Almost me.

Is it not just so funny how
easily you can become someone else?
Oh, the art of masks.
I can be who you want me to be.
Whatever you need me to be.
I'll play nice and smile,
I promise.
Just don't believe it's me.
It's a mask, and it's fooling you.
It's forbidden.
And I'm committing.
This girl is committing a forbidden crime.
Death penalty is sure to be
landing on her shoulder.
You like what you see,
I know you do,
but you're decieved.
I'm fooling YOU.
So believe what you will,
but it's secretly almost me.
I'm watching your every move,
and you don't even see.
You think me someone else.
Someone that you know,
but not at all.
I'm different from them all.
The art of these masks.
The potential to lie.
I love it.
And YOU love it to.
Otherwise, I wouldn't be
thinking
me
as
you.

The world as I know it.

Why settle into this world,

when there are so many

of other peoples worlds to wander in?

I could stroll through

the pages for days,

always enticed by what I see.

Another human thoughts and ideas,

in front of me for my viewing

pleasure only.

Could I be apart of their world?

There must me a small role for me

to play.

I'll be anything I can be to your world,

just let me in.

And what if I were to create a whole other world,

besides my own

that people could wander through,

would they be awed by what they see?

In my world,

everything is upside down.

Who wants to live in this world anyway?

There's no strange creature, no one has

any supernatural powers, colors are dull

and people are plain.

The human world is boring,

I would much rather spend it in someone

else's world apart from the human one.

And in it, I'll let my imagination feed

and absorb.

Then someday you may find yourself wandering

in a world of my own.

D&A[Alice]<3

This is it!

You know what? I am so SICK of being insecure about myself. Seriously, fuck it. I am a good Poet, and I definately know it! Yeah, so what, Sometimes I write amazing things, and sometimes I write crappy things. I'm human, I make mistakes and the whole point of finding your voice is to make mistakes to see what works for you and what doesn't. So fuck it! I am going to post my work on here and you can like it or you can take a hike because I am a writer/poet and it's what I love to do and I want to share it with the world. Every single thing I write is straight from the heart and was made to deliver some type of message, even if it is hidden. So take a look inside of my mind, wander around a little bit and tell me what you think, things I could improve and even suggestions! And I love when people give me prompts to write about.

-D&A exAliceEx<3

Jaylee's Response to "Who Am I Now?"

I don't know who is who anymore,
But I know who I am voting for.
Your throne is still here,
Do not shed a tear.
You're still the Queen of Hearts,
You can't believe Aeris, here
Has stolen your crown,
Of Wonderland, dear.
You have not been ripped apart,
Alice, there, is but a fan
Of the Marvelous Wonderland,
That's described in a moving picture.
I don't believe she knows
A flame from a light fixture.
She knows not of the real Wonderland,
Just what's held in her hand.
She is not what you are,
You're not what she acts.
Alyss' true character is what she lacks.
So do not fret or worry at all.
You're the one standing Brilliant and tall.

Who am I now?

What has happened to me?
Has my role been replaced?
For I am no longer Alyss,
Forever the queen of a beautiful place.
I have fallen off the earth,
And with that Aeris arose.
Taking my place at the throne,
while I am lost in the unknown.
My mind has taken me captive,
And I am chained to a drone.
Yet here I still lie,
Suspended in time and all alone.
Where have I gone?
Do I hold no place in Wonderland anymore?
She has replaced me,
And here I lie, washed up on the shore.
So who is the real Alyss,
Could you please say?
Who holds the position,
I need to know today?
I thought that I was Alyss, Ruler of Wonderland,
But I can see that I was fooled.
For I never existed in such a place,
So here I lie, residing by the pool,
Of Tears that is,
My existance is finally taken away.
So here I jump into this, suicide,
So I won't survive next today.
Sincerely, The Old Ruler of the Heart Throne <3

6/27/10

The last time.

The last time I saw her,
She was walking to the moon.
Her blue dress was sending ripples
into the time where I am now.
My heart ungulates.
Taking her throne with her.
Leaving me stranded on planet earth.
The water fills my lung.
She waves, tears stream so lightly
down her pink cheeks.
A Queen sheds a tear for me.
The earth I once knew crumbles under my feet.
I fall to the core.
Hot and demonic.
I scream as the crust restores itself,
leaving me here.
Hellish chamber.
Scream, Queen.

Right Now.

I am asking myself an impossible question and that is...
Do I honestly care what happens to you?
Right now,
This second,
This minute,
This day,
This month,
This year?
Do I care?
Am I really going to waste one bit of thought on you?
Too late,
I already did.
Do I care?
Right now, I don't.
Right now I would rather see someone digging your grave,
than see your pathetic words....
Written across this screen.
I'd rather know you are dead.
Knowing that you are NOT coming back.
Knowing that you are burning in hell...
Getting what you deserve.
I'd rather know that than
know that your stone heart is beating,
knowing that your black lungs are breathin.
I'd rather you be breaking.
And I know you are.
Oh, I can see it.
I can see you struggle with every step you take.
That you struggle with every heart you break.
I can see it.
And I can feel your lungs about to burst.
I hope they do...

I hope they do.
Face it, darling.
I Hope You Choke.

-D&A(exAliceEx)<3

Watered Down.

They stand on the shore,
Watching me sink.
I sink deeper.
Muck in my mouth.
I swim through the muck to become
invisible.
And they smile as they watch my life
sink down into the depths
of my watery hell.
Where no light wanders.
When no angels tread.
Where not even God looks.
I sink to my lowest,
sink to my knees.
Sinking, always sinking.
And I perish.
Flesh drifting away, my eys crusting.
Shut with salt.
I perish.