I’ll never have you as close as,
I would want you to be to me.
I’ll save you.
I’ll be waiting whenever you need me.
But I’ll never feel the
Inside of your kiss or
Feel your arms around me for
More than a hugs length of time.
It’s sad.
I’m sad.
I’m buried under mountains
And
Mountains of
Sadness.
I’ve been crying oceans
Of tears,
For you.
Not because you’re not here
But because I want you to be.
A sting of jagged jealousy
Scratches at the door,
The skin.
My skin.
My soul.
The glorious say I found you,
Decorated in a beautiful
Cover.
Within a reflection of beauty.
Your laugh flooded through
My ears.
Your embrace sent my heart
Into ripples.
You.
You did that.
It was a sad night,
But you filled it with joy,
You did.
And supposed I fell for you.
Suppose you fell for me.
You encased me.
Lies, pretend, never again.
You were stolen.
I stood, feeling not good enough once more.
I am never good enough for anyone.
No one.
I’m a failure.
Broken, Lost, not really here, I stand.
Just lost in you while you
Were trying to lose me.
You still haven’t lost me,
But you haven’t tried to
Shake me.
I wish you had.
I wish you would,
Because then I would be alive
Inside.
And you’d be forgotten.
I’ll disclose myself from
A heartbreak change.
I don’t want to be selfish.
Don’t want to be insane,
I’m removing myself from
This game.
The paper, the wall.
I set myself up for the greatest fall.
I’m forgotten.
You’re not here.
With this one last lamenting
Kiss,
I pave the way to death.
I’ve never loved you
With my eyes.
I’ve loved you with
Every breath.
Sorrow is my graveyard,
Where the scent of
Death is new.
Where you go through a flamed
Tombstone,
And more flames arise in you.
I look for joy,
I notice them,
Turn away and forget them.
Loving you may be in vain,
But at least I love you.
I’m forgotten.
Lost and forgotten,
Like a little girl lost in the
Grocery store.
No one will love me.
Will no one have me?
Will you ever forgive me?
Your eyes,
Your hair,
The smell of your skins,
It brings back ghosts of my past….
Our past…..
What once was but,
Never had the chance to be.
You wouldn’t have me
And now….
I’m forgotten.
I can be fake.
I can act like nothing
Is wrong.
Its
Easy.
If I just laugh and
Talk really loud.
I’ll be just fine and
No one will notice.
Then you will be just fine.
Then nothing is
Wrong and all is well,
If I am sad and you can’t tell.
I’ll be just fine,
Pretending I’m fine.
I’ll wallow up inside myself
And incinerate.
Watch the ashes blow away.
Playing tag with the wind,
Joining all the ghosts
In the world.
I can be fake.
Just watch all that I can take.
Watch me fall apart……
I don’t want to watch your
Body
Crumple or witness
Your heart in pieces.
I’ll try to save you.
If you’ll let me.
He doesn’t care for you.
He’s just a friend.
But someone cares for you.
You know this.
Don’t let him slip away.
Don’t
Let
Him
Go,
Malicious.
Your mind never stays
At ease.
You could be thinking about Rainbows,
Unicorns,
Or blue and pink cotton candy.
Then suddenly the rainbow turns black,
The unicorn turns
Into a vicious beast and that once
Yummy cotton candy turns
Into acid.
Burning holes in your mind,
Burning holes in your throat.
In my mind,
The wheels keep turning
As I attempt to unload my
Overflowing brain.
Thoughts are cracking holes in
My skull.
Bringing up the depression
That
H
I
D
E
S
In me.
But it is clearly visible
In most situations.
Never seen by you.
I hide it so well, don’t I?
I see you,
Walking towards us.
Jumping on someone by us.
You greet us.
My heart races,
My blood flows faster.
Jealousy stinging.
I walk on.
My heart in the wrong place.
But then you start to
Leave.
I hug you.
I never want to let
You go.
Never.
I wanted to stay so
Safe and warm in
Your scarred arms.
I want to stay here,
Right where I do not
Belong.
I never wanted it
To be
Like this.
Stuck inside my head
There’s no way out.
I don’t like It when
There is no way out.
Stuck inside this sadness
That to me,
Seems absolute eternal.
It’s never ending.
Oh, please stop hurting me.
Stop kissing her.
Please stop loving her.
Please.
Stop wanting her.
Please.
Just come back tome.
I’m bleeding because your
Words are like knives.
Knives.
Ripping through my body,
Piercing through my thoughts.
Slicing open precious memories.
Hurting is filing itself in
Rows of twelve
On my arms.
All over me.
Baby, bring me back in line.
Darling, rip through me.
Send your best shots at
My heart.
Let them fly at my face,
Let them twist through my body.
I fall to the linoleum floor,
My body twisted in agony.
Twisted in wire.
I don’t want to be stuck in my head
Because
That would mean I’m far away
From you,
From anyone.
In my head I have an All Insanity and
Pain association.
My skull is filled to the brim
With pain.
My arms ache,
Splitting head ache,
I’m going insane.
Insane.
Writhing, turning,
Twisting pain.
Yearning, burning
Eternal pain.
Trapped, stuck,
Confined in here.
I’m stuck………
Can’t breathe.
Eternally.
Fully.
Blissfully.
Hell.
Shhh.
Quiet.
Don’t.
Tell.
Shhhhh.
This horrid figure,
That makes up me,
Is just a broken,
Still life,
Still glass.
Statue like.
This horrid figure,
A little girls ugly Barbie doll.
(Ugly rag doll)
It’s me.
Not helpful.
Not loving.
Just cold, stale,
Overly dramatic being.
ME.
Just horrible,
Liar,
Ugly,
Thief,
Me.
I want to run.
I want to run farther than
My legs could ever carry me.
Run farther than the Heavens,
Run deeper than the Hells.
Just run.
I want to run.
[Then go.]
I can’t.
[Yes, you can.]
Hurry, go before you change your
Pitiful, diseased mind.
Run away, never come back.
You don’t want to see
Them together.
Or hear their happiness.
This life is making me die,
The people are stressing me,
Pushing me over the edge.
One more nudge and I’m gone,
Forever.
No more me.
[Oh, thank God.]
Please stop being sad.
Please let me help you.
Please, it’s making me crazy
The silence I hold.
The silence you hold.
How do you think I feel?
I’m too busy messing with
Peoples problems,
I get wrapped up in helping you
And him and
Her and them
That I forget my problems.
Then when I am alone
And no one is there to
Help me I
Crumple to my knees.
I die inside myself.
But I guess it’s my fault
Because I don’t tell
Anyone.
I cried myself to sleep last night,
No one even knew.
Did anyone even care?
[No.]
No one ever asks,
But I never tell.
I am trapped inside myself and
No one knows it but me.
I let myself fall.
It’s not entirely my fault
Because
People around me have let me down.
You don’t know what’s
Wrong with me.
To explain it, would
Be too much.
But it’s okay.
I’ll just sit here and
Hurt myself,
No one will know.
NO ONE.
I’d have to say,
There is really no point
In me sticking around here.
I am not needed and
Unappreciated.
COMPLETELY.
I hate it here and I think I
Hate you too.
I don’t think it’s
Ever hurt this much.
Heartbreak, I mean.
The pain, it’s like it’s grown
Stronger than me.
And now it’s overtaking,
Overpowering me.
Oh, God. Oh, God. Oh, God it hurts so bad.
Please fix me,
All you did was
Stop
The
Bleeding.
Except you made the
Blood pour again
With your words,
Your words like knives.
They cut right through
My thin husk and
Split to the core of me.
There’s no more of me.
No more me.
Now everyone can be happy.
Be happy.
A sting of jealousy pulses its way,
To the tips of my spine,
Sending shivers in waves
Throughout my tangible body.
Her.
And all the glory her outside appearance
Holds.
Though inside I know she is
In pain,
Starving,
And twisted like the rest of us.
DOWNSIDE: She’s beautiful unlike us,
Way unlike me.
Another dose of jealousy,
And the blood in my veins
Is flowing with
Wrath,
Sending explosions through my brain.
She looks up at me,
Her make up always colorful,
And warm,
Smiles
And once more that hurt seethes
Atop my skin.
In the form of spiders,
I scratch and slap.
The don’t go away.
Nothing ever goes away.
I tap my pen on my desk,
Attempting to be too distracted
To think about
How she is better than me.
Tapping.
To shut her out.
Tapping to distract.
ME tapping irritably to
See her react.
Imagining I’m doing a skull splattering drum solo on her head.
And with every tip, tap, tap
And every shick, shack, shack,
She grows weaker.
Weaker and more vulnerable.
Her beauty falls away,
Revealing a horribly ugly creature.
The monster that lurks beneath that perfect skin or hers.
Tear it apart, Monster.
Tear that pretty skin to shreds.
Rip that pretty face to bits.
In my self pity, I wallow.
The creature inside her,
That’s supposed to be ugly.
Is still
Better looking than I.
Desperate for a mouthful of
Security,
I think about her home life,
I ponder.
Vicious parents,
With too much pride.
I laugh as I ponder.
My pondering makes
Me laugh.
Pondering is laughing.
I’m crazy.
But I’m still jealous
Of her.
Even of her pitiful flaws.
My envy to demise.
I go forward,
She leaps back.
I go to him,
He leaps to her.
Kisses to demise.
Her medium, golden hair whipping
Around her face,
As he leans in for a kiss.
A kiss he’s not supposed
To give her,
Or ponder about.
A kiss to her from lips that
Should only kiss me.
He kisses her.
I feel a jolt of pain
Send electric waves
Throughout my body.
Another sting of jealousy
I’m brought to my knees,
At fault for the world.
What have you done?
In destructive pain, I stare.
Those words.
The image.
The lies.
Why?
The hurt burns into my skin,
It stings its way through
Layer
After
Layer of
Skin.
Burning me.
Leaving its mark on me,
It’s etching itself into me.
So I will never forget.
And I won’t.
Her arms around his waist,
His arms holding her close.
She lets her hands wander
Up his body to lock her hands
On his face.
Like I lock my hands
On his face.
And he falls for her,
She’s been falling for him.
I am forgotten in the situation.
There’s no such thing as me.
I am nothing.
Not even loved.
Not by him,
Not anyone.
I was never loved by him.
He was pretending,
And I was believing.
I take a double take and
Hold my breathe.
This isn’t real.
You’re in love with me,
Not her.
I’m the one you want.
“No.”
This isn’t real, I don’t believe it.
My tears pour,
They are all the tears in the world.
I’m crying all of the
Tears in the world
My heart hurts.
It aches with every beat.
My heart thrives…
To be complete.
You hurt my heart
And sometimes I don’t think
That you are very sorry.
You’ll never be sorry.
Not as sorry as I want to make you.
It was all just pretend.
Another teen chapter,
Another dramatic soap opera.
Again my heart is broke.
It’s as cold as death.
I love you,
But not even I
Am so sure.
Jealousy……….
Lust………….
The emotions are frozen beneath
My alabaster skin.
They are sleeting over,
Untouchable,
Undecipherable.
I thrive and reach up to capture,
To decode.
But my mind draws a blank page,
It draws my life.
I don’t love you but
I find myself needing you
And wanting to see your
Face.
My heart is yearning to hold you
Close.
And kiss your smooth, pink lips.
But no, love.
You don’t belong to me.
You belong to someone else.
Who am I to steal you away?
Exactly, no one, my love.
I am no one to.
This can be a secret kept between
Me
And
You.
If that.
I am jealous of her,
You know that.
Ah! Yes! Love, you do not know.
You don’t know.
You couldn’t.
So wrap yourself up in her
And sing her to sleep.
Sleep.
Take her away from her fragile.
Existence.
It still hurts.
Everything hurts.
Everything.
Crying, I’m crying.
Crying because I am
So lost and
No one will ever know.
Crying to let go,
When really I’m just drowning
In my head.
Living under grey skies.
I don’t want to talk right now,
To you.
To anyone because all that will
Be said is sadness.
All that is being said is sadness.
Everywhere I walk I leave
A trail of my gloom behind.
Love me soon!
I’m trapped in sadness.
Today I hate you.
You hate me too or….
At least you don’t love me.
I’m not very stable right now.
And I don’t think that I can talk right now.
You turn to me before you get
Into your car…
And embrace me,
Popping every bone in my spinal column.
I linger there,
In your arms,
Where I feel so safe.
Absorbing you:
The feel of you,
The way you smell,
And they way my arms clasp
So perfectly around your neck.
Don’t go again.
I know you must go, but please
Don’t leave.
These feelings come back to haunt me,
Every time you are around.
They crawl back
To me. Then they feel every stronger
That when they were
First conceived.
But there is no longer
A reassurance,
There is only a burning
Inside of me.
You would have been
So safe here,
Locked on my heart.
I would have loved you
With all of the love in me.
(But now it seems like I do that
Unrequitedly.)
With nothing in return,
You will always be my very best friend,
But it seems that
I must let other feelings go….
I’ll never have you as close as,
I would want you to be to me.
I’ll save you.
I’ll be waiting whenever you need me.
But I’ll never feel the
Inside of your kiss or
Feel your arms around me for
More than a hugs length of time.
It’s sad.
I’m sad.
I’m buried under mountains
And
Mountains of
Sadness.
I’ve been crying oceans
Of tears,
For you.
Not because you’re not here
But because I want you to be.
A sting of jagged jealousy
Scratches at the door,
The skin.
My skin.
My soul.
The glorious say I found you,
Decorated in a beautiful
Cover.
Within a reflection of beauty.
Your laugh flooded through
My ears.
Your embrace sent my heart
Into ripples.
You.
You did that.
It was a sad night,
But you filled it with joy,
You did.
And supposed I fell for you.
Suppose you fell for me.
You encased me.
Lies, pretend, never again.
You were stolen.
I stood, feeling not good enough once more.
I am never good enough for anyone.
No one.
I’m a failure.
Broken, Lost, not really here, I stand.
Just lost in you while you
Were trying to lose me.
You still haven’t lost me,
But you haven’t tried to
Shake me.
I wish you had.
I wish you would,
Because then I would be alive
Inside.
And you’d be forgotten.
I’ll disclose myself from
A heartbreak change.
I don’t want to be selfish.
Don’t want to be insane,
I’m removing myself from
This game.
The paper, the wall.
I set myself up for the greatest fall.
I’m forgotten.
You’re not here.
With this one last lamenting
Kiss,
I pave the way to death.
I’ve never loved you
With my eyes.
I’ve loved you with
Every breath.
Sorrow is my graveyard,
Where the scent of
Death is new.
Where you go through a flamed
Tombstone,
And more flames arise in you.
I look for joy,
I notice them,
Turn away and forget them.
Loving you may be in vain,
But at least I love you.
I’m forgotten.
Lost and forgotten,
Like a little girl lost in the
Grocery store.
No one will love me.
Will no one have me?
Will you ever forgive me?
Your eyes,
Your hair,
The smell of your skins,
It brings back ghosts of my past….
Our past…..
What once was but,
Never had the chance to be.
You wouldn’t have me
And now….
I’m forgotten.
I can be fake.
I can act like nothing
Is wrong.
Its
Easy.
If I just laugh and
Talk really loud.
I’ll be just fine and
No one will notice.
Then you will be just fine.
Then nothing is
Wrong and all is well,
If I am sad and you can’t tell.
I’ll be just fine,
Pretending I’m fine.
I’ll wallow up inside myself
And incinerate.
Watch the ashes blow away.
Playing tag with the wind,
Joining all the ghosts
In the world.
I can be fake.
Just watch all that I can take.
Watch me fall apart……
I don’t want to watch your
Body
Crumple or witness
Your heart in pieces.
I’ll try to save you.
If you’ll let me.
He doesn’t care for you.
He’s just a friend.
But someone cares for you.
You know this.
Don’t let him slip away.
Don’t
Let
Him
Go,
Malicious.
Your mind never stays
At ease.
You could be thinking about Rainbows,
Unicorns,
Or blue and pink cotton candy.
Then suddenly the rainbow turns black,
The unicorn turns
Into a vicious beast and that once
Yummy cotton candy turns
Into acid.
Burning holes in your mind,
Burning holes in your throat.
In my mind,
The wheels keep turning
As I attempt to unload my
Overflowing brain.
Thoughts are cracking holes in
My skull.
Bringing up the depression
That
H
I
D
E
S
In me.
But it is clearly visible
In most situations.
Never seen by you.
I hide it so well, don’t I?
I see you,
Walking towards us.
Jumping on someone by us.
You greet us.
My heart races,
My blood flows faster.
Jealousy stinging.
I walk on.
My heart in the wrong place.
But then you start to
Leave.
I hug you.
I never want to let
You go.
Never.
I wanted to stay so
Safe and warm in
Your scarred arms.
I want to stay here,
Right where I do not
Belong.
I never wanted it
To be
Like this.
Stuck inside my head
There’s no way out.
I don’t like It when
There is no way out.
Stuck inside this sadness
That to me,
Seems absolute eternal.
It’s never ending.
Oh, please stop hurting me.
Stop kissing her.
Please stop loving her.
Please.
Stop wanting her.
Please.
Just come back tome.
I’m bleeding because your
Words are like knives.
Knives.
Ripping through my body,
Piercing through my thoughts.
Slicing open precious memories.
Hurting is filing itself in
Rows of twelve
On my arms.
All over me.
Baby, bring me back in line.
Darling, rip through me.
Send your best shots at
My heart.
Let them fly at my face,
Let them twist through my body.
I fall to the linoleum floor,
My body twisted in agony.
Twisted in wire.
I don’t want to be stuck in my head
Because
That would mean I’m far away
From you,
From anyone.
In my head I have an All Insanity and
Pain association.
My skull is filled to the brim
With pain.
My arms ache,
Splitting head ache,
I’m going insane.
Insane.
Writhing, turning,
Twisting pain.
Yearning, burning
Eternal pain.
Trapped, stuck,
Confined in here.
I’m stuck………
Can’t breathe.
Eternally.
Fully.
Blissfully.
Hell.
Shhh.
Quiet.
Don’t.
Tell.
Shhhhh.
This horrid figure,
That makes up me,
Is just a broken,
Still life,
Still glass.
Statue like.
This horrid figure,
A little girls ugly Barbie doll.
(Ugly rag doll)
It’s me.
Not helpful.
Not loving.
Just cold, stale,
Overly dramatic being.
ME.
Just horrible,
Liar,
Ugly,
Thief,
Me.
I want to run.
I want to run farther than
My legs could ever carry me.
Run farther than the Heavens,
Run deeper than the Hells.
Just run.
I want to run.
[Then go.]
I can’t.
[Yes, you can.]
Hurry, go before you change your
Pitiful, diseased mind.
Run away, never come back.
You don’t want to see
Them together.
Or hear their happiness.
This life is making me die,
The people are stressing me,
Pushing me over the edge.
One more nudge and I’m gone,
Forever.
No more me.
[Oh, thank God.]
Please stop being sad.
Please let me help you.
Please, it’s making me crazy
The silence I hold.
The silence you hold.
How do you think I feel?
I’m too busy messing with
Peoples problems,
I get wrapped up in helping you
And him and
Her and them
That I forget my problems.
Then when I am alone
And no one is there to
Help me I
Crumple to my knees.
I die inside myself.
But I guess it’s my fault
Because I don’t tell
Anyone.
I cried myself to sleep last night,
No one even knew.
Did anyone even care?
[No.]
No one ever asks,
But I never tell.
I am trapped inside myself and
No one knows it but me.
I let myself fall.
It’s not entirely my fault
Because
People around me have let me down.
You don’t know what’s
Wrong with me.
To explain it, would
Be too much.
But it’s okay.
I’ll just sit here and
Hurt myself,
No one will know.
NO ONE.
I’d have to say,
There is really no point
In me sticking around here.
I am not needed and
Unappreciated.
COMPLETELY.
I hate it here and I think I
Hate you too.
I don’t think it’s
Ever hurt this much.
Heartbreak, I mean.
The pain, it’s like it’s grown
Stronger than me.
And now it’s overtaking,
Overpowering me.
Oh, God. Oh, God. Oh, God it hurts so bad.
Please fix me,
All you did was
Stop
The
Bleeding.
Except you made the
Blood pour again
With your words,
Your words like knives.
They cut right through
My thin husk and
Split to the core of me.
There’s no more of me.
No more me.
Now everyone can be happy.
Be happy.
.Queen Alyss.
2.25.08
2.25.08
[A Heart?]
Today’s the day,
I’m tearing it apart.
This broken mess
I call a heart.
The hurt I caused you,
It’s just too much.
I can hurt you,
With one single touch.
A snap from my fingers,
And you’re down on your knees,
Begging for your life; “No! Please!”
I laugh at your stupidity
And how you cherish your life.
The only way you’d mean something to me
Is if you were bleeding from a knife.
I let you in my heart.
Yes, I let you love me,
Only to be hurt…
Only to be deceived.
What’ve you to say for yourself?
Excuses I won’t take…
So get down on your knees
And prepare for your heart to break.
.Alyss.
11.23.06
[Darien and Rina Pt.2]
Again, Holmes starts the story and so on.
[Under The Moonlight]
Under all the moon light.
I danced away on the graves.
While you hung so tightly to him.
I just wanted to run off into, all the dark.
As the ghosts whispered in my ears.
I had no fears of any.
But I could feel them inching closer.
I just wanted to go farther.
Deeper in this cold.
But to all dismay of these outer grays.
Poor Darien, won't ever leave his Rina.
Not even if she's so far from him.
I'll be here waiting.
Waiting till the day you need me.
Darien waits oh so silently.
Hurts so secretly.
Fades oh so quickly.
[Vanishing to Moonlit Skies]
The graves held a familiar sense
Of deadness.
Just like the heart of me.
I sat, head in my hands.
Tears in my eyes.
It was oh so dark,
No one even heard me, saw me cry.
I sat on a soul and waited
For the gruesome hands to reach up from
The dirt and pull me under.
Would you even wonder?
Wonder where
Your dear Rina went?
Would they cry for my name?
To the gray clouded skies,
I begged God to smite me where
I stood.
Whispers to things that aren't there.
Or were there?
I watched my Darien wisp
And run.
Waiting to perish into the
Pendulum abyss…..
Rina decays so quickly.
Hurts so silently.
Rina is breaking down…
No one knows.
Not one soul.
[Take Me To the Burning Skies]
I looked upon the moon.
It's rays seemed to burn through me.
Straight through my skin.
Tearing away what was within.
Watching her up and run, I wonder.
Wonder where?
I follow, but am warded off by the familiar spirit.
I assure myself away, in all pain.
Wanting just to hold dear Rina.
I see her pain, wanting just to soothe her aches.
But to some I'm unwanted even near her.
Who am I to care what they think.
All I want to be is near her.
Wind catches my skin and we're all off.
Watching moving lights from the back seats.
Looking in the rear view, our eyes met.
For such a second.
I could feel her heart in mine.
[Epiphany]
Which way do I go?
Heaven or Hell.
I belong in neither.
Too filthy for Heaven.
Too demented for Hell.
So where does Rina belong?
Ah yes. In the ground,
Purgatory I say.
I should be torn apart by the
Decay there.
The arms plunge right through me
To rip out my internal organs.
To clean me out…
Empty me.
There’s nothing left in Rina.
“Rina, dwell down here. We’ll rip
You apart so easily.”
The ghosts of my past call to me,
They beckon me to cry.
Beckon me to tear at my skin.
Rina can burst to flames.
Peel away her skin,
Throw away the exoskeleton and
Stab at the disgusting molt of
Human waste.
Laugh at Rina.
The ghosts steal her away.
No one even noticed that darling Rina
Was wisped away by tyrant ghosts.
[Down The Rabbit Hole]
I turn, to see her being pulled away.
Far away from me.
Taking haste, I run, faster then ever.
Grasping her hands, I pull her towards me.
Hold her tightly.
I'm never letting you go.
"I'll take you to Wonderland. Where no one
Can harm you." I whisper.
Carrying her off into the deepness of the trees.
I'm rushing down the rabbit hole.
To a place where no pain can reach us.
Standing you up I look into your eyes.
So full of sadness.
All I can do is embrace you.
Hold you tight and assure you.
Everything is going to be alright.
For I am always here and will never leave.
[Falling Away From All]
My eyes are clouded by the sadness
That has engulfed my vision…
Everything is so blurry.
I can barely feel…
But I feel your arms…
Wrapped so tightly around my
Minimal being.
The soil beneath me is soft.
If you let go I would probably sink
To the ground zero of Hell.
I know not what you’re speaking of…
“Alright.” “Never leave you.”
Those words I’ve never heard.
My breathing is so thin,
My lungs are about to give….
I wish you would just let go.
Let dear Rina go and search for
Someone worth it.
Darien, you don’t need a girl who’s
Soul is chained to demons,
And words like riddles.
You don’t need that.
With that I take a final glance
Into your eyes and
I fade into my blurry vision.
I fade into my bottomless soul.
They will tear me…
They will scrape me…
They will be the death of me.
But I fall into the depths of Rina,
Of myself.
I’m sorry that I couldn’t have lived
To make dear Darien crack a real smile.
[Just Can't]
Falling limp in my arms, I hold tighter.
Dear Rina, you just don't understand.
The only one I want is you.
In all truths I know, no one wants me.
No one needs me.
Little Darien the Dark, pitiful and weak.
I look into your eyes, begin to breathe life.
Straight into your lungs.
I can't let you go.
Because you have brought a real smile.
You have made me happy.
I look to my dear.
Holding her, I pulled her in close.
For I love you Rina, more so then anyone
[The UN-SAVED]
An unsavior for an unsaved soul.
Nothing can save me now.
Not much can upside my frown.
I fall.
Fall into the puddle of my broken heart.
The shards so heavily sharpened.
They will slice me up into
Tiny pieces…
No one will be able to put me back together.
An unfixable soul to the one that’s swift
At hand.
An unfixable ballerina toy….
Will sit on a dusty shelf.
Choking on elderly debris,
Drinking self-genocide.
Even Rinas tutu looks so sad,
So sad waving in the wind,
As dear Rina spirals.
They will get me,
Don’t you see?
Listen to me.
They will get me.
No helping Rina now.
She was born unto the generation
Of the unsaved.
So many souls to steal,
Yet they target Rina.
Meet me at ground zero.
[Hang Me High, High Above The Tallest Branch]
My dear I can save you.
Only if you let me.
But in all truths, aren't we all but unsaved.
I hung upon my tree, noose in all.
Swaying left to right.
And in all fright, I couldn't feel the light around me.
All I could see was black, nothing else.
Lips sewn shut, lost in a world of shadows.
But even now, I wish to fix you, ignoring my own injuries.
Just to mend you.
For you are my everything dear Rina.
I wish to save you, to save someone so unsaved.
Now watch me as I swing back and forth.
Noose to the tree.
Blood sliding down my knees.
Will you but save me too?
[Nowhere to go but down]
The strings sewn into my skin.
The blood dripping,
Drip.
I dance for the audience.
The audience of creatures,
And monsters of the dark.
The strings are yanked harder
And Dear Rina falls…..
Falls before the audience of
The lookers who do not see.
To them, she fails…
Couldn’t keep up,
Couldn’t hold that pose,
Couldn’t hold that smile,
Rina fails,
Rina falls.
She bleeds as she’s yanked away from
All she has ever known,
The wounds clearly visible.
But not to the naked eye.
Do you see?
Do you see her pain?
Can you hear her screams?
Even the loudest whispers in the
Dark could not hold a place for their
Ears interest.
Now here this….
A simple kiss upon
Thy wrist…
And Rina will be no more.
[Hide Away From Monsters. Living Dead Boy]
Here we are, under darker skies.
I'm here to stay, no matter.
Dear Rina, I'm not letting you fall.
Not at all.
So don't forget I am here, next to you.
Watching over.
All this torment, I shield your eyes.
From the demons.
They will never get you.
To sacrifice heart and soul.
All for you.
I'm listening as you're screaming.
Reaching as if i was all but dreaming.
Just to caress that cheek.
To wipe away those tears.
I'm losing grip.
I'm getting sick.
Listen while I scream.
Scream away all these damn monsters.
As they crawl from my head.
Into clearer days.
Without consent I burned away.
Under all this pain.
Away from all of your eyes.
And As I cry, no one hears.
As I wail in darkness.
Away from all the feeling.
Even with one touch you'd freeze.
I'm but dead, inside the living.
Hiding away from you.
Could you find me?
If I was lost?
I don't think you'd try.
Or you'd try with all your heart.
But that all depends.
Depends if I want to be found.
Darien the dark, lost with all pain.
Crosses carved in.
Scars held upon gentle skin.
[What Rina Is Made Of]
The days couldn’t be darker,
My heart could not be more thin,
With all these beasts scurrying
Beneath my skin.
Tell me that I am waste.
I am a ruptured planet,
The grit of an ancient shooting star,
Crumbled but,
Still shimmering…
Barely.
Swipe me off the earth and
Scatter me again.
The pieces have been shot far beyond
The sinking sun.
Where will Rina go?
I reach for the smirking stars,
Waiting for your arms…
Oh no…
The Glass, the darkness surrounds me and I
Sink the bottom of the dark ocean.
The waves toss me, beat me,
Rape me.
Your screaming hurts my ears,
How can I quiet such pain?
Please stop, Darien…
Please stop the screams,
You or them?
Let me back in.
She reaches for me,
Yanks me under.
Pulls my hair,
Rips nails across my face.
Steel.
She crawls back under my skin and
Scrapes, and scrapes,
And scrapes…..
Her filth injected into me.
It’s not me.
Don’t listen.
The screams.
Do you hear me?
Darien hear your Rina…
Help me,
Where must I find you?
Where must I journey,
My heart is not strong……
Keep screaming love..
I’ll follow those screams,
To the pit of darkness…
I’ll follow them into the dark.
[Through Perils Of The Dead. Across Worlds To You]
I look to the stars.
As I find you're worlds away.
But I still crawl your way.
Across these worlds to you.
Across hell for you.
Your the love I always wanted.
Dear Rina.
I'm coming back to you.
Please meet me in the center.
The wind's so strong, shattering all my bones.
But I'm still walking on.
I'll never give up on you.
Here I'm walking, through fields of glass and rivers of blood.
Nothing holding me back, nothing can.
Not even the tallest waves, as I cross this ocean towards you.
I'm not giving up till I'm with you again.
I'm there, in the center, bloody and bruised.
Laying under stars waiting for you to come back to my side.
Singing with my dreadful voice, I call out to you.
Under stars so bright.
I was lost in all that was night.
To only be found by beauty.
Her name as wondrous as the sky.
Dear Rina, the day I found you.
Was the day my heart began beating.
[Hung Upon A Star. I’ll Reach You Someway]
You are from your world,
And I am from mine.
Two different worlds.
But two of the same.
I hesitate in my steps to you,
And I walk when you bid me run.
I run when you bid me crawl.
Rina can’t bear the disappointment
Of another,
Especially you, Dear Darien.
I’ve stumbled before.
In all Hell you bid me to come to you,
Still I hesitate,
Please understand
I’ve been……
Please, just understand.
I’m looking down on you,
Watching you.
I am hung upon a star,
My neck is starting to bleed.
I am hung upon a star,
So wish upon a star and
Maybe they’ll cut me and I’ll drop down
To you.
I can’t reach you,
You’re all the way down there,
And I’m hung upon a star,
Strung up in my heart…
I struggle to be free,
I grab at the bind,
Hoping to get loose from
This fetter.
Although, I know that If I fall,
It’s a long way down.
I could splat and die,
Or my wings will rebirth
And I’ll fly….
I’ll meet you halfway,
But what’s my limit.
Will I splat darling,
Or will I fly?
[Catching A Shooting Star. Wonder, Wonder]
Watching up high.
I pray for you to fall my way.
Fly my way...
But what if you soar towards other directions?
Leaving me here alone.
Would you ever?
Listening in on whispering words.
She's speaks.
What must I understand?
Just tell me, Dear Rina.
I reach up to you.
A shining star hung up on a noose.
I'm climbing, climbing to set you loose.
Climbing the tallest mountains.
The tallest trees.
Reaching out to you, arms open.
Will you fly my way?
Or soar off in other directions?
But don't worry, I won't let you splat and die.
I'll be here to catch you.
Dear Rina, remember what you said.
We'd be together someday.
When will that day come?
I wonder.
Will it ever be here?
I wonder this as I reach up to you, upon the tallest tree.
Reaching to the farthest star.
I'll catch you.
[Ripping Through Earth. A Fallen Angel]
I reach back to you.
While falling,
I reach back with such an embrace.
My body breaking more
With each crack through the hemispheres.
My wings spread.
I soar.
I fly to you,
Reach for your hand,
To pull you up from that terrible
Place.
I touch your fingertips,
A soft shock.
I’m about to save you,
So close to saving you, love.
Just one grasp and we can be free.
I’m shot out of the sky.
Raging arrows rip
Right through me,
Souls passing through me,
Tearing me apart.
They’ve come for me…
They’ve come to hurt me again.
To retrieve the demon that I am.
I’ve broken their chains,
Tried to break free.
But oh no.
They have come back for me.
My wings give and
Dear Rina spirals to earth.
Landing crushed,
Cracked in an imprint
Of earth.
Surrounded by darkness,
Rina is sucked under again.
They are pulling me down.
To chain me back up.
Such a brutal role,
For a treacherous soul.
I can’t breathe,
My lungs can’t take all the
Filth….
The ground is choking me,
Taking my life.
Darien fly,
Fly away.
Get out alive.
[Our Lost Heaven]
With all my strength I grab your hand.
Pulling you from the earth that swallows us whole when we die.
And with all my breath, I breathe my life into you.
With the last slivers of this waste of a soul, I carry you to the safety under the moon.
Setting you upon the grass we once laid under.
And as the last of me dwindles I stand to the edge.
Watched the last quarter fade.
The ocean below so sweet.
But I lay next to you, holding your hand.
Awaiting you to wake from the deep sleep.
My breath thins.
I reminisce on the past days.
The days when I'd hold you in my arms.
Tell you I love you.
I meant it every time.
All of this heart is yours.
And will always be.
No one will take your place.
Now I hear the creatures crawl, hear them sprawl.
I stand, holding you in my arms.
And from my back, my once broken, shattered wings, sprout.
Black feathers, as black as the ravens.
Raising high above the moon.
I fly off, holding you.
Off to our Lost Heaven.
The place we always wanted.
Wonderland.
As we fly I hold you tight.
Against my heart.
[It doesn’t have to end today. But Rina does]
I feel the wind beneath your beautiful shape.
Me embraced.
The chemicals. The lifting air.
The lifting your strength gives.
Coasting us along.
Your strength keeping us
High,
So very high above the world.
If you let go,
I could explode into poisonous gas
In the sky.
I can feel your arms around me,
So tight.
But I feel you slipping away,
Ever-so-slowly.
Am I letting go?
Or are the creatures yanking you
So far away?
Are they yanking me?
Who knows?
You’re here now, aren’t you?
My eyes flutter open,
Emotion leaks from soggy lips,
Twisted notes fill the black sky.
Frigid words freeze,
I try to speak.
I cry out to you,
But through all the thunder and rain,
Can you hear my cries?
You are as close as beats of your heart
Are to my ears,
And you have yet to hear me.
Rinas heart is leaking,
Breaking,
It’s about to stop beating.
Rina could freeze in her Dariens arms.
Could this be the breakdown of Rina?
This could be our story.
You can take this cold, insidious heart
And chuck it across the Universe
And be okay with it.
Your black wings are so beautiful
To my shaking eyes.
I melt through your arms,
And leak to the core of a worm hole.
No one can save me.
I love you, Darien.
Your Rina loves you.
But she is just broken.
Crackling screams,
And ripped wings.
[No Matter What, I’m Not Leaving You]
No matter what you think.
You're beautiful Dear Rina.
To me, you are the most beautiful thing to wake on this earth.
Nothing could ever compare, nothing ever will.
When I see, hear, even think of you, my heart's in pure nirvana.
I hear your screams, I kiss you gently, hush away the pain.
For they won't get you, not while I'm around.
Deep ghosts of white, hide from sight, for I am here.
I will never let them take you.
As I fly upon darker skies, these monsters tear at my wings.
Still I fly on, to safer places, despite all the blood and pain.
I'm not giving up, not ever.
Crash landings to the far sides of reality's based islands.
I found you still here, gently held in my arms.
Standing, pain surges, bleeds from my wings.
From my soul, soul torn at the seams, fall apart.
Darien the Dark's failing, dying, screaming.
Or is it all but my mind, tearing away at me again.
These voices of the dead, whispering in my ears.
Shattering my soul, bringing me down to that hole.
I'm not listening, not hearing them, they aren't here.
Love, I'm going to protect you from this dreaded world.
That tries to keep you down, I won't let it get you.
I'm here standing tall, even if my body was to die, I'd still be there in your heart and mind.
Nothing's going to get you, tear you from me, not while I'm around.
Welcome to the world of wonders.
Our little Wonderland of Nightshade.
[Stuck In her Head. My Angel]
I’m trapped in my head.
Falling faster with every
Crippling thought.
I’ve seen you fly, Darien.
I’ve also seen you fall,
One too many times.
What can I do?
What can this girl do to help
You stand up straight?
You lay so limp in my arms.
Your body is so cold.
Because of me.
I know it is, they’ve told me.
Heavy weights drag behind me,
Analog memories weigh my
Tears down.
Make them hurt more.
Your beauty is bleeding,
What you had to fly is now
Tattered in my hands.
My hands have your blood on them.
Because of me.
I’ll fix them don’t worry.
This will all get better someday.
My tears wet your velvet cheeks.
Goodbye on my lips.
Unknown whispers seek my ears,
They think Rina is a shadow.
But Rina is a robot.
You love a girl who is completely reliant
On metal, love.
The soul in me screams out to you,
My eyes could tell you everything.
They’ve taken me over,
But my soul is still crying to you.
You’re holding my hand,
Walking along the road to our new world.
You tell me of a love that’s pure,
And that you’ll never leave.
Rina Robot is processing it,
But my soul can’t reach it.
There is a sea of love held
Within your hand,
You could be oceans away from your Rina,
But I know there’s love with every wave.
I’m trapped inside my head,
Screaming to shatter inner demons.
Upon your rope I will succumb,
The robot will do as it’s told:
Destroy.
Destroy me.
I hold you in my arms,
Your breathing so still.
Your broken wings,
Broken heart.
I’ll fix you, I promise.
I set you upon the floor gently,
My hands shaking.
I will succumb to your rope.
Rina takes the rope,
A steel scarf.
Winter falls,
The trees look so welcome.
I think they would like to have tea with me and
My steel scarf.
I walk on….
Staggering.
I look behind me,
Look at your fragile body.
My angel.
[My Eyes Are Bright]
To here I lay limp.
But I'm crawling, in all actuality.
Sprawling on the ground to you.
Your walking far.
Farther and faster.
But still I try, try and try.
This world is nothing without you.
You haven't made me cold, I've always been this way.
I'm bleeding because of demons, writhing in my skull.
They want to rule it all, rule this body and soul.
But I won't let them, their havoc cannot be unleashed.
I stand, limp, faster towards you.
Now I'm running.
Reaching for your hand.
Grasping it tight I pull you in.
What they say is pure sin.
What they say is all lies.
I'm here, so near.
Never letting go.
That scarf isn't going to take you.
I'm not letting them hang you.
I hold tighter.
Stare into your emerald eyes.
Darien's deep hazel faded to dark.
But they've always been this way.
Till that day.
The day Rina.
Danced into my life.
My eyes turned bright.
[Goodbye on my lips. You know I don’t belong]
Heavy tears hit the ground.
I feel your weak body
Arise from the earth.
You need to rest,
Just lay there.
I’ll send out a signal when I’m
Atop the tree.
Before I jump.
Help will come,
They will save you and
Take you away,
Far away from here.
I feel you running.
Taking my hand.
You need to let go.
You know Rina must do this,
You know I must leave.
Please don’t do this,
You’re making it harder on me.
Rina is sin,
My oxygen of choice is lies.
My scarf beckons me to
Use it,
It beckons to warm my neck,
Such fresh blood.
Something called you from your corner,
And fell so softly against your chest.
A spark of life glows in your
Eyes.
Then fades to black.
I need to do this.
Let go.
I tear my hand out of your grasp and
Break for the trees.
I’m getting lost without you.
I hope you don’t mind, Darien.
I claw up the tree,
Hidden.
Satisfied.
Wrap my steel scarf around my neck,
And make a break for it.
[Chasing Beauty. Deep Forest Fallings]
I cry, reachout to you.
I'm not losing you.
Dear Rina, please stay, stay here with me.
Chasing after you I run through trees.
Plastered with red and leaves.
Falls catching up fast.
I have to take haste.
Find you standing, high above branches.
I look upon you, beauty.
Climbing to you, I stand, taking balance.
Looking into your eyes.
Why? I ask, words deeply laced with sadness.
I love you, words deeply laced with heartships.
Turn my head to the ground.
Look back, smile.
Dear Rina, there's no need for this, no need for it at all.
And thus I began to fall, slipped on my own blood.
Stray branches breaking my bones.
The ground resting far below.
Coming up fast, graveyards cheering, all but sneering.
Snickering of dead bodies echoes.
I grab hold of a branch, stopping this aweful fall.
Reaching, I begin to climb once more, faster.
No matter how much pain.
I'll always endure it.
As long as I see you.
Everything seems better.
Reaching the top, I'm fine now.
Grasping your hand again, I whisper in your ear.
Dear Rina, please come down from here.
There's no need for you to hang.
You've done nothing wrong.
So please come down, with me.
[You always come back. I’ll hold you ‘til I die]
I stare at you, Darien.
You’re crazy.
The scarf is tighter.
Maybe if I jump a little faster,
Ball up a little harder.
I won’t have to see the pain on your face.
I stand above all.
Rocking back and forth for balance.
The lace on my dress dancing with the wind.
My cuts screaming into hollow air.
I feel vibrations in the tree.
I feel nature lace through the leaves,
Almost tipping me.
The ground beckons to hold my grave.
I’m always running away.
Always making trouble.
You come to me,
Bleeding….pain in your heart,
Pain in your eyes.
Because of Rina.
You take a steady step towards me,
And slip.
I watch you slip,
I watch you fall.
I can save you,
Why won’t my feet move?
I look down,
Chained to another one of my demons.
Chained to another pretty suicide.
My heart is racing,
I need to save you,
Oh god I need to jump.
I’m ripping my Pointe shoes off,
When I notice silence.
I heard no thud. I heard nothing.
The scarf grows tighter,
So tight I cannot scream.
I see you,
Come back to me.
Ache on your mind.
But love in your heart.
You grab my hand once more,
Sing beautifully to me,
Words packed with love.
I tilt my head and smile.
I wrap my arms around you.
“I Love You, Darien.”
Then with my arms even tighter
Around my love.
I rock backwards,
Holding you tighter this time.
[ Love You. Always Will. Rainy Days]
I remove the dreaded scarf.
Look into you're eyes, giving a kiss to your lips.
I smile, Dear Rina, I'll hold you till the day I die.
Helping you down from the tree.
I stare into the moon, smile held on my face.
The full moon gracing us with its presence.
A wonderous thing, for this wonderous scene.
Holding you dearly, my eyes on yours.
Smiling, I kiss your forehead.
"I love you Dear Rina."
The moon fades to black, giving us darkness.
All for but a second.
Now the sun rises, before our eyes.
So bright and spectacular.
But it's nothing compared to you.
I rest my head on your shoulder.
My body so tired.
But I still stand, Dear Rina.
For you are my everything.
And always will be.
Clouds encircle our sky, shrouding the sun.
A deep grey, looks like a rainy day.
Thus the sky's tears begin to fall.
Sweetly onto our skin, cooling and soothing.
I lay in the grass smiling.
My eyes so bright.
I look at you, you're beauty like no other
[Under The Moonlight]
Under all the moon light.
I danced away on the graves.
While you hung so tightly to him.
I just wanted to run off into, all the dark.
As the ghosts whispered in my ears.
I had no fears of any.
But I could feel them inching closer.
I just wanted to go farther.
Deeper in this cold.
But to all dismay of these outer grays.
Poor Darien, won't ever leave his Rina.
Not even if she's so far from him.
I'll be here waiting.
Waiting till the day you need me.
Darien waits oh so silently.
Hurts so secretly.
Fades oh so quickly.
[Vanishing to Moonlit Skies]
The graves held a familiar sense
Of deadness.
Just like the heart of me.
I sat, head in my hands.
Tears in my eyes.
It was oh so dark,
No one even heard me, saw me cry.
I sat on a soul and waited
For the gruesome hands to reach up from
The dirt and pull me under.
Would you even wonder?
Wonder where
Your dear Rina went?
Would they cry for my name?
To the gray clouded skies,
I begged God to smite me where
I stood.
Whispers to things that aren't there.
Or were there?
I watched my Darien wisp
And run.
Waiting to perish into the
Pendulum abyss…..
Rina decays so quickly.
Hurts so silently.
Rina is breaking down…
No one knows.
Not one soul.
[Take Me To the Burning Skies]
I looked upon the moon.
It's rays seemed to burn through me.
Straight through my skin.
Tearing away what was within.
Watching her up and run, I wonder.
Wonder where?
I follow, but am warded off by the familiar spirit.
I assure myself away, in all pain.
Wanting just to hold dear Rina.
I see her pain, wanting just to soothe her aches.
But to some I'm unwanted even near her.
Who am I to care what they think.
All I want to be is near her.
Wind catches my skin and we're all off.
Watching moving lights from the back seats.
Looking in the rear view, our eyes met.
For such a second.
I could feel her heart in mine.
[Epiphany]
Which way do I go?
Heaven or Hell.
I belong in neither.
Too filthy for Heaven.
Too demented for Hell.
So where does Rina belong?
Ah yes. In the ground,
Purgatory I say.
I should be torn apart by the
Decay there.
The arms plunge right through me
To rip out my internal organs.
To clean me out…
Empty me.
There’s nothing left in Rina.
“Rina, dwell down here. We’ll rip
You apart so easily.”
The ghosts of my past call to me,
They beckon me to cry.
Beckon me to tear at my skin.
Rina can burst to flames.
Peel away her skin,
Throw away the exoskeleton and
Stab at the disgusting molt of
Human waste.
Laugh at Rina.
The ghosts steal her away.
No one even noticed that darling Rina
Was wisped away by tyrant ghosts.
[Down The Rabbit Hole]
I turn, to see her being pulled away.
Far away from me.
Taking haste, I run, faster then ever.
Grasping her hands, I pull her towards me.
Hold her tightly.
I'm never letting you go.
"I'll take you to Wonderland. Where no one
Can harm you." I whisper.
Carrying her off into the deepness of the trees.
I'm rushing down the rabbit hole.
To a place where no pain can reach us.
Standing you up I look into your eyes.
So full of sadness.
All I can do is embrace you.
Hold you tight and assure you.
Everything is going to be alright.
For I am always here and will never leave.
[Falling Away From All]
My eyes are clouded by the sadness
That has engulfed my vision…
Everything is so blurry.
I can barely feel…
But I feel your arms…
Wrapped so tightly around my
Minimal being.
The soil beneath me is soft.
If you let go I would probably sink
To the ground zero of Hell.
I know not what you’re speaking of…
“Alright.” “Never leave you.”
Those words I’ve never heard.
My breathing is so thin,
My lungs are about to give….
I wish you would just let go.
Let dear Rina go and search for
Someone worth it.
Darien, you don’t need a girl who’s
Soul is chained to demons,
And words like riddles.
You don’t need that.
With that I take a final glance
Into your eyes and
I fade into my blurry vision.
I fade into my bottomless soul.
They will tear me…
They will scrape me…
They will be the death of me.
But I fall into the depths of Rina,
Of myself.
I’m sorry that I couldn’t have lived
To make dear Darien crack a real smile.
[Just Can't]
Falling limp in my arms, I hold tighter.
Dear Rina, you just don't understand.
The only one I want is you.
In all truths I know, no one wants me.
No one needs me.
Little Darien the Dark, pitiful and weak.
I look into your eyes, begin to breathe life.
Straight into your lungs.
I can't let you go.
Because you have brought a real smile.
You have made me happy.
I look to my dear.
Holding her, I pulled her in close.
For I love you Rina, more so then anyone
[The UN-SAVED]
An unsavior for an unsaved soul.
Nothing can save me now.
Not much can upside my frown.
I fall.
Fall into the puddle of my broken heart.
The shards so heavily sharpened.
They will slice me up into
Tiny pieces…
No one will be able to put me back together.
An unfixable soul to the one that’s swift
At hand.
An unfixable ballerina toy….
Will sit on a dusty shelf.
Choking on elderly debris,
Drinking self-genocide.
Even Rinas tutu looks so sad,
So sad waving in the wind,
As dear Rina spirals.
They will get me,
Don’t you see?
Listen to me.
They will get me.
No helping Rina now.
She was born unto the generation
Of the unsaved.
So many souls to steal,
Yet they target Rina.
Meet me at ground zero.
[Hang Me High, High Above The Tallest Branch]
My dear I can save you.
Only if you let me.
But in all truths, aren't we all but unsaved.
I hung upon my tree, noose in all.
Swaying left to right.
And in all fright, I couldn't feel the light around me.
All I could see was black, nothing else.
Lips sewn shut, lost in a world of shadows.
But even now, I wish to fix you, ignoring my own injuries.
Just to mend you.
For you are my everything dear Rina.
I wish to save you, to save someone so unsaved.
Now watch me as I swing back and forth.
Noose to the tree.
Blood sliding down my knees.
Will you but save me too?
[Nowhere to go but down]
The strings sewn into my skin.
The blood dripping,
Drip.
I dance for the audience.
The audience of creatures,
And monsters of the dark.
The strings are yanked harder
And Dear Rina falls…..
Falls before the audience of
The lookers who do not see.
To them, she fails…
Couldn’t keep up,
Couldn’t hold that pose,
Couldn’t hold that smile,
Rina fails,
Rina falls.
She bleeds as she’s yanked away from
All she has ever known,
The wounds clearly visible.
But not to the naked eye.
Do you see?
Do you see her pain?
Can you hear her screams?
Even the loudest whispers in the
Dark could not hold a place for their
Ears interest.
Now here this….
A simple kiss upon
Thy wrist…
And Rina will be no more.
[Hide Away From Monsters. Living Dead Boy]
Here we are, under darker skies.
I'm here to stay, no matter.
Dear Rina, I'm not letting you fall.
Not at all.
So don't forget I am here, next to you.
Watching over.
All this torment, I shield your eyes.
From the demons.
They will never get you.
To sacrifice heart and soul.
All for you.
I'm listening as you're screaming.
Reaching as if i was all but dreaming.
Just to caress that cheek.
To wipe away those tears.
I'm losing grip.
I'm getting sick.
Listen while I scream.
Scream away all these damn monsters.
As they crawl from my head.
Into clearer days.
Without consent I burned away.
Under all this pain.
Away from all of your eyes.
And As I cry, no one hears.
As I wail in darkness.
Away from all the feeling.
Even with one touch you'd freeze.
I'm but dead, inside the living.
Hiding away from you.
Could you find me?
If I was lost?
I don't think you'd try.
Or you'd try with all your heart.
But that all depends.
Depends if I want to be found.
Darien the dark, lost with all pain.
Crosses carved in.
Scars held upon gentle skin.
[What Rina Is Made Of]
The days couldn’t be darker,
My heart could not be more thin,
With all these beasts scurrying
Beneath my skin.
Tell me that I am waste.
I am a ruptured planet,
The grit of an ancient shooting star,
Crumbled but,
Still shimmering…
Barely.
Swipe me off the earth and
Scatter me again.
The pieces have been shot far beyond
The sinking sun.
Where will Rina go?
I reach for the smirking stars,
Waiting for your arms…
Oh no…
The Glass, the darkness surrounds me and I
Sink the bottom of the dark ocean.
The waves toss me, beat me,
Rape me.
Your screaming hurts my ears,
How can I quiet such pain?
Please stop, Darien…
Please stop the screams,
You or them?
Let me back in.
She reaches for me,
Yanks me under.
Pulls my hair,
Rips nails across my face.
Steel.
She crawls back under my skin and
Scrapes, and scrapes,
And scrapes…..
Her filth injected into me.
It’s not me.
Don’t listen.
The screams.
Do you hear me?
Darien hear your Rina…
Help me,
Where must I find you?
Where must I journey,
My heart is not strong……
Keep screaming love..
I’ll follow those screams,
To the pit of darkness…
I’ll follow them into the dark.
[Through Perils Of The Dead. Across Worlds To You]
I look to the stars.
As I find you're worlds away.
But I still crawl your way.
Across these worlds to you.
Across hell for you.
Your the love I always wanted.
Dear Rina.
I'm coming back to you.
Please meet me in the center.
The wind's so strong, shattering all my bones.
But I'm still walking on.
I'll never give up on you.
Here I'm walking, through fields of glass and rivers of blood.
Nothing holding me back, nothing can.
Not even the tallest waves, as I cross this ocean towards you.
I'm not giving up till I'm with you again.
I'm there, in the center, bloody and bruised.
Laying under stars waiting for you to come back to my side.
Singing with my dreadful voice, I call out to you.
Under stars so bright.
I was lost in all that was night.
To only be found by beauty.
Her name as wondrous as the sky.
Dear Rina, the day I found you.
Was the day my heart began beating.
[Hung Upon A Star. I’ll Reach You Someway]
You are from your world,
And I am from mine.
Two different worlds.
But two of the same.
I hesitate in my steps to you,
And I walk when you bid me run.
I run when you bid me crawl.
Rina can’t bear the disappointment
Of another,
Especially you, Dear Darien.
I’ve stumbled before.
In all Hell you bid me to come to you,
Still I hesitate,
Please understand
I’ve been……
Please, just understand.
I’m looking down on you,
Watching you.
I am hung upon a star,
My neck is starting to bleed.
I am hung upon a star,
So wish upon a star and
Maybe they’ll cut me and I’ll drop down
To you.
I can’t reach you,
You’re all the way down there,
And I’m hung upon a star,
Strung up in my heart…
I struggle to be free,
I grab at the bind,
Hoping to get loose from
This fetter.
Although, I know that If I fall,
It’s a long way down.
I could splat and die,
Or my wings will rebirth
And I’ll fly….
I’ll meet you halfway,
But what’s my limit.
Will I splat darling,
Or will I fly?
[Catching A Shooting Star. Wonder, Wonder]
Watching up high.
I pray for you to fall my way.
Fly my way...
But what if you soar towards other directions?
Leaving me here alone.
Would you ever?
Listening in on whispering words.
She's speaks.
What must I understand?
Just tell me, Dear Rina.
I reach up to you.
A shining star hung up on a noose.
I'm climbing, climbing to set you loose.
Climbing the tallest mountains.
The tallest trees.
Reaching out to you, arms open.
Will you fly my way?
Or soar off in other directions?
But don't worry, I won't let you splat and die.
I'll be here to catch you.
Dear Rina, remember what you said.
We'd be together someday.
When will that day come?
I wonder.
Will it ever be here?
I wonder this as I reach up to you, upon the tallest tree.
Reaching to the farthest star.
I'll catch you.
[Ripping Through Earth. A Fallen Angel]
I reach back to you.
While falling,
I reach back with such an embrace.
My body breaking more
With each crack through the hemispheres.
My wings spread.
I soar.
I fly to you,
Reach for your hand,
To pull you up from that terrible
Place.
I touch your fingertips,
A soft shock.
I’m about to save you,
So close to saving you, love.
Just one grasp and we can be free.
I’m shot out of the sky.
Raging arrows rip
Right through me,
Souls passing through me,
Tearing me apart.
They’ve come for me…
They’ve come to hurt me again.
To retrieve the demon that I am.
I’ve broken their chains,
Tried to break free.
But oh no.
They have come back for me.
My wings give and
Dear Rina spirals to earth.
Landing crushed,
Cracked in an imprint
Of earth.
Surrounded by darkness,
Rina is sucked under again.
They are pulling me down.
To chain me back up.
Such a brutal role,
For a treacherous soul.
I can’t breathe,
My lungs can’t take all the
Filth….
The ground is choking me,
Taking my life.
Darien fly,
Fly away.
Get out alive.
[Our Lost Heaven]
With all my strength I grab your hand.
Pulling you from the earth that swallows us whole when we die.
And with all my breath, I breathe my life into you.
With the last slivers of this waste of a soul, I carry you to the safety under the moon.
Setting you upon the grass we once laid under.
And as the last of me dwindles I stand to the edge.
Watched the last quarter fade.
The ocean below so sweet.
But I lay next to you, holding your hand.
Awaiting you to wake from the deep sleep.
My breath thins.
I reminisce on the past days.
The days when I'd hold you in my arms.
Tell you I love you.
I meant it every time.
All of this heart is yours.
And will always be.
No one will take your place.
Now I hear the creatures crawl, hear them sprawl.
I stand, holding you in my arms.
And from my back, my once broken, shattered wings, sprout.
Black feathers, as black as the ravens.
Raising high above the moon.
I fly off, holding you.
Off to our Lost Heaven.
The place we always wanted.
Wonderland.
As we fly I hold you tight.
Against my heart.
[It doesn’t have to end today. But Rina does]
I feel the wind beneath your beautiful shape.
Me embraced.
The chemicals. The lifting air.
The lifting your strength gives.
Coasting us along.
Your strength keeping us
High,
So very high above the world.
If you let go,
I could explode into poisonous gas
In the sky.
I can feel your arms around me,
So tight.
But I feel you slipping away,
Ever-so-slowly.
Am I letting go?
Or are the creatures yanking you
So far away?
Are they yanking me?
Who knows?
You’re here now, aren’t you?
My eyes flutter open,
Emotion leaks from soggy lips,
Twisted notes fill the black sky.
Frigid words freeze,
I try to speak.
I cry out to you,
But through all the thunder and rain,
Can you hear my cries?
You are as close as beats of your heart
Are to my ears,
And you have yet to hear me.
Rinas heart is leaking,
Breaking,
It’s about to stop beating.
Rina could freeze in her Dariens arms.
Could this be the breakdown of Rina?
This could be our story.
You can take this cold, insidious heart
And chuck it across the Universe
And be okay with it.
Your black wings are so beautiful
To my shaking eyes.
I melt through your arms,
And leak to the core of a worm hole.
No one can save me.
I love you, Darien.
Your Rina loves you.
But she is just broken.
Crackling screams,
And ripped wings.
[No Matter What, I’m Not Leaving You]
No matter what you think.
You're beautiful Dear Rina.
To me, you are the most beautiful thing to wake on this earth.
Nothing could ever compare, nothing ever will.
When I see, hear, even think of you, my heart's in pure nirvana.
I hear your screams, I kiss you gently, hush away the pain.
For they won't get you, not while I'm around.
Deep ghosts of white, hide from sight, for I am here.
I will never let them take you.
As I fly upon darker skies, these monsters tear at my wings.
Still I fly on, to safer places, despite all the blood and pain.
I'm not giving up, not ever.
Crash landings to the far sides of reality's based islands.
I found you still here, gently held in my arms.
Standing, pain surges, bleeds from my wings.
From my soul, soul torn at the seams, fall apart.
Darien the Dark's failing, dying, screaming.
Or is it all but my mind, tearing away at me again.
These voices of the dead, whispering in my ears.
Shattering my soul, bringing me down to that hole.
I'm not listening, not hearing them, they aren't here.
Love, I'm going to protect you from this dreaded world.
That tries to keep you down, I won't let it get you.
I'm here standing tall, even if my body was to die, I'd still be there in your heart and mind.
Nothing's going to get you, tear you from me, not while I'm around.
Welcome to the world of wonders.
Our little Wonderland of Nightshade.
[Stuck In her Head. My Angel]
I’m trapped in my head.
Falling faster with every
Crippling thought.
I’ve seen you fly, Darien.
I’ve also seen you fall,
One too many times.
What can I do?
What can this girl do to help
You stand up straight?
You lay so limp in my arms.
Your body is so cold.
Because of me.
I know it is, they’ve told me.
Heavy weights drag behind me,
Analog memories weigh my
Tears down.
Make them hurt more.
Your beauty is bleeding,
What you had to fly is now
Tattered in my hands.
My hands have your blood on them.
Because of me.
I’ll fix them don’t worry.
This will all get better someday.
My tears wet your velvet cheeks.
Goodbye on my lips.
Unknown whispers seek my ears,
They think Rina is a shadow.
But Rina is a robot.
You love a girl who is completely reliant
On metal, love.
The soul in me screams out to you,
My eyes could tell you everything.
They’ve taken me over,
But my soul is still crying to you.
You’re holding my hand,
Walking along the road to our new world.
You tell me of a love that’s pure,
And that you’ll never leave.
Rina Robot is processing it,
But my soul can’t reach it.
There is a sea of love held
Within your hand,
You could be oceans away from your Rina,
But I know there’s love with every wave.
I’m trapped inside my head,
Screaming to shatter inner demons.
Upon your rope I will succumb,
The robot will do as it’s told:
Destroy.
Destroy me.
I hold you in my arms,
Your breathing so still.
Your broken wings,
Broken heart.
I’ll fix you, I promise.
I set you upon the floor gently,
My hands shaking.
I will succumb to your rope.
Rina takes the rope,
A steel scarf.
Winter falls,
The trees look so welcome.
I think they would like to have tea with me and
My steel scarf.
I walk on….
Staggering.
I look behind me,
Look at your fragile body.
My angel.
[My Eyes Are Bright]
To here I lay limp.
But I'm crawling, in all actuality.
Sprawling on the ground to you.
Your walking far.
Farther and faster.
But still I try, try and try.
This world is nothing without you.
You haven't made me cold, I've always been this way.
I'm bleeding because of demons, writhing in my skull.
They want to rule it all, rule this body and soul.
But I won't let them, their havoc cannot be unleashed.
I stand, limp, faster towards you.
Now I'm running.
Reaching for your hand.
Grasping it tight I pull you in.
What they say is pure sin.
What they say is all lies.
I'm here, so near.
Never letting go.
That scarf isn't going to take you.
I'm not letting them hang you.
I hold tighter.
Stare into your emerald eyes.
Darien's deep hazel faded to dark.
But they've always been this way.
Till that day.
The day Rina.
Danced into my life.
My eyes turned bright.
[Goodbye on my lips. You know I don’t belong]
Heavy tears hit the ground.
I feel your weak body
Arise from the earth.
You need to rest,
Just lay there.
I’ll send out a signal when I’m
Atop the tree.
Before I jump.
Help will come,
They will save you and
Take you away,
Far away from here.
I feel you running.
Taking my hand.
You need to let go.
You know Rina must do this,
You know I must leave.
Please don’t do this,
You’re making it harder on me.
Rina is sin,
My oxygen of choice is lies.
My scarf beckons me to
Use it,
It beckons to warm my neck,
Such fresh blood.
Something called you from your corner,
And fell so softly against your chest.
A spark of life glows in your
Eyes.
Then fades to black.
I need to do this.
Let go.
I tear my hand out of your grasp and
Break for the trees.
I’m getting lost without you.
I hope you don’t mind, Darien.
I claw up the tree,
Hidden.
Satisfied.
Wrap my steel scarf around my neck,
And make a break for it.
[Chasing Beauty. Deep Forest Fallings]
I cry, reachout to you.
I'm not losing you.
Dear Rina, please stay, stay here with me.
Chasing after you I run through trees.
Plastered with red and leaves.
Falls catching up fast.
I have to take haste.
Find you standing, high above branches.
I look upon you, beauty.
Climbing to you, I stand, taking balance.
Looking into your eyes.
Why? I ask, words deeply laced with sadness.
I love you, words deeply laced with heartships.
Turn my head to the ground.
Look back, smile.
Dear Rina, there's no need for this, no need for it at all.
And thus I began to fall, slipped on my own blood.
Stray branches breaking my bones.
The ground resting far below.
Coming up fast, graveyards cheering, all but sneering.
Snickering of dead bodies echoes.
I grab hold of a branch, stopping this aweful fall.
Reaching, I begin to climb once more, faster.
No matter how much pain.
I'll always endure it.
As long as I see you.
Everything seems better.
Reaching the top, I'm fine now.
Grasping your hand again, I whisper in your ear.
Dear Rina, please come down from here.
There's no need for you to hang.
You've done nothing wrong.
So please come down, with me.
[You always come back. I’ll hold you ‘til I die]
I stare at you, Darien.
You’re crazy.
The scarf is tighter.
Maybe if I jump a little faster,
Ball up a little harder.
I won’t have to see the pain on your face.
I stand above all.
Rocking back and forth for balance.
The lace on my dress dancing with the wind.
My cuts screaming into hollow air.
I feel vibrations in the tree.
I feel nature lace through the leaves,
Almost tipping me.
The ground beckons to hold my grave.
I’m always running away.
Always making trouble.
You come to me,
Bleeding….pain in your heart,
Pain in your eyes.
Because of Rina.
You take a steady step towards me,
And slip.
I watch you slip,
I watch you fall.
I can save you,
Why won’t my feet move?
I look down,
Chained to another one of my demons.
Chained to another pretty suicide.
My heart is racing,
I need to save you,
Oh god I need to jump.
I’m ripping my Pointe shoes off,
When I notice silence.
I heard no thud. I heard nothing.
The scarf grows tighter,
So tight I cannot scream.
I see you,
Come back to me.
Ache on your mind.
But love in your heart.
You grab my hand once more,
Sing beautifully to me,
Words packed with love.
I tilt my head and smile.
I wrap my arms around you.
“I Love You, Darien.”
Then with my arms even tighter
Around my love.
I rock backwards,
Holding you tighter this time.
[ Love You. Always Will. Rainy Days]
I remove the dreaded scarf.
Look into you're eyes, giving a kiss to your lips.
I smile, Dear Rina, I'll hold you till the day I die.
Helping you down from the tree.
I stare into the moon, smile held on my face.
The full moon gracing us with its presence.
A wonderous thing, for this wonderous scene.
Holding you dearly, my eyes on yours.
Smiling, I kiss your forehead.
"I love you Dear Rina."
The moon fades to black, giving us darkness.
All for but a second.
Now the sun rises, before our eyes.
So bright and spectacular.
But it's nothing compared to you.
I rest my head on your shoulder.
My body so tired.
But I still stand, Dear Rina.
For you are my everything.
And always will be.
Clouds encircle our sky, shrouding the sun.
A deep grey, looks like a rainy day.
Thus the sky's tears begin to fall.
Sweetly onto our skin, cooling and soothing.
I lay in the grass smiling.
My eyes so bright.
I look at you, you're beauty like no other
.Alyss. Faust.
5.28.08.-6.10.08
5.28.08.-6.10.08
[Darien and Rina] By M.C Holmes and Alina Wingo
This story is written by two people at the same time. M.C Holmes starts the first poem and then I write the second poem. It is back and forth. So you know who is writing which poem. Holmes starts the story, and so on.
[Darien’s Noose]
The noose has gotten tight.
Around this barren scarred neck.
Rubbing against bleeding skin.
Against my god forsaken sin.
I walk along the line, noose dragging behind.
It's getting tangled and tied around everything.
Choking, oh so fast.
I can't breath.
Will anyone untie me?
Crawling, sprawled out on the ground.
I think I might be dying.
Dying here in front of everyone.
Will anyone stop and pay me any consent?
Save me?
Please?
I can feel it digging deeper inward.
Screaming louder, so inward.
Can anyone hear me?
This noose is killing me.
Slowly choking away the life.
Lifting my sleeve I stare.
Upon the arm.
Holding the pairs of stitched threads.
Wrapping up my arm.
Up my body.
Could anyone love me?
I'm just a tossed rag doll.
Named Darien.
Lost in all gray.
Within a world of color.
Look in the mirror.
Upon cryptic scars.
Touch them over my eyes.
Cover them up leave them be.
Leave them, so no one can see.
Look upon the eyes of the dark.
Eyes of the demon.
Oh so red of blood.
Bleeding tears of sin.
Pour down these cheeks.
Down my pale cheeks.
Staining like a white rose.
No more Darien.
Darien the dark's gone and lost.
Within his own world of gray.
[Look who I’ve found]
Oh Darien, Dear Darien.
I’ll save you.
I’ll untie your scarred neck.
Here let me help you up.
Up into my arms,
Come on, love.
There’s no harm to be done.
Just give me your arms,
To pull you into me.
My arms are mortifying,
They are scarred and cut to the bone.
Don’t be frightened.
Oh Darien, Darien I’ll never leave
You alone.
Do not be frightened,
Just come right here.
With me you’re safe,
You’ve nothing to fear.
They’ve tied you to your wrongs,
I see you tied to your sins,
A broken, letdown dismay you’ve portrayed.
But I’m here to save you, Darien.
I’m here to take you away.
Let yourself loose and follow my lead.
Come on, Darien. Get yourself up.
Pull your gored body up
From whence you came.
I can feel your heart,
You’re so close to safety.
I won’t let you die in front of me,
I won’t let you give up.
Never take your eyes off of me.
People can laugh and cast you away,
But I’ll be put away with you.
Climb out of that hole.
But I know…..
I know when you walk down there,
It cuts you up.
I know when you fall down there,
You cannot get up.
There are creatures down there,
They toss you around like a rag doll.
They beat you so hard that you
Get beaten into the earth.
They toss you about like a paper airplane,
And a paper airplane always gets crumbled and thrown
Away.
You are worth so much more.
You’re beautiful.
And here I walk along the sidewalk,
On a dark and cloudy day,
My tutu even looks so sad,
My Pointe shoes are frayed.
I find my Darien, all tossed away.
Lifeless, he’s cold.
I’ll take him home.
I’ll fix him well.
He will be as good as new.
No one will be able to tell,
That my Darien has been so hurt.
I beret’ my way home,
My dear Darien safe in my arms.
I’ll keep him safe.
Darien, You’re safe from all harm.
[She Came Along]
I lay in her arms as I'm carried away.
Away, away from harm.
She speaks to me so softly.
Calls me her dear Darien.
I smile, for once in awhile.
Lost beyond it all.
I can hear her voice speaking out to me.
Mending my wounds.
Cleaning these scars.
The crosses carved in my arm.
The threads in the other.
She's a wondrous joy.
In her tutu and Pointe shoes.
She looks so beautiful.
I'm glad to have her here.
To be in these arms.
I stand up, stumbling, she holds me.
I stare into those eyes.
She smiles.
Oh my sweet, I thank thee.
For saving me.
For not finding me worthless.
For taking off this noose and these threads.
I can't remember the last time I smiled.
I can't remember the last time my heart skipped a beat.
Place my hand on her cheek.
Rub my thumb under her lips.
I sing to you.
With my muddled voice.
Hoping for you to love my song.
As I sing it to only you no one else.
[Cleaning Him Up]
Oh, my dear.
Please stop screaming, I know
The wounds are deep.
Just a few more seconds now
And my fixing will be complete.
I’ll fix you.
I’ll fix you, my dear.
Please, stop your crying, love.
I know you’ve been badly hurt.
But lookie here, love.
You’re safe with me.
“My name is Rina.”
Shhh. Hush, Love, Hush.
Its okay now, see?
Look you’re all cleaned.
Physically you’re okay.
But what do I do about your poor little heart?
I’ve never fixed one before.
Oh dearie me, your poor little heart.
Your cut and tattered little heart.
Oh, what to do?
No need to thank me,
I was drawn to you.
Taken aback by you.
It’s my fate to save you,
To sew you back together.
To cauterize the wounds,
Inflicted by the ones who deceive.
You’re safe in my arms.
“Tell me your story, love.”
You can stand, you can stand.
Never take your eyes off of me.
You can make it.
Just crawl to me,
If you have to.
You, dear Darien have spread
A smile across my face,
With just your presence.
Now come to me, my dear.
Dance with me.
Sing to me.
Oh, you’re voice is so beautiful.
I dance to your song,
My heart moves in waves, not beats.
I dance for you,
Dance with me?
[Hello, Dear Rina]
Oh, dear Rina.
I shall tell you my story.
The story of this destroyed heart.
The heart you've mended.
I was once someone of a smile, all the while.
But that soon changed on a faithful day.
One selfish person took me away.
Tortured me, till I nearly died.
Then she brought me back to life.
And killed me again.
It was on a repeated thing.
Some days I thought it'd be different but no.
It never was, always the same.
Always me, to be thrown to the ground.
To rot and unfound.
Till this faithful day when you found me.
I remembered I could be happy.
I could smile.
All because of you my dear, who was drawn to me.
As I am drawn to you.
I stare into those eyes.
So full of beauty.
Looking into that gaze, I take haste.
And give you this kiss.
So full of love.
I want it to fill your heart.
Pull back.
My dear Rina, tell me of your story.
Please?
[Rina's Story]
Ha ha!
I will make that naïve being regret,
The day she ever set her cries into this world.
Oh yes, blood will be drawn.
Oh yes, needles will be broken
Off in her pretty little skin.
My own little triumph over evil.
It will be great.
No one hurts, my dear Darien…
At least…they don’t get away with it that is.
No one gets away with murder.
The story of who broke me,
Still sends its venom throughout
My tangible heart.
He held me.
He told me he cared and
Oh how I fell for him,
He was so thoughtful and perfect to me.
Until, I had gone too far to even turn back.
He grabbed me,
Threw me to the ground,
Beat me ‘til I was blue, he did.
Then is the spur of the horrid moment,
He ripped my heart clean out of me.
Then he left…..
He left me broken,
Blue and
Bleeding on the floor.
He didn’t even look back at me,
Just left.
Then came back and I welcomed him
Back with open arms.
Naïve of me.
How stupid could I be?
I let him back in
Just to be broken again.
Beat me ‘til I was blue,
Literally.
Left me crying in the coldness
Of midnight,
Alone.
Oh Darien, he hurt me so bad.
He has created this monster in me.
It still hurts.
I hate him.
He is the only person that I
Truly hate in this world.
Darien…..
I am a monster like him.
Even ballerinas can be doomed.
[Reaction]
Eyes flare, full of rage.
He will pay, I say.
No one harms you my dear Rina.
I hold you tight, kiss your cheek.
Whisper in your ear.
You're no monster.
Even if you are, I still love you.
We are both hurt beings, with cryptic hearts.
But now we have each other.
We have ourselves.
We will never be alone.
Never again.
We will never be hurt.
Not ever.
Cause if anyone was to try and hurt you again.
I would pin them upon a tall post.
Nails and all, wrapped in barbed wire.
I would show him, that he's made a grave mistake.
Oh a grave one, that'll send him to hell.
I rock you softly in these arms.
Sing to you brightly.
My words full of love.
I send you to sleep my dear.
To wake you soon my love.
I won't let you stay there.
To rot.
Every morning I'll be here.
In your heart and at your side.
No matter what.
I'm here for you my dear.
Rina.
[Are you real?]
So what you’re telling me
Is that you are going to save me?
Oh love, that’s simply impossible.
The gods of all the earth could not save this
Poor being, that I call me.
Not the god of love,
Not the god of all the planets,
Not even the god of good things.
Nothing can save me.
So how can you,
A small being like yourself
Have so much power
To do so?
How can you save me
When I cannot even save myself?
How can I save you when you cannot save you?
How can this be so?
Please, love tell me so that I know.
Your soft arms hold me,
Could I be happy?
Really happy?
Is it a miracle?
Has the world come to an end?
The song that seeps from your lips
Is like honey to my ears.
Its like hallelujah to my life.
Being held before the sun sets,
Before the night has a chance to end.
Safe?
What’s safe?
[Darien's Song]
Can you see these.
Carved in my arm.
A sign of my hasty pain.
The pain caused by you.
Now count to three.
And tell me how many you see.
Crosses carved up my arm.
A noose around my neck.
Let it drag, hopefully someday.
It'll snag, and I'll be gone.
But, I don't want to leave.
I want to breath.
I want to be seen, seen by someone.
But nobody sees me.
Never.
No one sees dear Darien.
He's so repulsive and scarred.
They avoid him.
They leave him to choke till his last breath.
[Rina's Song]
It runs its core across my skin so smoothly,
Oh this incompetent joy!
It breaths its relief into my lungs and
I can breathe once more.
It’s the knowledge of knowing you, dear blade.
Oh how I come to you in need.
What kind of monster am I?
What have you done to me?
I lack the emotion of a real
Human being.
Oh how I long to be seen!
Someone notice me,
Love me.
Breathe into me.
Someone, anyone pour your need into me.
The blade…..
It kisses my skin.
Caressing my deepest pains.
Turning them into pretty little
Lines up and down my body.
Look how pretty I am.
Look darling, I can bleed too.
And Oh! How I can bleed.
Want to watch me?
You’ve hurt me.
Murdered me.
So easily you did.
So easily I surrendered to your
Deceit.
I can’t stay here,
But I’ve no way to leave.
I’m stuck here.
Oh blade…
You’ll save me, won’t you?
“Oh dear Rina, What have you done!”
[His Happiness]
Gods mean nothing to me.
Not ever, not today.
I've been so forsaken, too long has it been.
But indeed I will save you, show you the sky and all it's stars.
Within my chest beats the strongest power of all, my love.
The power of my heart.
As it beats for you.
And only you.
You can save yourself and so can I.
We just need each other's help to do so.
We can rise with each other in our eyes.
Only us
I feel your heart beat against my own as I held you.
Will this world end?
If poor Darien becomes happy?
If he finds someone who loves his voice and heart?
Even if this world ends for this, I will hold you till the fires burn.
And never let them singe your beautiful skin.
Never let it harm you at all.
That is safe my dear.
[Her Sorrow]
Is there no hope for happiness
In this sad girl’s world of dark?
Is there no hope for a better day?
I’ve been keeping my heart
In a little box because it’s all cracked
And torn.
No one will have it!
No, no one will see it.
That ugly thing that I call a heart
Must forever be kept away.
It’s far to broken to belong.
There it no hope of better days.
Not in my world of gray.
You can save me, love.
Oh yes, by god you can try.
And I may arise!
But I will fall…
Again.
You know I will.
I know you will.
Happiness is a joke.
Oh yes, darling it’s a hoax.
A fairy tale, love.
Yes, Happiness is just a lie in
My world of gray.
My world it’s so dark that even shadows
Cannot find their way.
Even the darkest of creatures
Never come out to play.
In my world of gray.
My sorrow, oh the aching of my
Half beating heart!
Will this pain ever succumb?
[Wings]
We both live in this world of gray.
Surrounded by nothing but dark.
But now we have each other.
And my heart houses so many scars.
Scars of my own accord, scars of her accord.
But nothing of your own.
It only beats for you as I've said.
And your heart is as beautiful as I imagined.
Don't keep it in that box.
Show it off.
Show them your beautiful heart.
Make them envious you have found someone.
Don't fear my dear, I'll keep it safe as well.
And even if you fall again, I will be there.
Be there to help you up and take you back to the top.
Time after time, I will even if I die.
And if I fall, will you there to take me back?
Will you raise me back to the top?
Upon this back, black wings are held.
They've long since become useless for they are broken.
But I can feel them mending, since you've came along.
I've felt them fixing.
And in our world of grey, I will show you light.
The light of you and me.
[Reach]
Oh, love don’t you know?
I’ve lived in darkness far too long,
The light will burn my pallid skin.
The light will shove me to my knees.
Oh please, let me stay down here
In this hole.
It’s my comfort zone.
The light will rip right through us,
Don’t you know, love?
Don’t you know?
We won’t live one day into the light.
Is there no hope for us?
I crumble to my knees,
My body is broken.
By heart is broken.
But in this brokenness I will lift
You up to the light.
I will give you the last of
My strength,
My very last breath.
Just reach, love.
Reach for the sky and don’t let up.
I’ll come join you someday,
But for now just reach.
Don’t worry about me.
They will be blinded by your light,
They will run for their skins.
I will keep your light,
I will keep it safe.
But don’t you know, dear.
I am so broken.
I cannot move,
I cannot fly.
Darling, Darling I’m paralyzed!
Just reach…
Reach, love, reach!
[Only To You]
No matter my love, I will not leave you.
Not ever, will I leave you in this hole alone.
Maybe you're right the light will burn me too.
Burn straight through.
I myself have found the dark very nice.
Especially with you here.
It feels so much better.
And we have hope for each other.
And when you crumble I'm there.
Picking you up, holding you tight.
Kissing you, letting you know that I'm here.
And don't worry about me, I'm not leaving you here.
Alone.
I'm staying, don't worry, I'm still here and always will be.
No need for light as long as you're here.
I will fix you.
Sew you up, bandage you.
And reaching does no good without you in my arms.
Cause I'm not leaving you here.
I'm staying my dear.
Staying with you.
Staying for you.
Cause this heart within my scarred chest.
Will never stop beating your name.
Dear Rina.
[What's to Do]
How could someone have tossed you
Out into the cold?
How could they just leave you there?
They are coldhearted.
I will hunt them like an animal
And take them to their knees,
Make them say goodbye,
Turn them into debris!
Its man hunt now and fancy me mad if you will.
But I found an urge in my blood to
Kill,
Kill,
Kill.
But for now…..
Dear Darien, what’s to do?
Journey across the world,
Just me and you?
Journey across our dark little world,
To search for something new?
Oh Darien, what’s to do?
I’ll walk a thousand miles on
My toes for you.
I’ll inhale toxins for you,
Anything for you.
Dear Darien, I love you.
Tell me what you need.
[Show you the stars]
I've no idea my dear who would do such a thing.
But they are nothing now, even if she comes back.
I will show her my scars, show her my knife that will meet her chest.
But my dear for now.
I wish to walk with you.
Along the shore.
As we watch the ocean slowly come our way.
As it lays under this moon's light.
With these stars I will wish upon them.
For this to never end.
Never ever.
I will stay by your side forever.
Hopefully you will feel the same.
As I hear your voice speak my name.
My heart just skips a beat and I smile.
Something I haven't done in awhile.
So let's just stay here for awhile.
Let the stars swallow us into the ocean.
Where the cold waves hold us.
And where I hold you, in the cold winds.
Keeping you safe from everything.
[The Next World]
Her.
I don’t want to see what she
Has done to you.
But it’s clearly visible
I’m here to heal you, Darien.
What’s love if there is no faith?
What’s the moon without the stars,
My love?
I’m not me without you.
Not me at all.
Just twisted and broken…
The night sky holds so much
Potential for a love like ourselves.
Stars shine above us and
The wind whips around our face.
This is the perfect place, Darien!
To stop time and break into the next world.
To stop time and live in this moment forever.
The ocean waters hold a place for us.
We could disappear into the night,
Encase ourselves in waves.
Live among the darkness down there,
Live among the sea creatures.
We could leave.
And no one would find us.
We’d be lost forever,
Together.
Love, we’d be lost.
I always said that you weren’t
Aloud to get lost without me,
But now I am willing.
Let’s go.
I’ll take you there.
Just take my hand and we will bust
Into the next world.
Out of our gray world and into
Someplace more suitable…
Besides darkness.
Come on, run.
Let’s leave.
[To Wonderland]
To be lost with you would be a glorious thing.
The best I could ever imagine.
Just you and I.
A new world for us to see, some thing oh so extraordinary.
As long as I'm lost with you it's worth it.
Take me far away from here, show me something new my dear.
Show this poetic tragedy, something anew.
We're gone, so far off the map, no one will find us.
No one will.
It'll just be you and I.
Searching out for a new world, just us under the moon.
Under these clouds.
In which the rain will fall and wash away our pain.
Away with it all.
.
We're running so far now.
Oh out of sight.
But to us this is our adventure from reality.
To our fantasy, maybe one day we'll fall down the rabbit hole.
Down to Wonder Land, where we'd be safe.
Safe in a world for us.
Where you'd be my Alice and I'd be your Hatter.
[Off We go]
Here we go, love.
Through the thousand trees of Oregon,
Through the oceans where many pirates
Have sailed.
Passed the vicious mermaids, and the many
Battles with undead warriors.
We are off to Wonderland.
Down the throat of us, into the mind of
One another.
Here we go, darling.
Down the rabbit hole,
And into our world.
Where we escape from the real world.
We go into our wonderland.
To forever love in peace.
Just you and me Darien.
Darien and Rina.
Falling down,
Down,
Down into our Wonderland
Where I will be your Alice.
Where you will be my Hatter.
And we will drink away our sizes and
Make fortresses with our tears.
Walk through many doors,
And send sharp arrows through our cards.
Come on, love.
Let’s go.
Let’s begin, Hatter.
Off to wonderland……
Come on, Darien.
Show me what you’ve got.
[Tea Party]
I grab your hand, pull you close.
Kiss your lips, oh my dear Alice.
Let's just get lost here.
Here in our Wonder Land.
Where no one will ever find us.
It'll just be us.
We find ourselves at the table.
Sitting, voices surrounding.
I'm here pouring your tea.
Oh this is our mad party.
Let's take time to enjoy the sight of the moon.
Which engulfs us as we dance and sing.
Such a wonderful thing this has become.
It's become our love.
Our Wonder Land in which we've come to be lost in.
DARIEN AND RINA PART 2
[Under The Moonlight
Under all the moon light.
I danced away on the graves.
While you hung so tightly to him.
I just wanted to run off into, all the dark.
As the ghosts whispered in my ears.
I had no fears of any.
But I could feel them inching closer.
I just wanted to go farther.
Deeper in this cold.
But to all dismay of these outer grays.
Poor Darien, won't ever leave his Rina.
Not even if she's so far from him.
I'll be here waiting.
Waiting till the day you need me.
Darien waits oh so silently.
Hurts so secretly.
Fades oh so quickly.
[Vanishing to Moonlit Skies]
The graves held a familiar sense
Of deadness.
Just like the heart of me.
I sat, head in my hands.
Tears in my eyes.
It was oh so dark,
No one even heard me, saw me cry.
I sat on a soul and waited
For the gruesome hands to reach up from
The dirt and pull me under.
Would you even wonder?
Wonder where
Your dear Rina went?
Would they cry for my name?
To the gray clouded skies,
I begged God to smite me where
I stood.
Whispers to things that aren't there.
Or were there?
I watched my Darien wisp
And run.
Waiting to perish into the
Pendulum abyss…..
Rina decays so quickly.
Hurts so silently.
Rina is breaking down…
No one knows.
Not one soul.
[Take Me To the Burning Skies]
I looked upon the moon.
It's rays seemed to burn through me.
Straight through my skin.
Tearing away what was within.
Watching her up and run, I wonder.
Wonder where?
I follow, but is warded off by the familiar spirit.
I assure myself away, in all pain.
Wanting just to hold dear Rina.
I see her pain, wanting just to soothe her aches.
But to some I'm unwanted even near her.
Who am I to care what they think.
All I want to be is near her.
Wind catches my skin and we're all off.
Watching moving lights from the back seats.
Looking in the rear view, our eyes met.
For such a second.
I could feel her heart in mine.
[Epiphany]
Which way do I go?
Heaven or Hell.
I belong in neither.
Too filthy for Heaven.
Too demented for Hell.
So where does Rina belong?
Ah yes. In the ground,
Purgatory I say.
I should be torn apart by the
Decay there.
The arms plunge right through me
To rip out my internal organs.
To clean me out…
Empty me.
There’s nothing left in Rina.
“Rina, dwell down here. We’ll rip
You apart so easily.”
The ghosts of my past call to me,
They beckon me to cry.
Beckon me to tear at my skin.
Rina can burst to flames.
Peel away her skin,
Throw away the exoskeleton and
Stab at the disgusting molt of
Human waste.
Laugh at Rina.
The ghosts steal her away.
No one even noticed that darling Rina
Was wisped away by tyrant ghosts.
[Down The Rabbit Hole]
I turn, to see her being pulled away.
Far away from me.
Taking haste, I run, faster then ever.
Grasping her hands, I pull her towards me.
Hold her tightly.
I'm never letting you go.
"I'll take you to Wonderland. Where no one
Can harm you." I whisper.
Carrying her off into the deepness of the trees.
I'm rushing down the rabbit hole.
To a place where no pain can reach us.
Standing you up I look into your eyes.
So full of sadness.
All I can do is embrace you.
Hold you tight and assure you.
Everything is going to be alright.
For I am always here and will never leave.
[Falling Away From All]
My eyes are clouded by the sadness
That has engulfed my vision…
Everything is so blurry.
I can barely feel…
But I feel your arms…
Wrapped so tightly around my
Minimal being.
The soil beneath me is soft.
If you let go I would probably sink
To the ground zero of Hell.
I know not what you’re speaking of…
“Alright.” “Never leave you.”
Those words I’ve never heard.
My breathing is so thin,
My lungs are about to give….
I wish you would just let go.
Let dear Rina go and search for
Someone worth it.
Darien, you don’t need a girl who’s
Soul is chained to demons,
And words like riddles.
You don’t need that.
With that I take a final glance
Into your eyes and
I fade into my blurry vision.
I fade into my bottomless soul.
They will tear me…
They will scrape me…
They will be the death of me.
But I fall into the depths of Rina,
Of myself.
I’m sorry that I couldn’t have lived
To make dear Darien crack a real smile.
[Just Can't]
Falling limp in my arms, I hold tighter.
Dear Rina, you just don't understand.
The only one I want is you.
In all truths I know, no one wants me.
No one needs me.
Little Darien the Dark, pitiful and weak.
I look into your eyes, begin to breathe life.
Straight into your lungs.
I can't let you go.
Because you have brought a real smile.
You have made me happy.
I look to my dear.
Holding her, I pulled her in close.
For I love you Rina, more so then anyone
[The UN-SAVED]
An unsavior for an unsaved soul.
Nothing can save me now.
Not much can upside my frown.
I fall.
Fall into the puddle of my broken heart.
The shards so heavily sharpened.
They will slice me up into
Tiny pieces…
No one will be able to put me back together.
An unfixable soul to the one that’s swift
At hand.
An unfixable ballerina toy….
Will sit on a dusty shelf.
Choking on elderly debris,
Drinking self-genocide.
Even Rinas tutu looks so sad,
So sad waving in the wind,
As dear Rina spirals.
They will get me,
Don’t you see?
Listen to me.
They will get me.
No helping Rina now.
She was born unto the generation
Of the unsaved.
So many souls to steal,
Yet they target Rina.
Meet me at ground zero.
[Hang Me High, High Above The Tallest Branch]
My dear I can save you.
Only if you let me.
But in all truths, aren't we all but unsaved.
I hung upon my tree, noose in all.
Swaying left to right.
And in all fright, I couldn't feel the light around me.
All I could see was black, nothing else.
Lips sewn shut, lost in a world of shadows.
But even now, I wish to fix you, ignoring my own injuries.
Just to mend you.
For you are my everything dear Rina.
I wish to save you, to save someone so unsaved.
Now watch me as I swing back and forth.
Noose to the tree.
Blood sliding down my knees.
Will you but save me too?
[Nowhere to go but down]
The strings sewn into my skin.
The blood dripping,
Drip.
I dance for the audience.
The audience of creatures,
And monsters of the dark.
The strings are yanked harder
And Dear Rina falls…..
Falls before the audience of
The lookers who do not see.
To them, she fails…
Couldn’t keep up,
Couldn’t hold that pose,
Couldn’t hold that smile,
Rina fails,
Rina falls.
She bleeds as she’s yanked away from
All she has ever known,
The wounds clearly visible.
But not to the naked eye.
Do you see?
Do you see her pain?
Can you hear her screams?
Even the loudest whispers in the
Dark could not hold a place for their
Ears interest.
Now here this….
A simple kiss upon
Thy wrist…
And Rina will be no more.
[Hide Away From Monsters. Living Dead Boy]
Here we are, under darker skies.
I'm here to stay, no matter.
Dear Rina, I'm not letting you fall.
Not at all.
So don't forget I am here, next to you.
Watching over.
All this torment, I shield your eyes.
From the demons.
They will never get you.
To sacrifice heart and soul.
All for you.
I'm listening as you're screaming.
Reaching as if i was all but dreaming.
Just to caress that cheek.
To wipe away those tears.
I'm losing grip.
I'm getting sick.
Listen while I scream.
Scream away all these damn monsters.
As they crawl from my head.
Into clearer days.
Without consent I burned away.
Under all this pain.
Away from all of your eyes.
And As I cry, no one hears.
As I wail in darkness.
Away from all the feeling.
Even with one touch you'd freeze.
I'm but dead, inside the living.
Hiding away from you.
Could you find me?
If I was lost?
I don't think you'd try.
Or you'd try with all your heart.
But that all depends.
Depends if I want to be found.
Darien the dark, lost with all pain.
Crosses carved in.
Scars held upon gentle skin.
[What Rina Is Made Of]
The days couldn’t be darker,
My heart could not be more thin,
With all these beasts scurrying
Beneath my skin.
Tell me that I am waste.
I am a ruptured planet,
The grit of an ancient shooting star,
Crumbled but,
Still shimmering…
Barely.
Swipe me off the earth and
Scatter me again.
The pieces have been shot far beyond
The sinking sun.
Where will Rina go?
I reach for the smirking stars,
Waiting for your arms…
Oh no…
The Glass, the darkness surrounds me and I
Sink the bottom of the dark ocean.
The waves toss me, beat me,
Rape me.
Your screaming hurts my ears,
How can I quiet such pain?
Please stop, Darien…
Please stop the screams,
You or them?
Let me back in.
She reaches for me,
Yanks me under.
Pulls my hair,
Rips nails across my face.
Steel.
She crawls back under my skin and
Scrapes, and scrapes,
And scrapes…..
Her filth injected into me.
It’s not me.
Don’t listen.
The screams.
Do you hear me?
Darien hear your Rina…
Help me,
Where must I find you?
Where must I journey,
My heart is not strong……
Keep screaming love..
I’ll follow those screams,
To the pit of darkness…
I’ll follow them into the dark.
[Through Perils Of The Dead. Across Worlds To You]
I look to the stars.
As I find you're worlds away.
But I still crawl your way.
Across these worlds to you.
Across hell for you.
Your the love I always wanted.
Dear Rina.
I'm coming back to you.
Please meet me in the center.
The wind's so strong, shattering all my bones.
But I'm still walking on.
I'll never give up on you.
Here I'm walking, through fields of glass and rivers of blood.
Nothing holding me back, nothing can.
Not even the tallest waves, as I cross this ocean towards you.
I'm not giving up till I'm with you again.
I'm there, in the center, bloody and bruised.
Laying under stars waiting for you to come back to my side.
Singing with my dreadful voice, I call out to you.
Under stars so bright.
I was lost in all that was night.
To only be found by beauty.
Her name as wondrous as the sky.
Dear Rina, the day I found you.
Was the day my heart began beating.
[Hung Upon A Star. I’ll Reach You Someway]
You are from your world,
And I am from mine.
Two different worlds.
But two of the same.
I hesitate in my steps to you,
And I walk when you bid me run.
I run when you bid me crawl.
Rina can’t bear the disappointment
Of another,
Especially you, Dear Darien.
I’ve stumbled before.
In all Hell you bid me to come to you,
Still I hesitate,
Please understand
I’ve been……
Please, just understand.
I’m looking down on you,
Watching you.
I am hung upon a star,
My neck is starting to bleed.
I am hung upon a star,
So wish upon a star and
Maybe they’ll cut me and I’ll drop down
To you.
I can’t reach you,
You’re all the way down there,
And I’m hung upon a star,
Strung up in my heart…
I struggle to be free,
I grab at the bind,
Hoping to get loose from
This fetter.
Although, I know that If I fall,
It’s a long way down.
I could splat and die,
Or my wings will rebirth
And I’ll fly….
I’ll meet you halfway,
But what’s my limit.
Will I splat darling,
Or will I fly?
[Catching A Shooting Star. Wonder, Wonder]
Watching up high.
I pray for you to fall my way.
Fly my way...
But what if you soar towards other directions?
Leaving me here alone.
Would you ever?
Listening in on whispering words.
She's speaks.
What must I understand?
Just tell me, Dear Rina.
I reach up to you.
A shining star hung up on a noose.
I'm climbing, climbing to set you loose.
Climbing the tallest mountains.
The tallest trees.
Reaching out to you, arms open.
Will you fly my way?
Or soar off in other directions?
But don't worry, I won't let you splat and die.
I'll be here to catch you.
Dear Rina, remember what you said.
We'd be together someday.
When will that day come?
I wonder.
Will it ever be here?
I wonder this as I reach up to you, upon the tallest tree.
Reaching to the farthest star.
I'll catch you.
[Ripping Through Earth. A Fallen Angel]
I reach back to you.
While falling,
I reach back with such an embrace.
My body breaking more
With each crack through the hemispheres.
My wings spread.
I soar.
I fly to you,
Reach for your hand,
To pull you up from that terrible
Place.
I touch your fingertips,
A soft shock.
I’m about to save you,
So close to saving you, love.
Just one grasp and we can be free.
I’m shot out of the sky.
Raging arrows rip
Right through me,
Souls passing through me,
Tearing me apart.
They’ve come for me…
They’ve come to hurt me again.
To retrieve the demon that I am.
I’ve broken their chains,
Tried to break free.
But oh no.
They have come back for me.
My wings give and
Dear Rina spirals to earth.
Landing crushed,
Cracked in an imprint
Of earth.
Surrounded by darkness,
Rina is sucked under again.
They are pulling me down.
To chain me back up.
Such a brutal role,
For a treacherous soul.
I can’t breathe,
My lungs can’t take all the
Filth….
The ground is choking me,
Taking my life.
Darien fly,
Fly away.
Get out alive.
[Our Lost Heaven]
With all my strength I grab your hand.
Pulling you from the earth that swallows us whole when we die.
And with all my breath, I breathe my life into you.
With the last slivers of this waste of a soul, I carry you to the safety under the moon.
Setting you upon the grass we once laid under.
And as the last of me dwindles I stand to the edge.
Watched the last quarter fade.
The ocean below so sweet.
But I lay next to you, holding your hand.
Awaiting you to wake from the deep sleep.
My breath thins.
I reminisce on the past days.
The days when I'd hold you in my arms.
Tell you I love you.
I meant it every time.
All of this heart is yours.
And will always be.
No one will take your place.
Now I hear the creatures crawl, hear them sprawl.
I stand, holding you in my arms.
And from my back, my once broken, shattered wings, sprout.
Black feathers, as black as the ravens.
Raising high above the moon.
I fly off, holding you.
Off to our Lost Heaven.
The place we always wanted.
Wonderland.
As we fly I hold you tight.
Against my heart.
[It doesn’t have to end today. But Rina does]
I feel the wind beneath your beautiful shape.
Me embraced.
The chemicals. The lifting air.
The lifting your strength gives.
Coasting us along.
Your strength keeping us
High,
So very high above the world.
If you let go,
I could explode into poisonous gas
In the sky.
I can feel your arms around me,
So tight.
But I feel you slipping away,
Ever-so-slowly.
Am I letting go?
Or are the creatures yanking you
So far away?
Are they yanking me?
Who knows?
You’re here now, aren’t you?
My eyes flutter open,
Emotion leaks from soggy lips,
Twisted notes fill the black sky.
Frigid words freeze,
I try to speak.
I cry out to you,
But through all the thunder and rain,
Can you hear my cries?
You are as close as beats of your heart
Are to my ears,
And you have yet to hear me.
Rinas heart is leaking,
Breaking,
It’s about to stop beating.
Rina could freeze in her Dariens arms.
Could this be the breakdown of Rina?
This could be our story.
You can take this cold, insidious heart
And chuck it across the Universe
And be okay with it.
Your black wings are so beautiful
To my shaking eyes.
I melt through your arms,
And leak to the core of a worm hole.
No one can save me.
I love you, Darien.
Your Rina loves you.
But she is just broken.
Crackling screams,
And ripped wings.
[No Matter What, I’m Not Leaving You]
No matter what you think.
You're beautiful Dear Rina.
To me, you are the most beautiful thing to wake on this earth.
Nothing could ever compare, nothing ever will.
When I see, hear, even think of you, my heart's in pure nirvana.
I hear your screams, I kiss you gently, hush away the pain.
For they won't get you, not while I'm around.
Deep ghosts of white, hide from sight, for I am here.
I will never let them take you.
As I fly upon darker skies, these monsters tear at my wings.
Still I fly on, to safer places, despite all the blood and pain.
I'm not giving up, not ever.
Crash landings to the far sides of reality's based islands.
I found you still here, gently held in my arms.
Standing, pain surges, bleeds from my wings.
From my soul, soul torn at the seams, fall apart.
Darien the Dark's failing, dying, screaming.
Or is it all but my mind, tearing away at me again.
These voices of the dead, whispering in my ears.
Shattering my soul, bringing me down to that hole.
I'm not listening, not hearing them, they aren't here.
Love, I'm going to protect you from this dreaded world.
That tries to keep you down, I won't let it get you.
I'm here standing tall, even if my body was to die, I'd still be there in your heart and mind.
Nothing's going to get you, tear you from me, not while I'm around.
Welcome to the world of wonders.
Our little Wonderland of Nightshade.
[Stuck In her Head. My Angel]
I’m trapped in my head.
Falling faster with every
Crippling thought.
I’ve seen you fly, Darien.
I’ve also seen you fall,
One too many times.
What can I do?
What can this girl do to help
You stand up straight?
You lay so limp in my arms.
Your body is so cold.
Because of me.
I know it is, they’ve told me.
Heavy weights drag behind me,
Analog memories weigh my
Tears down.
Make them hurt more.
Your beauty is bleeding,
What you had to fly is now
Tattered in my hands.
My hands have your blood on them.
Because of me.
I’ll fix them don’t worry.
This will all get better someday.
My tears wet your velvet cheeks.
Goodbye on my lips.
Unknown whispers seek my ears,
They think Rina is a shadow.
But Rina is a robot.
You love a girl who is completely reliant
On metal, love.
The soul in me screams out to you,
My eyes could tell you everything.
They’ve taken me over,
But my soul is still crying to you.
You’re holding my hand,
Walking along the road to our new world.
You tell me of a love that’s pure,
And that you’ll never leave.
Rina Robot is processing it,
But my soul can’t reach it.
There is a sea of love held
Within your hand,
You could be oceans away from your Rina,
But I know there’s love with every wave.
I’m trapped inside my head,
Screaming to shatter inner demons.
Upon your rope I will succumb,
The robot will do as it’s told:
Destroy.
Destroy me.
I hold you in my arms,
Your breathing so still.
Your broken wings,
Broken heart.
I’ll fix you, I promise.
I set you upon the floor gently,
My hands shaking.
I will succumb to your rope.
Rina takes the rope,
A steel scarf.
Winter falls,
The trees look so welcome.
I think they would like to have tea with me and
My steel scarf.
I walk on….
Staggering.
I look behind me,
Look at your fragile body.
My angel.
[My Eyes Are Bright]
To here I lay limp.
But I'm crawling, in all actuality.
Sprawling on the ground to you.
Your walking far.
Farther and faster.
But still I try, try and try.
This world is nothing without you.
You haven't made me cold, I've always been this way.
I'm bleeding because of demons, writhing in my skull.
They want to rule it all, rule this body and soul.
But I won't let them, their havoc cannot be unleashed.
I stand, limp, faster towards you.
Now I'm running.
Reaching for your hand.
Grasping it tight I pull you in.
What they say is pure sin.
What they say is all lies.
I'm here, so near.
Never letting go.
That scarf isn't going to take you.
I'm not letting them hang you.
I hold tighter.
Stare into your emerald eyes.
Darien's deep hazel faded to dark.
But they've always been this way.
Till that day.
The day Rina.
Danced into my life.
My eyes turned bright.
[Goodbye on my lips. You know I don’t belong]
Heavy tears hit the ground.
I feel your weak body
Arise from the earth.
You need to rest,
Just lay there.
I’ll send out a signal when I’m
Atop the tree.
Before I jump.
Help will come,
They will save you and
Take you away,
Far away from here.
I feel you running.
Taking my hand.
You need to let go.
You know Rina must do this,
You know I must leave.
Please don’t do this,
You’re making it harder on me.
Rina is sin,
My oxygen of choice is lies.
My scarf beckons me to
Use it,
It beckons to warm my neck,
Such fresh blood.
Something called you from your corner,
And fell so softly against your chest.
A spark of life glows in your
Eyes.
Then fades to black.
I need to do this.
Let go.
I tear my hand out of your grasp and
Break for the trees.
I’m getting lost without you.
I hope you don’t mind, Darien.
I claw up the tree,
Hidden.
Satisfied.
Wrap my steel scarf around my neck,
And make a break for it.
[Chasing Beauty. Deep Forest Fallings]
I cry, reachout to you.
I'm not losing you.
Dear Rina, please stay, stay here with me.
Chasing after you I run through trees.
Plastered with red and leaves.
Falls catching up fast.
I have to take haste.
Find you standing, high above branches.
I look upon you, beauty.
Climbing to you, I stand, taking balance.
Looking into your eyes.
Why? I ask, words deeply laced with sadness.
I love you, words deeply laced with heartships.
Turn my head to the ground.
Look back, smile.
Dear Rina, there's no need for this, no need for it at all.
And thus I began to fall, slipped on my own blood.
Stray branches breaking my bones.
The ground resting far below.
Coming up fast, graveyards cheering, all but sneering.
Snickering of dead bodies echoes.
I grab hold of a branch, stopping this aweful fall.
Reaching, I begin to climb once more, faster.
No matter how much pain.
I'll always endure it.
As long as I see you.
Everything seems better.
Reaching the top, I'm fine now.
Grasping your hand again, I whisper in your ear.
Dear Rina, please come down from here.
There's no need for you to hang.
You've done nothing wrong.
So please come down, with me.
[You always come back. I’ll hold you ‘til I die]
I stare at you, Darien.
You’re crazy.
The scarf is tighter.
Maybe if I jump a little faster,
Ball up a little harder.
I won’t have to see the pain on your face.
I stand above all.
Rocking back and forth for balance.
The lace on my dress dancing with the wind.
My cuts screaming into hollow air.
I feel vibrations in the tree.
I feel nature lace through the leaves,
Almost tipping me.
The ground beckons to hold my grave.
I’m always running away.
Always making trouble.
You come to me,
Bleeding….pain in your heart,
Pain in your eyes.
Because of Rina.
You take a steady step towards me,
And slip.
I watch you slip,
I watch you fall.
I can save you,
Why won’t my feet move?
I look down,
Chained to another one of my demons.
Chained to another pretty suicide.
My heart is racing,
I need to save you,
Oh god I need to jump.
I’m ripping my Pointe shoes off,
When I notice silence.
I heard no thud. I heard nothing.
The scarf grows tighter,
So tight I cannot scream.
I see you,
Come back to me.
Ache on your mind.
But love in your heart.
You grab my hand once more,
Sing beautifully to me,
Words packed with love.
I tilt my head and smile.
I wrap my arms around you.
“I Love You, Darien.”
Then with my arms even tighter
Around my love.
I rock backwards,
Holding you tighter this time.
[ Love You. Always Will. Rainy Days]
I remove the dreaded scarf.
Look into you're eyes, giving a kiss to your lips.
I smile, Dear Rina, I'll hold you till the day I die.
Helping you down from the tree.
I stare into the moon, smile held on my face.
The full moon gracing us with its presence.
A wonderous thing, for this wonderous scene.
Holding you dearly, my eyes on yours.
Smiling, I kiss your forehead.
"I love you Dear Rina."
The moon fades to black, giving us darkness.
All for but a second.
Now the sun rises, before our eyes.
So bright and spectacular.
But it's nothing compared to you.
I rest my head on your shoulder.
My body so tired.
But I still stand, Dear Rina.
For you are my everything.
And always will be.
Clouds encircle our sky, shrouding the sun.
A deep grey, looks like a rainy day.
Thus the sky's tears begin to fall.
Sweetly onto our skin, cooling and soothing.
I lay in the grass smiling.
My eyes so bright.
I look at you, you're beauty like no other
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[Darien’s Noose]
The noose has gotten tight.
Around this barren scarred neck.
Rubbing against bleeding skin.
Against my god forsaken sin.
I walk along the line, noose dragging behind.
It's getting tangled and tied around everything.
Choking, oh so fast.
I can't breath.
Will anyone untie me?
Crawling, sprawled out on the ground.
I think I might be dying.
Dying here in front of everyone.
Will anyone stop and pay me any consent?
Save me?
Please?
I can feel it digging deeper inward.
Screaming louder, so inward.
Can anyone hear me?
This noose is killing me.
Slowly choking away the life.
Lifting my sleeve I stare.
Upon the arm.
Holding the pairs of stitched threads.
Wrapping up my arm.
Up my body.
Could anyone love me?
I'm just a tossed rag doll.
Named Darien.
Lost in all gray.
Within a world of color.
Look in the mirror.
Upon cryptic scars.
Touch them over my eyes.
Cover them up leave them be.
Leave them, so no one can see.
Look upon the eyes of the dark.
Eyes of the demon.
Oh so red of blood.
Bleeding tears of sin.
Pour down these cheeks.
Down my pale cheeks.
Staining like a white rose.
No more Darien.
Darien the dark's gone and lost.
Within his own world of gray.
[Look who I’ve found]
Oh Darien, Dear Darien.
I’ll save you.
I’ll untie your scarred neck.
Here let me help you up.
Up into my arms,
Come on, love.
There’s no harm to be done.
Just give me your arms,
To pull you into me.
My arms are mortifying,
They are scarred and cut to the bone.
Don’t be frightened.
Oh Darien, Darien I’ll never leave
You alone.
Do not be frightened,
Just come right here.
With me you’re safe,
You’ve nothing to fear.
They’ve tied you to your wrongs,
I see you tied to your sins,
A broken, letdown dismay you’ve portrayed.
But I’m here to save you, Darien.
I’m here to take you away.
Let yourself loose and follow my lead.
Come on, Darien. Get yourself up.
Pull your gored body up
From whence you came.
I can feel your heart,
You’re so close to safety.
I won’t let you die in front of me,
I won’t let you give up.
Never take your eyes off of me.
People can laugh and cast you away,
But I’ll be put away with you.
Climb out of that hole.
But I know…..
I know when you walk down there,
It cuts you up.
I know when you fall down there,
You cannot get up.
There are creatures down there,
They toss you around like a rag doll.
They beat you so hard that you
Get beaten into the earth.
They toss you about like a paper airplane,
And a paper airplane always gets crumbled and thrown
Away.
You are worth so much more.
You’re beautiful.
And here I walk along the sidewalk,
On a dark and cloudy day,
My tutu even looks so sad,
My Pointe shoes are frayed.
I find my Darien, all tossed away.
Lifeless, he’s cold.
I’ll take him home.
I’ll fix him well.
He will be as good as new.
No one will be able to tell,
That my Darien has been so hurt.
I beret’ my way home,
My dear Darien safe in my arms.
I’ll keep him safe.
Darien, You’re safe from all harm.
[She Came Along]
I lay in her arms as I'm carried away.
Away, away from harm.
She speaks to me so softly.
Calls me her dear Darien.
I smile, for once in awhile.
Lost beyond it all.
I can hear her voice speaking out to me.
Mending my wounds.
Cleaning these scars.
The crosses carved in my arm.
The threads in the other.
She's a wondrous joy.
In her tutu and Pointe shoes.
She looks so beautiful.
I'm glad to have her here.
To be in these arms.
I stand up, stumbling, she holds me.
I stare into those eyes.
She smiles.
Oh my sweet, I thank thee.
For saving me.
For not finding me worthless.
For taking off this noose and these threads.
I can't remember the last time I smiled.
I can't remember the last time my heart skipped a beat.
Place my hand on her cheek.
Rub my thumb under her lips.
I sing to you.
With my muddled voice.
Hoping for you to love my song.
As I sing it to only you no one else.
[Cleaning Him Up]
Oh, my dear.
Please stop screaming, I know
The wounds are deep.
Just a few more seconds now
And my fixing will be complete.
I’ll fix you.
I’ll fix you, my dear.
Please, stop your crying, love.
I know you’ve been badly hurt.
But lookie here, love.
You’re safe with me.
“My name is Rina.”
Shhh. Hush, Love, Hush.
Its okay now, see?
Look you’re all cleaned.
Physically you’re okay.
But what do I do about your poor little heart?
I’ve never fixed one before.
Oh dearie me, your poor little heart.
Your cut and tattered little heart.
Oh, what to do?
No need to thank me,
I was drawn to you.
Taken aback by you.
It’s my fate to save you,
To sew you back together.
To cauterize the wounds,
Inflicted by the ones who deceive.
You’re safe in my arms.
“Tell me your story, love.”
You can stand, you can stand.
Never take your eyes off of me.
You can make it.
Just crawl to me,
If you have to.
You, dear Darien have spread
A smile across my face,
With just your presence.
Now come to me, my dear.
Dance with me.
Sing to me.
Oh, you’re voice is so beautiful.
I dance to your song,
My heart moves in waves, not beats.
I dance for you,
Dance with me?
[Hello, Dear Rina]
Oh, dear Rina.
I shall tell you my story.
The story of this destroyed heart.
The heart you've mended.
I was once someone of a smile, all the while.
But that soon changed on a faithful day.
One selfish person took me away.
Tortured me, till I nearly died.
Then she brought me back to life.
And killed me again.
It was on a repeated thing.
Some days I thought it'd be different but no.
It never was, always the same.
Always me, to be thrown to the ground.
To rot and unfound.
Till this faithful day when you found me.
I remembered I could be happy.
I could smile.
All because of you my dear, who was drawn to me.
As I am drawn to you.
I stare into those eyes.
So full of beauty.
Looking into that gaze, I take haste.
And give you this kiss.
So full of love.
I want it to fill your heart.
Pull back.
My dear Rina, tell me of your story.
Please?
[Rina's Story]
Ha ha!
I will make that naïve being regret,
The day she ever set her cries into this world.
Oh yes, blood will be drawn.
Oh yes, needles will be broken
Off in her pretty little skin.
My own little triumph over evil.
It will be great.
No one hurts, my dear Darien…
At least…they don’t get away with it that is.
No one gets away with murder.
The story of who broke me,
Still sends its venom throughout
My tangible heart.
He held me.
He told me he cared and
Oh how I fell for him,
He was so thoughtful and perfect to me.
Until, I had gone too far to even turn back.
He grabbed me,
Threw me to the ground,
Beat me ‘til I was blue, he did.
Then is the spur of the horrid moment,
He ripped my heart clean out of me.
Then he left…..
He left me broken,
Blue and
Bleeding on the floor.
He didn’t even look back at me,
Just left.
Then came back and I welcomed him
Back with open arms.
Naïve of me.
How stupid could I be?
I let him back in
Just to be broken again.
Beat me ‘til I was blue,
Literally.
Left me crying in the coldness
Of midnight,
Alone.
Oh Darien, he hurt me so bad.
He has created this monster in me.
It still hurts.
I hate him.
He is the only person that I
Truly hate in this world.
Darien…..
I am a monster like him.
Even ballerinas can be doomed.
[Reaction]
Eyes flare, full of rage.
He will pay, I say.
No one harms you my dear Rina.
I hold you tight, kiss your cheek.
Whisper in your ear.
You're no monster.
Even if you are, I still love you.
We are both hurt beings, with cryptic hearts.
But now we have each other.
We have ourselves.
We will never be alone.
Never again.
We will never be hurt.
Not ever.
Cause if anyone was to try and hurt you again.
I would pin them upon a tall post.
Nails and all, wrapped in barbed wire.
I would show him, that he's made a grave mistake.
Oh a grave one, that'll send him to hell.
I rock you softly in these arms.
Sing to you brightly.
My words full of love.
I send you to sleep my dear.
To wake you soon my love.
I won't let you stay there.
To rot.
Every morning I'll be here.
In your heart and at your side.
No matter what.
I'm here for you my dear.
Rina.
[Are you real?]
So what you’re telling me
Is that you are going to save me?
Oh love, that’s simply impossible.
The gods of all the earth could not save this
Poor being, that I call me.
Not the god of love,
Not the god of all the planets,
Not even the god of good things.
Nothing can save me.
So how can you,
A small being like yourself
Have so much power
To do so?
How can you save me
When I cannot even save myself?
How can I save you when you cannot save you?
How can this be so?
Please, love tell me so that I know.
Your soft arms hold me,
Could I be happy?
Really happy?
Is it a miracle?
Has the world come to an end?
The song that seeps from your lips
Is like honey to my ears.
Its like hallelujah to my life.
Being held before the sun sets,
Before the night has a chance to end.
Safe?
What’s safe?
[Darien's Song]
Can you see these.
Carved in my arm.
A sign of my hasty pain.
The pain caused by you.
Now count to three.
And tell me how many you see.
Crosses carved up my arm.
A noose around my neck.
Let it drag, hopefully someday.
It'll snag, and I'll be gone.
But, I don't want to leave.
I want to breath.
I want to be seen, seen by someone.
But nobody sees me.
Never.
No one sees dear Darien.
He's so repulsive and scarred.
They avoid him.
They leave him to choke till his last breath.
[Rina's Song]
It runs its core across my skin so smoothly,
Oh this incompetent joy!
It breaths its relief into my lungs and
I can breathe once more.
It’s the knowledge of knowing you, dear blade.
Oh how I come to you in need.
What kind of monster am I?
What have you done to me?
I lack the emotion of a real
Human being.
Oh how I long to be seen!
Someone notice me,
Love me.
Breathe into me.
Someone, anyone pour your need into me.
The blade…..
It kisses my skin.
Caressing my deepest pains.
Turning them into pretty little
Lines up and down my body.
Look how pretty I am.
Look darling, I can bleed too.
And Oh! How I can bleed.
Want to watch me?
You’ve hurt me.
Murdered me.
So easily you did.
So easily I surrendered to your
Deceit.
I can’t stay here,
But I’ve no way to leave.
I’m stuck here.
Oh blade…
You’ll save me, won’t you?
“Oh dear Rina, What have you done!”
[His Happiness]
Gods mean nothing to me.
Not ever, not today.
I've been so forsaken, too long has it been.
But indeed I will save you, show you the sky and all it's stars.
Within my chest beats the strongest power of all, my love.
The power of my heart.
As it beats for you.
And only you.
You can save yourself and so can I.
We just need each other's help to do so.
We can rise with each other in our eyes.
Only us
I feel your heart beat against my own as I held you.
Will this world end?
If poor Darien becomes happy?
If he finds someone who loves his voice and heart?
Even if this world ends for this, I will hold you till the fires burn.
And never let them singe your beautiful skin.
Never let it harm you at all.
That is safe my dear.
[Her Sorrow]
Is there no hope for happiness
In this sad girl’s world of dark?
Is there no hope for a better day?
I’ve been keeping my heart
In a little box because it’s all cracked
And torn.
No one will have it!
No, no one will see it.
That ugly thing that I call a heart
Must forever be kept away.
It’s far to broken to belong.
There it no hope of better days.
Not in my world of gray.
You can save me, love.
Oh yes, by god you can try.
And I may arise!
But I will fall…
Again.
You know I will.
I know you will.
Happiness is a joke.
Oh yes, darling it’s a hoax.
A fairy tale, love.
Yes, Happiness is just a lie in
My world of gray.
My world it’s so dark that even shadows
Cannot find their way.
Even the darkest of creatures
Never come out to play.
In my world of gray.
My sorrow, oh the aching of my
Half beating heart!
Will this pain ever succumb?
[Wings]
We both live in this world of gray.
Surrounded by nothing but dark.
But now we have each other.
And my heart houses so many scars.
Scars of my own accord, scars of her accord.
But nothing of your own.
It only beats for you as I've said.
And your heart is as beautiful as I imagined.
Don't keep it in that box.
Show it off.
Show them your beautiful heart.
Make them envious you have found someone.
Don't fear my dear, I'll keep it safe as well.
And even if you fall again, I will be there.
Be there to help you up and take you back to the top.
Time after time, I will even if I die.
And if I fall, will you there to take me back?
Will you raise me back to the top?
Upon this back, black wings are held.
They've long since become useless for they are broken.
But I can feel them mending, since you've came along.
I've felt them fixing.
And in our world of grey, I will show you light.
The light of you and me.
[Reach]
Oh, love don’t you know?
I’ve lived in darkness far too long,
The light will burn my pallid skin.
The light will shove me to my knees.
Oh please, let me stay down here
In this hole.
It’s my comfort zone.
The light will rip right through us,
Don’t you know, love?
Don’t you know?
We won’t live one day into the light.
Is there no hope for us?
I crumble to my knees,
My body is broken.
By heart is broken.
But in this brokenness I will lift
You up to the light.
I will give you the last of
My strength,
My very last breath.
Just reach, love.
Reach for the sky and don’t let up.
I’ll come join you someday,
But for now just reach.
Don’t worry about me.
They will be blinded by your light,
They will run for their skins.
I will keep your light,
I will keep it safe.
But don’t you know, dear.
I am so broken.
I cannot move,
I cannot fly.
Darling, Darling I’m paralyzed!
Just reach…
Reach, love, reach!
[Only To You]
No matter my love, I will not leave you.
Not ever, will I leave you in this hole alone.
Maybe you're right the light will burn me too.
Burn straight through.
I myself have found the dark very nice.
Especially with you here.
It feels so much better.
And we have hope for each other.
And when you crumble I'm there.
Picking you up, holding you tight.
Kissing you, letting you know that I'm here.
And don't worry about me, I'm not leaving you here.
Alone.
I'm staying, don't worry, I'm still here and always will be.
No need for light as long as you're here.
I will fix you.
Sew you up, bandage you.
And reaching does no good without you in my arms.
Cause I'm not leaving you here.
I'm staying my dear.
Staying with you.
Staying for you.
Cause this heart within my scarred chest.
Will never stop beating your name.
Dear Rina.
[What's to Do]
How could someone have tossed you
Out into the cold?
How could they just leave you there?
They are coldhearted.
I will hunt them like an animal
And take them to their knees,
Make them say goodbye,
Turn them into debris!
Its man hunt now and fancy me mad if you will.
But I found an urge in my blood to
Kill,
Kill,
Kill.
But for now…..
Dear Darien, what’s to do?
Journey across the world,
Just me and you?
Journey across our dark little world,
To search for something new?
Oh Darien, what’s to do?
I’ll walk a thousand miles on
My toes for you.
I’ll inhale toxins for you,
Anything for you.
Dear Darien, I love you.
Tell me what you need.
[Show you the stars]
I've no idea my dear who would do such a thing.
But they are nothing now, even if she comes back.
I will show her my scars, show her my knife that will meet her chest.
But my dear for now.
I wish to walk with you.
Along the shore.
As we watch the ocean slowly come our way.
As it lays under this moon's light.
With these stars I will wish upon them.
For this to never end.
Never ever.
I will stay by your side forever.
Hopefully you will feel the same.
As I hear your voice speak my name.
My heart just skips a beat and I smile.
Something I haven't done in awhile.
So let's just stay here for awhile.
Let the stars swallow us into the ocean.
Where the cold waves hold us.
And where I hold you, in the cold winds.
Keeping you safe from everything.
[The Next World]
Her.
I don’t want to see what she
Has done to you.
But it’s clearly visible
I’m here to heal you, Darien.
What’s love if there is no faith?
What’s the moon without the stars,
My love?
I’m not me without you.
Not me at all.
Just twisted and broken…
The night sky holds so much
Potential for a love like ourselves.
Stars shine above us and
The wind whips around our face.
This is the perfect place, Darien!
To stop time and break into the next world.
To stop time and live in this moment forever.
The ocean waters hold a place for us.
We could disappear into the night,
Encase ourselves in waves.
Live among the darkness down there,
Live among the sea creatures.
We could leave.
And no one would find us.
We’d be lost forever,
Together.
Love, we’d be lost.
I always said that you weren’t
Aloud to get lost without me,
But now I am willing.
Let’s go.
I’ll take you there.
Just take my hand and we will bust
Into the next world.
Out of our gray world and into
Someplace more suitable…
Besides darkness.
Come on, run.
Let’s leave.
[To Wonderland]
To be lost with you would be a glorious thing.
The best I could ever imagine.
Just you and I.
A new world for us to see, some thing oh so extraordinary.
As long as I'm lost with you it's worth it.
Take me far away from here, show me something new my dear.
Show this poetic tragedy, something anew.
We're gone, so far off the map, no one will find us.
No one will.
It'll just be you and I.
Searching out for a new world, just us under the moon.
Under these clouds.
In which the rain will fall and wash away our pain.
Away with it all.
.
We're running so far now.
Oh out of sight.
But to us this is our adventure from reality.
To our fantasy, maybe one day we'll fall down the rabbit hole.
Down to Wonder Land, where we'd be safe.
Safe in a world for us.
Where you'd be my Alice and I'd be your Hatter.
[Off We go]
Here we go, love.
Through the thousand trees of Oregon,
Through the oceans where many pirates
Have sailed.
Passed the vicious mermaids, and the many
Battles with undead warriors.
We are off to Wonderland.
Down the throat of us, into the mind of
One another.
Here we go, darling.
Down the rabbit hole,
And into our world.
Where we escape from the real world.
We go into our wonderland.
To forever love in peace.
Just you and me Darien.
Darien and Rina.
Falling down,
Down,
Down into our Wonderland
Where I will be your Alice.
Where you will be my Hatter.
And we will drink away our sizes and
Make fortresses with our tears.
Walk through many doors,
And send sharp arrows through our cards.
Come on, love.
Let’s go.
Let’s begin, Hatter.
Off to wonderland……
Come on, Darien.
Show me what you’ve got.
[Tea Party]
I grab your hand, pull you close.
Kiss your lips, oh my dear Alice.
Let's just get lost here.
Here in our Wonder Land.
Where no one will ever find us.
It'll just be us.
We find ourselves at the table.
Sitting, voices surrounding.
I'm here pouring your tea.
Oh this is our mad party.
Let's take time to enjoy the sight of the moon.
Which engulfs us as we dance and sing.
Such a wonderful thing this has become.
It's become our love.
Our Wonder Land in which we've come to be lost in.
DARIEN AND RINA PART 2
[Under The Moonlight
Under all the moon light.
I danced away on the graves.
While you hung so tightly to him.
I just wanted to run off into, all the dark.
As the ghosts whispered in my ears.
I had no fears of any.
But I could feel them inching closer.
I just wanted to go farther.
Deeper in this cold.
But to all dismay of these outer grays.
Poor Darien, won't ever leave his Rina.
Not even if she's so far from him.
I'll be here waiting.
Waiting till the day you need me.
Darien waits oh so silently.
Hurts so secretly.
Fades oh so quickly.
[Vanishing to Moonlit Skies]
The graves held a familiar sense
Of deadness.
Just like the heart of me.
I sat, head in my hands.
Tears in my eyes.
It was oh so dark,
No one even heard me, saw me cry.
I sat on a soul and waited
For the gruesome hands to reach up from
The dirt and pull me under.
Would you even wonder?
Wonder where
Your dear Rina went?
Would they cry for my name?
To the gray clouded skies,
I begged God to smite me where
I stood.
Whispers to things that aren't there.
Or were there?
I watched my Darien wisp
And run.
Waiting to perish into the
Pendulum abyss…..
Rina decays so quickly.
Hurts so silently.
Rina is breaking down…
No one knows.
Not one soul.
[Take Me To the Burning Skies]
I looked upon the moon.
It's rays seemed to burn through me.
Straight through my skin.
Tearing away what was within.
Watching her up and run, I wonder.
Wonder where?
I follow, but is warded off by the familiar spirit.
I assure myself away, in all pain.
Wanting just to hold dear Rina.
I see her pain, wanting just to soothe her aches.
But to some I'm unwanted even near her.
Who am I to care what they think.
All I want to be is near her.
Wind catches my skin and we're all off.
Watching moving lights from the back seats.
Looking in the rear view, our eyes met.
For such a second.
I could feel her heart in mine.
[Epiphany]
Which way do I go?
Heaven or Hell.
I belong in neither.
Too filthy for Heaven.
Too demented for Hell.
So where does Rina belong?
Ah yes. In the ground,
Purgatory I say.
I should be torn apart by the
Decay there.
The arms plunge right through me
To rip out my internal organs.
To clean me out…
Empty me.
There’s nothing left in Rina.
“Rina, dwell down here. We’ll rip
You apart so easily.”
The ghosts of my past call to me,
They beckon me to cry.
Beckon me to tear at my skin.
Rina can burst to flames.
Peel away her skin,
Throw away the exoskeleton and
Stab at the disgusting molt of
Human waste.
Laugh at Rina.
The ghosts steal her away.
No one even noticed that darling Rina
Was wisped away by tyrant ghosts.
[Down The Rabbit Hole]
I turn, to see her being pulled away.
Far away from me.
Taking haste, I run, faster then ever.
Grasping her hands, I pull her towards me.
Hold her tightly.
I'm never letting you go.
"I'll take you to Wonderland. Where no one
Can harm you." I whisper.
Carrying her off into the deepness of the trees.
I'm rushing down the rabbit hole.
To a place where no pain can reach us.
Standing you up I look into your eyes.
So full of sadness.
All I can do is embrace you.
Hold you tight and assure you.
Everything is going to be alright.
For I am always here and will never leave.
[Falling Away From All]
My eyes are clouded by the sadness
That has engulfed my vision…
Everything is so blurry.
I can barely feel…
But I feel your arms…
Wrapped so tightly around my
Minimal being.
The soil beneath me is soft.
If you let go I would probably sink
To the ground zero of Hell.
I know not what you’re speaking of…
“Alright.” “Never leave you.”
Those words I’ve never heard.
My breathing is so thin,
My lungs are about to give….
I wish you would just let go.
Let dear Rina go and search for
Someone worth it.
Darien, you don’t need a girl who’s
Soul is chained to demons,
And words like riddles.
You don’t need that.
With that I take a final glance
Into your eyes and
I fade into my blurry vision.
I fade into my bottomless soul.
They will tear me…
They will scrape me…
They will be the death of me.
But I fall into the depths of Rina,
Of myself.
I’m sorry that I couldn’t have lived
To make dear Darien crack a real smile.
[Just Can't]
Falling limp in my arms, I hold tighter.
Dear Rina, you just don't understand.
The only one I want is you.
In all truths I know, no one wants me.
No one needs me.
Little Darien the Dark, pitiful and weak.
I look into your eyes, begin to breathe life.
Straight into your lungs.
I can't let you go.
Because you have brought a real smile.
You have made me happy.
I look to my dear.
Holding her, I pulled her in close.
For I love you Rina, more so then anyone
[The UN-SAVED]
An unsavior for an unsaved soul.
Nothing can save me now.
Not much can upside my frown.
I fall.
Fall into the puddle of my broken heart.
The shards so heavily sharpened.
They will slice me up into
Tiny pieces…
No one will be able to put me back together.
An unfixable soul to the one that’s swift
At hand.
An unfixable ballerina toy….
Will sit on a dusty shelf.
Choking on elderly debris,
Drinking self-genocide.
Even Rinas tutu looks so sad,
So sad waving in the wind,
As dear Rina spirals.
They will get me,
Don’t you see?
Listen to me.
They will get me.
No helping Rina now.
She was born unto the generation
Of the unsaved.
So many souls to steal,
Yet they target Rina.
Meet me at ground zero.
[Hang Me High, High Above The Tallest Branch]
My dear I can save you.
Only if you let me.
But in all truths, aren't we all but unsaved.
I hung upon my tree, noose in all.
Swaying left to right.
And in all fright, I couldn't feel the light around me.
All I could see was black, nothing else.
Lips sewn shut, lost in a world of shadows.
But even now, I wish to fix you, ignoring my own injuries.
Just to mend you.
For you are my everything dear Rina.
I wish to save you, to save someone so unsaved.
Now watch me as I swing back and forth.
Noose to the tree.
Blood sliding down my knees.
Will you but save me too?
[Nowhere to go but down]
The strings sewn into my skin.
The blood dripping,
Drip.
I dance for the audience.
The audience of creatures,
And monsters of the dark.
The strings are yanked harder
And Dear Rina falls…..
Falls before the audience of
The lookers who do not see.
To them, she fails…
Couldn’t keep up,
Couldn’t hold that pose,
Couldn’t hold that smile,
Rina fails,
Rina falls.
She bleeds as she’s yanked away from
All she has ever known,
The wounds clearly visible.
But not to the naked eye.
Do you see?
Do you see her pain?
Can you hear her screams?
Even the loudest whispers in the
Dark could not hold a place for their
Ears interest.
Now here this….
A simple kiss upon
Thy wrist…
And Rina will be no more.
[Hide Away From Monsters. Living Dead Boy]
Here we are, under darker skies.
I'm here to stay, no matter.
Dear Rina, I'm not letting you fall.
Not at all.
So don't forget I am here, next to you.
Watching over.
All this torment, I shield your eyes.
From the demons.
They will never get you.
To sacrifice heart and soul.
All for you.
I'm listening as you're screaming.
Reaching as if i was all but dreaming.
Just to caress that cheek.
To wipe away those tears.
I'm losing grip.
I'm getting sick.
Listen while I scream.
Scream away all these damn monsters.
As they crawl from my head.
Into clearer days.
Without consent I burned away.
Under all this pain.
Away from all of your eyes.
And As I cry, no one hears.
As I wail in darkness.
Away from all the feeling.
Even with one touch you'd freeze.
I'm but dead, inside the living.
Hiding away from you.
Could you find me?
If I was lost?
I don't think you'd try.
Or you'd try with all your heart.
But that all depends.
Depends if I want to be found.
Darien the dark, lost with all pain.
Crosses carved in.
Scars held upon gentle skin.
[What Rina Is Made Of]
The days couldn’t be darker,
My heart could not be more thin,
With all these beasts scurrying
Beneath my skin.
Tell me that I am waste.
I am a ruptured planet,
The grit of an ancient shooting star,
Crumbled but,
Still shimmering…
Barely.
Swipe me off the earth and
Scatter me again.
The pieces have been shot far beyond
The sinking sun.
Where will Rina go?
I reach for the smirking stars,
Waiting for your arms…
Oh no…
The Glass, the darkness surrounds me and I
Sink the bottom of the dark ocean.
The waves toss me, beat me,
Rape me.
Your screaming hurts my ears,
How can I quiet such pain?
Please stop, Darien…
Please stop the screams,
You or them?
Let me back in.
She reaches for me,
Yanks me under.
Pulls my hair,
Rips nails across my face.
Steel.
She crawls back under my skin and
Scrapes, and scrapes,
And scrapes…..
Her filth injected into me.
It’s not me.
Don’t listen.
The screams.
Do you hear me?
Darien hear your Rina…
Help me,
Where must I find you?
Where must I journey,
My heart is not strong……
Keep screaming love..
I’ll follow those screams,
To the pit of darkness…
I’ll follow them into the dark.
[Through Perils Of The Dead. Across Worlds To You]
I look to the stars.
As I find you're worlds away.
But I still crawl your way.
Across these worlds to you.
Across hell for you.
Your the love I always wanted.
Dear Rina.
I'm coming back to you.
Please meet me in the center.
The wind's so strong, shattering all my bones.
But I'm still walking on.
I'll never give up on you.
Here I'm walking, through fields of glass and rivers of blood.
Nothing holding me back, nothing can.
Not even the tallest waves, as I cross this ocean towards you.
I'm not giving up till I'm with you again.
I'm there, in the center, bloody and bruised.
Laying under stars waiting for you to come back to my side.
Singing with my dreadful voice, I call out to you.
Under stars so bright.
I was lost in all that was night.
To only be found by beauty.
Her name as wondrous as the sky.
Dear Rina, the day I found you.
Was the day my heart began beating.
[Hung Upon A Star. I’ll Reach You Someway]
You are from your world,
And I am from mine.
Two different worlds.
But two of the same.
I hesitate in my steps to you,
And I walk when you bid me run.
I run when you bid me crawl.
Rina can’t bear the disappointment
Of another,
Especially you, Dear Darien.
I’ve stumbled before.
In all Hell you bid me to come to you,
Still I hesitate,
Please understand
I’ve been……
Please, just understand.
I’m looking down on you,
Watching you.
I am hung upon a star,
My neck is starting to bleed.
I am hung upon a star,
So wish upon a star and
Maybe they’ll cut me and I’ll drop down
To you.
I can’t reach you,
You’re all the way down there,
And I’m hung upon a star,
Strung up in my heart…
I struggle to be free,
I grab at the bind,
Hoping to get loose from
This fetter.
Although, I know that If I fall,
It’s a long way down.
I could splat and die,
Or my wings will rebirth
And I’ll fly….
I’ll meet you halfway,
But what’s my limit.
Will I splat darling,
Or will I fly?
[Catching A Shooting Star. Wonder, Wonder]
Watching up high.
I pray for you to fall my way.
Fly my way...
But what if you soar towards other directions?
Leaving me here alone.
Would you ever?
Listening in on whispering words.
She's speaks.
What must I understand?
Just tell me, Dear Rina.
I reach up to you.
A shining star hung up on a noose.
I'm climbing, climbing to set you loose.
Climbing the tallest mountains.
The tallest trees.
Reaching out to you, arms open.
Will you fly my way?
Or soar off in other directions?
But don't worry, I won't let you splat and die.
I'll be here to catch you.
Dear Rina, remember what you said.
We'd be together someday.
When will that day come?
I wonder.
Will it ever be here?
I wonder this as I reach up to you, upon the tallest tree.
Reaching to the farthest star.
I'll catch you.
[Ripping Through Earth. A Fallen Angel]
I reach back to you.
While falling,
I reach back with such an embrace.
My body breaking more
With each crack through the hemispheres.
My wings spread.
I soar.
I fly to you,
Reach for your hand,
To pull you up from that terrible
Place.
I touch your fingertips,
A soft shock.
I’m about to save you,
So close to saving you, love.
Just one grasp and we can be free.
I’m shot out of the sky.
Raging arrows rip
Right through me,
Souls passing through me,
Tearing me apart.
They’ve come for me…
They’ve come to hurt me again.
To retrieve the demon that I am.
I’ve broken their chains,
Tried to break free.
But oh no.
They have come back for me.
My wings give and
Dear Rina spirals to earth.
Landing crushed,
Cracked in an imprint
Of earth.
Surrounded by darkness,
Rina is sucked under again.
They are pulling me down.
To chain me back up.
Such a brutal role,
For a treacherous soul.
I can’t breathe,
My lungs can’t take all the
Filth….
The ground is choking me,
Taking my life.
Darien fly,
Fly away.
Get out alive.
[Our Lost Heaven]
With all my strength I grab your hand.
Pulling you from the earth that swallows us whole when we die.
And with all my breath, I breathe my life into you.
With the last slivers of this waste of a soul, I carry you to the safety under the moon.
Setting you upon the grass we once laid under.
And as the last of me dwindles I stand to the edge.
Watched the last quarter fade.
The ocean below so sweet.
But I lay next to you, holding your hand.
Awaiting you to wake from the deep sleep.
My breath thins.
I reminisce on the past days.
The days when I'd hold you in my arms.
Tell you I love you.
I meant it every time.
All of this heart is yours.
And will always be.
No one will take your place.
Now I hear the creatures crawl, hear them sprawl.
I stand, holding you in my arms.
And from my back, my once broken, shattered wings, sprout.
Black feathers, as black as the ravens.
Raising high above the moon.
I fly off, holding you.
Off to our Lost Heaven.
The place we always wanted.
Wonderland.
As we fly I hold you tight.
Against my heart.
[It doesn’t have to end today. But Rina does]
I feel the wind beneath your beautiful shape.
Me embraced.
The chemicals. The lifting air.
The lifting your strength gives.
Coasting us along.
Your strength keeping us
High,
So very high above the world.
If you let go,
I could explode into poisonous gas
In the sky.
I can feel your arms around me,
So tight.
But I feel you slipping away,
Ever-so-slowly.
Am I letting go?
Or are the creatures yanking you
So far away?
Are they yanking me?
Who knows?
You’re here now, aren’t you?
My eyes flutter open,
Emotion leaks from soggy lips,
Twisted notes fill the black sky.
Frigid words freeze,
I try to speak.
I cry out to you,
But through all the thunder and rain,
Can you hear my cries?
You are as close as beats of your heart
Are to my ears,
And you have yet to hear me.
Rinas heart is leaking,
Breaking,
It’s about to stop beating.
Rina could freeze in her Dariens arms.
Could this be the breakdown of Rina?
This could be our story.
You can take this cold, insidious heart
And chuck it across the Universe
And be okay with it.
Your black wings are so beautiful
To my shaking eyes.
I melt through your arms,
And leak to the core of a worm hole.
No one can save me.
I love you, Darien.
Your Rina loves you.
But she is just broken.
Crackling screams,
And ripped wings.
[No Matter What, I’m Not Leaving You]
No matter what you think.
You're beautiful Dear Rina.
To me, you are the most beautiful thing to wake on this earth.
Nothing could ever compare, nothing ever will.
When I see, hear, even think of you, my heart's in pure nirvana.
I hear your screams, I kiss you gently, hush away the pain.
For they won't get you, not while I'm around.
Deep ghosts of white, hide from sight, for I am here.
I will never let them take you.
As I fly upon darker skies, these monsters tear at my wings.
Still I fly on, to safer places, despite all the blood and pain.
I'm not giving up, not ever.
Crash landings to the far sides of reality's based islands.
I found you still here, gently held in my arms.
Standing, pain surges, bleeds from my wings.
From my soul, soul torn at the seams, fall apart.
Darien the Dark's failing, dying, screaming.
Or is it all but my mind, tearing away at me again.
These voices of the dead, whispering in my ears.
Shattering my soul, bringing me down to that hole.
I'm not listening, not hearing them, they aren't here.
Love, I'm going to protect you from this dreaded world.
That tries to keep you down, I won't let it get you.
I'm here standing tall, even if my body was to die, I'd still be there in your heart and mind.
Nothing's going to get you, tear you from me, not while I'm around.
Welcome to the world of wonders.
Our little Wonderland of Nightshade.
[Stuck In her Head. My Angel]
I’m trapped in my head.
Falling faster with every
Crippling thought.
I’ve seen you fly, Darien.
I’ve also seen you fall,
One too many times.
What can I do?
What can this girl do to help
You stand up straight?
You lay so limp in my arms.
Your body is so cold.
Because of me.
I know it is, they’ve told me.
Heavy weights drag behind me,
Analog memories weigh my
Tears down.
Make them hurt more.
Your beauty is bleeding,
What you had to fly is now
Tattered in my hands.
My hands have your blood on them.
Because of me.
I’ll fix them don’t worry.
This will all get better someday.
My tears wet your velvet cheeks.
Goodbye on my lips.
Unknown whispers seek my ears,
They think Rina is a shadow.
But Rina is a robot.
You love a girl who is completely reliant
On metal, love.
The soul in me screams out to you,
My eyes could tell you everything.
They’ve taken me over,
But my soul is still crying to you.
You’re holding my hand,
Walking along the road to our new world.
You tell me of a love that’s pure,
And that you’ll never leave.
Rina Robot is processing it,
But my soul can’t reach it.
There is a sea of love held
Within your hand,
You could be oceans away from your Rina,
But I know there’s love with every wave.
I’m trapped inside my head,
Screaming to shatter inner demons.
Upon your rope I will succumb,
The robot will do as it’s told:
Destroy.
Destroy me.
I hold you in my arms,
Your breathing so still.
Your broken wings,
Broken heart.
I’ll fix you, I promise.
I set you upon the floor gently,
My hands shaking.
I will succumb to your rope.
Rina takes the rope,
A steel scarf.
Winter falls,
The trees look so welcome.
I think they would like to have tea with me and
My steel scarf.
I walk on….
Staggering.
I look behind me,
Look at your fragile body.
My angel.
[My Eyes Are Bright]
To here I lay limp.
But I'm crawling, in all actuality.
Sprawling on the ground to you.
Your walking far.
Farther and faster.
But still I try, try and try.
This world is nothing without you.
You haven't made me cold, I've always been this way.
I'm bleeding because of demons, writhing in my skull.
They want to rule it all, rule this body and soul.
But I won't let them, their havoc cannot be unleashed.
I stand, limp, faster towards you.
Now I'm running.
Reaching for your hand.
Grasping it tight I pull you in.
What they say is pure sin.
What they say is all lies.
I'm here, so near.
Never letting go.
That scarf isn't going to take you.
I'm not letting them hang you.
I hold tighter.
Stare into your emerald eyes.
Darien's deep hazel faded to dark.
But they've always been this way.
Till that day.
The day Rina.
Danced into my life.
My eyes turned bright.
[Goodbye on my lips. You know I don’t belong]
Heavy tears hit the ground.
I feel your weak body
Arise from the earth.
You need to rest,
Just lay there.
I’ll send out a signal when I’m
Atop the tree.
Before I jump.
Help will come,
They will save you and
Take you away,
Far away from here.
I feel you running.
Taking my hand.
You need to let go.
You know Rina must do this,
You know I must leave.
Please don’t do this,
You’re making it harder on me.
Rina is sin,
My oxygen of choice is lies.
My scarf beckons me to
Use it,
It beckons to warm my neck,
Such fresh blood.
Something called you from your corner,
And fell so softly against your chest.
A spark of life glows in your
Eyes.
Then fades to black.
I need to do this.
Let go.
I tear my hand out of your grasp and
Break for the trees.
I’m getting lost without you.
I hope you don’t mind, Darien.
I claw up the tree,
Hidden.
Satisfied.
Wrap my steel scarf around my neck,
And make a break for it.
[Chasing Beauty. Deep Forest Fallings]
I cry, reachout to you.
I'm not losing you.
Dear Rina, please stay, stay here with me.
Chasing after you I run through trees.
Plastered with red and leaves.
Falls catching up fast.
I have to take haste.
Find you standing, high above branches.
I look upon you, beauty.
Climbing to you, I stand, taking balance.
Looking into your eyes.
Why? I ask, words deeply laced with sadness.
I love you, words deeply laced with heartships.
Turn my head to the ground.
Look back, smile.
Dear Rina, there's no need for this, no need for it at all.
And thus I began to fall, slipped on my own blood.
Stray branches breaking my bones.
The ground resting far below.
Coming up fast, graveyards cheering, all but sneering.
Snickering of dead bodies echoes.
I grab hold of a branch, stopping this aweful fall.
Reaching, I begin to climb once more, faster.
No matter how much pain.
I'll always endure it.
As long as I see you.
Everything seems better.
Reaching the top, I'm fine now.
Grasping your hand again, I whisper in your ear.
Dear Rina, please come down from here.
There's no need for you to hang.
You've done nothing wrong.
So please come down, with me.
[You always come back. I’ll hold you ‘til I die]
I stare at you, Darien.
You’re crazy.
The scarf is tighter.
Maybe if I jump a little faster,
Ball up a little harder.
I won’t have to see the pain on your face.
I stand above all.
Rocking back and forth for balance.
The lace on my dress dancing with the wind.
My cuts screaming into hollow air.
I feel vibrations in the tree.
I feel nature lace through the leaves,
Almost tipping me.
The ground beckons to hold my grave.
I’m always running away.
Always making trouble.
You come to me,
Bleeding….pain in your heart,
Pain in your eyes.
Because of Rina.
You take a steady step towards me,
And slip.
I watch you slip,
I watch you fall.
I can save you,
Why won’t my feet move?
I look down,
Chained to another one of my demons.
Chained to another pretty suicide.
My heart is racing,
I need to save you,
Oh god I need to jump.
I’m ripping my Pointe shoes off,
When I notice silence.
I heard no thud. I heard nothing.
The scarf grows tighter,
So tight I cannot scream.
I see you,
Come back to me.
Ache on your mind.
But love in your heart.
You grab my hand once more,
Sing beautifully to me,
Words packed with love.
I tilt my head and smile.
I wrap my arms around you.
“I Love You, Darien.”
Then with my arms even tighter
Around my love.
I rock backwards,
Holding you tighter this time.
[ Love You. Always Will. Rainy Days]
I remove the dreaded scarf.
Look into you're eyes, giving a kiss to your lips.
I smile, Dear Rina, I'll hold you till the day I die.
Helping you down from the tree.
I stare into the moon, smile held on my face.
The full moon gracing us with its presence.
A wonderous thing, for this wonderous scene.
Holding you dearly, my eyes on yours.
Smiling, I kiss your forehead.
"I love you Dear Rina."
The moon fades to black, giving us darkness.
All for but a second.
Now the sun rises, before our eyes.
So bright and spectacular.
But it's nothing compared to you.
I rest my head on your shoulder.
My body so tired.
But I still stand, Dear Rina.
For you are my everything.
And always will be.
Clouds encircle our sky, shrouding the sun.
A deep grey, looks like a rainy day.
Thus the sky's tears begin to fall.
Sweetly onto our skin, cooling and soothing.
I lay in the grass smiling.
My eyes so bright.
I look at you, you're beauty like no other
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.Alyss. Faust.
3.14.08-8.13.08
3.14.08-8.13.08
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