Parkour

So I have recently become very interested in the idea of pursuing parkour. Of course I know the dedication and time it will take to even get remotely good, but I really want that. To be able to free run and do amazing moves in the air, flips off objects, scale walls...the idea make me so happy. I know I can't just jump into it. I have to exercise and become more familiar with my body, that's the first step. I've never liked my body, I have always hated it. I wonder if I will ever love my body, who knows? All i know is that I see a goal, a beautiful thing in front of me and I am going for it.
Sometimes I don't believe I am living in this world. Yes, my body is here, but it's like I live in a different reality. Everything is just so chaotic and crazy, I suppose I retreat. I miss writing so much. I just want to take one day to just spend with my poems, and another day to go to the beach and paint. Not scenary's or anything. stuff that I draw. I love sitting on the swings at Rotary Park, they are so close to the water that when I swing high enough it feels as if I am flying over the water and that's the closest I get to flying without a pilot's license. I feel lost.

.Queen Alyss.