End of ze world! 2012.

I never thought I would get to live to see 2012. After all, the only way to define 2012 years ago of, the end of the world! Well, if it is the end of the world on whatever day this year, I want to stand on top and watch it fall. I'm ready to go when it is time, but until then...I am really excited about all the new music I will get to hear this year. I love music. It's like another way to speak for me. And not to mention all of the things that I can accomplish this year. 2011 was fun. I lived in my first rental home, and moved into my second home. I became a Nursing Assistant(Now, I never thought I'd reach a goal like that, but I did.) I got married. I lost my job for the first time. I got to watch my son, Mason learn new things. I got an entire year and a half of school done in one year because I busted my ass. In 2011, I also learned the true meaning of "adult stress." Juggling four classes, full-time mom, full-time job(extremely hard and labourous job working in a convelescent home. On the other hand, I can successfully bench press old people.) The only thing I did was really sleep and dream..or nightmare. In 2011, I also lost myself in the midst of this crazy "normal human life" that I must pursure to last in this extremely human world. There's gotta be something more, right? I think that we are living within a dimension within other dimensions. Come one, out human eye can't see everything! Anyway, I experienced some pretty intense psychological stress...but I got through it. It's been really tough trying to pursure my goal of becoming a Nurse. I love school. I love to learn, to flousih. I have given and will continue to give an immense amount of studying to pursue these goals. I wish to become the smartest that I absolutely can be. Right now I am just the Jack of all trades, but a master of none. In 2011, I discovered something new about myself though and that is...that I don't give up. at anything. I finished everything I said I would this year, I pushed through the tough spots without hesitation. I have determination, and that makes me happy because I didn't know mine was so strong until I looked back and saw for myself.
I hope that I can accomplish even more in 2012 than what I did in 2011. 2011 was kind of like placing the stepping stones for me. I have paved my way to success, yes, I did that. And I will still pave it. No one will stand in my way. I will not be walked on. After all, we are all only flesh and blood. We have big mouths for being so easy to kill, I think. I am excited to see what is going to happen in 2012. I can't help but wonder if the Mayan's were right. Wondering and Curiousity are my thing, so I will not pardon myself on account of other people's judgments.
In 2012, I would like to write and draw more. I am taking a drawing class at the college. My VERY FIRST art class at the college. I am excited to learning the basic of drawing so that I can better myself. It's frustrating having an image in your head but being unable to put it on paper.
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.Alyss.
[First Rant of 2012]